Part 4
Crash
I just remember flashes of what happened next... I remember a tall guy trying to wake me up... I was so tired... so sad...
-Come on Miley wake up, MARCUS WHERE THE HELL ARE THE PARAMEDICS!!!
-They're coming, Mike... she's...
-She's still alive, I'm not going to lose them both Marcus, GET THOSE PARAMEDICS!!!
I didn't knew at the time... after seeing what I saw... I didn't noticed... that despite Lily's sacrifice... one of the shots got me... that's why she said she was sorry... she knew... I was so numb that I didn't felt it... then came the detectives... the shot I heard... was Detective Lowrey killing the monster that shot Lily... why didn't he came early... the next thing I saw was the paramedics... the ambulance... I was so tired... so hurt in all ways a person can be hurt... I just closed my eyes... and everything felt so peaceful... I felt... embraced by something I can't explain... three days later when I woke up in the hospital Dad told me that my heart stopped working for a couple of minutes on the road... is that what dying feels like?... is that what Lily felt?... I wish I could ask her... she looked like an angel... the doctor allowed me to attend the funeral... she was beautiful, wearing that white dress... Oliver didn't attend... Dad said he was so devastated that he got in such a denial state that they had to sedate him... he loved her so much... who could blame him... the coffin was also beautiful... it had the words "To the most incredible big sister" engraved in gold... I didn't understood until Jackson told me it was a gift from Rico... he never mentioned it to anyone nor he ever allowed anyone to ask him about it, just once he told Jackson about it, he loved her a lot... that day... Rico told Jackson about the times when Lily helped him do his homework... He also gave her a gift that that was the most beautiful thing anyone could have done for her, somehow he managed to get Orlando Bloom to attend... to everyone's surprise he remembered her from a letter she managed to give him one time... he kissed her forehead and placed a rose with a letter in her hands that read "To my Lily Bloom"... the contents of letter are only between he an Lily... later I understood how Oliver felt the minute they began to lower the coffin in her grave... I lost it completely...
-LET GO OF ME!!! SHE'S GOING TO BE OK I TELL YOU!!! STOP IT!!! LILY PLEASE!!!
-Miles...
-DADDY TELL THEM TO STOP!!! LILY HAS TO BE OK!!! PLEASE!!! DAD
He had to slap me... he held me like only a father can when I fell on my knees and cried trying to believe that this was nothing but a bad dream... a nightmare I was going to wake up at any minute... but I had to accept reality... I had to go back to the hospital... another surgery to make sure I had no more damage internally... then... two months of bed rest... then I came home... I spent days in my room... crying silently until my pillow was too wet to be slept in... I couldn't bear to enter my Hannah Montana closet... everything in there reminded me of Lily... of that first time I showed it to her... the night she discovered I was Hannah Montana four years ago...
-It's a dream... a beautiful dream... OK end of dream... these have to be mine!!! What shoe size are you?
-6
-I'm 7, I'll make them fit!!!
I can feel the water going up as the tide changes... but I want to stay here at the beach... looking at the stars... the water is warm... I feel it embrace me... its like being a feather... moving side to side... I can see the stars getting brighter and brighter... they're so beautiful...
-MILEY!!! MILEY COME ON!!!
I was so close to the stars... now... I'm on the sand... coughing water... with Oliver... kissing me?... no... he was giving me CPR...
-What were you trying to do?
-I... miss Lily too much...
-And killing yourself was the way out? Lily gave her life so you could live on Miley Elizabeth Stewart!!! Are you willing to throw that gift away? You want to repay her sacrifice by destroying the very thing she gave her life to save?
-Oliver I...
-I was devastated and you know it... but I overcame it because I finally understood that it wasn't what Lily could have wanted me to do...
-SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND!!!!
-And she was my girlfriend... but you have to overcome it... and... there's something you should know...
I couldn't believe what Oliver said next... he got out an old sleeping pills bottle... I could still read the name of the person they were prescribed for: Heather Truscott... Lily's mom... Oliver told me that one day Lily confessed to him that she was so hurt by her parents divorce that she was going to kill herself... and the fact that I kept being away as Hannah Montana was the drop that broke the glass... but that same night... the night when she planned to do it she came to my home... her plan was to see me one last time... it was the day when I told her that she was to become Lola Luftnagle and I gave her the clothes she was to wear and that purple wig she loved so much... she told Oliver that I had saved her life...
-So... please... you have to be Hannah Montana again... for Lily... so her sacrifice has the value she intended... come on... I'll take you home...
I don't know yet if I'll be Hannah Montana again... I just got a letter of acceptance from Princeton College... with only two months of high school left... maybe it will be better if I go off to college... away from all this stuff and places that remind me of Lily every minute of every day... Rico closed the store at the beach... he couldn't stand not seeing Lily eating there every day... Dad said it was my decision to make... for now... I'll let my options open... like Oliver told me at school a couple of days ago...
-Give time the time to heal your heart... Lily would appreciate that...
The End...