How many days has it been? Three? Five? A week? Does it really matter? Not to me and I bet not to Alice. I couldn't tell where she was. Her emotions are hard to read, but that might be my fault. I disconcerted myself from the world beyond me. I found comfort in a small abandon factory. The windows still had glass intact and it was on the out skirts of the town; a perfect paradise to lay there in self pity for the rest of my immortal life. I hadn't eaten since I was still friends with her. I was tired, hungry and miserable. I toyed with Alice's emotions without any thought of how it might affect her. Tell her I don't love her, I get ignored; kiss her then I get slapped. There was nothing I could do right. She made it so complicated, so frustrating. I wished I never walked through that cafe in the first place. I wish I never laid eyes on that confusing, pixie, beautiful, graceful, most interesting person. I regret wishing for that. She turned the world I knew into a glowing home. It was my fault for not being with her now. If only I just told her how I felt, that I love her way more then I loved Maria. She would be holing my hand right now talking freely about nothing instead of heartbroken and closed off. I sighed. The sun barely came through the windows; the whole place was dark beyond the light. I was amongst the dark. A filthy monster. A rat scurried by my feet; I had half a mind to hunt it but I didn't move. This was my punishment. I curled into a ball and waited for something to kill me off.

Feet lightly brushed the floor. Too lightly for a human and too swift. I wondered if another vampire found this place a perfect place to stay out of the sun's rays to. If it was another one, I wouldn't care. They could remove me if they thought I was in the way. The steps came closer but I was barely listening. I was still wrapped up in my pity. Finally the steps ended in front of me. I was waiting for someone to ask me to move. But no one did. I didn't look up at the mysterious person. Do what they pleased with me. I herd a rustle and realized that he/she was sitting down. If they wanted my company then they weren't going to get much. I went back to my painful mind. Another rustle and the person was closer to me, breathing right on my face. I tired to expand my senses, I tired to figure out who this guy was but I could only smell the rats and my despair. It was starting to irritate me so I tuned in to their feelings. Nothing. I was worse then I thought or he/she was good at masking their emotions. I waited for it to say something, but he never did. Instead I felt tender lips pressed closely to my ear lobe. This really wasn't what I had in mind of getting me to move. I jumped up ready to ask what the guy was thinking then I saw who it was. Brown hair, short, red piercing eyes, pale.

"Maria" I gasped in astonishment.

She seemed to enjoy my shocked expression. She got up and strutted over to me. "Hello Jasper. It's been a long time." She circled me, brushing her fingers on my shoulders.

Not long enough, I wanted to say. "How did you find me?" I asked still amazed she was here.

"Come now Jasper. You know I'll always be attached to you in a way. It wasn't hard," she stopped circling and stood in front of me. "I just had to follow the confused miserable trail. You look startled. Are you not pleased to see me?"

Yes. "No. It just caught me by surprise. I thought the Volturi would have finished you." I kept thinking how beautiful she looked today, or tonight. She was wearing a blue laced top with a long black skirt. Her hair was pulled up by a ribbon and her face glowed.

She smiled widely. "We barely escaped. The numbers of deaths wouldn't have been so large if you were there." She rapped her arms around my neck.

I tried so hard to read her emotions but something prevented me from doing so. She looked at me with her red eyes, pursing her lips.

"Something's different…Oh! Your eyes. They're more of a yellow color." She squinted. "You don't look like yourself." She freed one hand and stroked my check. "But the traces of your past will never leave you." She brushed one of my scars

"Why are you here?" I narrowed my eyes and hoped she would leave soon.

She tilted her head back and laughed. "Can't a comrade stop by and say hello to another comrade. Why must there be a reason for my visit?"

"Because I know you. There's a reason for everything you do." I grabbed her wrist that was still stroking my face. She didn't look offended. Instead she intertwined her fingers through mine.

"You think so badly of me. I swear I'm only here to see you. There's no twist or catch" she moved closer 'til her mouth was inches from mine. "You can't say you're not thrilled to see me. You were always so formal between us, but I know you really were infatuated with me. And I was with you." She spoke softly, her breath on my lips.

I remember how I always wanted her to know that I wanted to be something more then a comrade. I should have been excited to hear that she felt the same way, but I wasn't. Flashes of Alice popped in my mind, reminding me to not let her go. Yet I couldn't shake off what Maria meant to me. Do I still have to same feelings for Maria or not?

She thought my pause was an invitation to make another surprising move. She brought her lips to mine kissing slowly at first but then more passionate. I kissed back just to see how I felt. There was nothing there. I didn't lose my breath, I didn't see fire works. The kiss was meaningless. I could have been kissing a tree. My lips stopped moving and after a moment hers did to.

She eyed me doubtfully. "What is it? I thought you wanted this."

I shook my head, feelings of joy and thrill pouring out of me. "No, I don't want this. I thought I did but I really want it from someone else. You just made it vary clear. I don't love you anymore. I'm in love with another woman. Thank you for making me see that."

With a bow I un-hooked her arms from my neck and hand and took off to the entrance. I heard Maria threatening she would end my life but I laughed at how ironic that was. Just a few minutes ago I would've welcomed that with open arms, but right now I wanted to stay alive with the one person who mattered most. I slammed through the doors and ran to my one true love to tell her how I really felt.

Srry for any missed spelt words or other errors