Yay I updated again! XD Oh and, the question about Bella's powerws will be answered soon, like in ch5 or 6.
I looked into the golden eyes glancing back at me. Was I still dreaming? Am I really hallucinating? I didn't care. At that moment I just wanted everything to be the way things used to be. I wanted to see Edward again. If that meant that I had to be dreaming or even hallucinating, I couldn't be picky since he would never really want to be with me, so I hugged him.
I could tell this was just me dreaming. He would never feel so cold yet warm at the same time. I cried just thinking how I would never be able to do this anymore with him. He stroked my hair and hugged me back. 'If only this was real,' I thought to myself. I felt content with even just this gesture. It feels like home in his arm; I wouldn't give it up for the world.
He sighed and began to speak, "Bella, I'm sorry. I didn't want to leave you. I'm in love with you." The world seemed to stop when he said the last sentence. I gritted my teeth and pulled back.
I knew my eyes would fill with tears- and anger. I was brought back to reality. He didn't love me! He told me that himself! I grabbed my sword and pointed it in his direction. "Get away from me! You're lying! I know you are!" I struggled to keep in the sobs building up in my throat, but I couldn't stop the tears from falling on my face. He looked surprised; I bet he was surprised to find that his "Bella" was no longer the little pure girl who fell for his tricks!
"Bella…I do love yo…" I interrupted him.
"No, you don't! I won't be fooled by you again! I hate you! Get out of my life!" I felt my heart become heavy. I truly didn't want him to go, but I wanted my life to be with someone who really did love me and never leave me.
"Bella, I won't leave you again. I'm sorry." His eyes were pleading, but I wanted him to suffer just as much as I did. He tried to come close, but I instinctively backed away and fell of the bed. Ouch! I landed on my elbow and it hurt too much. Why did I have to become clumsy now?!
"Bella, are you ok?!" he asked. I groaned from the pain. God, why me? He came close again but I got my sword and pointed it back at him.
"Leave me alone! Just go away." Hurt was visible in his eyes as he backed away and quickly left out the window. Oh, so I left the window open, again? No wonder.
Wait! That was really him? I'm not dreaming? I bit my lip, trying to contain myself from screaming from the pain. So I really did just hug him? I just pointed my sword at him twice?! I really just embarrassed myself by falling off my bed?! God, the only thing that could make this worse is if I was wearing my pajamas with mountain lions on them. I looked down and silently cursed myself. I was.
I pushed my sword under my bed and got up to close the window. How could this day turn from boring, semi-good, bad, good, then dreadful! I got back on my bed and caressed my sore elbow. I'll have to tell Charlie about it I guess, the falling part not the whole Edward thing. I didn't go to sleep, but I did think about the recent occurrences.
The Cullens are really back, and Edward just came here. He basically lied through his perfect teeth about loving me, and I was almost about to fall for it. Oh my God, I'm not over him yet! This cannot be happening to me! I thought I was over him? I even considered starting to date again! How can I not be over him yet! I got up and paced my room.
I repeatedly stated that I, Bella Swan, am over the disgusting, but handsome, Edward Cullen, but I still feel like I had the smallest sentiment for him. When will this torture end? I calmed myself again and went back to bed. Straining and depriving myself of sleep is not going to help…I think. I should probably just have a goodnight's rest. Sadly, my clock started to ring and I groaned. Have I been up all night? Stupid vampire!
I got up again and slumped downstairs. I saw Charlie sitting on the couch watching TV. Good, he's awake. "Hey, Ch- dad, can I talk to you?"
He looked at me and was filled with surprise, "What happened to you, Bells?"
I giggled uncomfortably, "Um, well, a funny thing happened last night. While I was asleep, I fell on the floor and landed on my elbow. It is still throbbing and I was wondering if…um…you could take me to get it checked out?"
He stifled a laugh and nodded, "Sure…Bells." I glared at my father for quite some time as he got his stuff ready. I went back to my room to get ready and went back downstairs to go.
We quietly drove to the hospital where we went to the waiting room. We saw the nurse who was seated at back of the desk smile at us. "Bella, I haven't seen you in a while! What wrong now?" I blushed and smiled sheepishly.
"She accidentally hurt her elbow." I could feel both their eyes glance at me for a while and they started to chuckle. God, I hate myself, please kill me now.
"Ok, the only doctor available is Dr. Cullen." I tensed up and found myself clenching and unclenching my fist. There is no way! I had enough of this.
It surprised me when Charlie agreed. I looked at him like he was crazy. We both sat down to wait and I just had to know what was going on in the old man's mind.
Unfortunately, he beat me to it, "Now Bella, I know you don't want to, but I think you should give them a chance."
"What, give them a chance?! You want me to give them a chance to break me again?!" I whispered, but I felt myself raise my voice a few times.
"Bella, I don't want you to get hurt again, but I think you should at least give them another chance to make up for what they did. They love you, you know." I got tired of hearing that! No, they do not!
"They do not!" I screamed. I suddenly felt embarrassed. I felt all eyes on me, so I lowered my head and covered my face with my hands. I wanted to go home, I wanted them to leave, and I wanted my life to be normal like the rest. I didn't want to feel this way anymore. I didn't want to feel like my life is so…complicated.
I felt hands rub my back and I fought to calm myself. Breathe in, breathe out. Breathe in, breathe out. I plastered a smile on my face and told my dad I was fine. He pulled back and told me to cheer up, and that's exactly what I did. Texting Angela might help, so I pulled out my phone and started to text Angela.
'Hey, Angie, wat's up?"
'Nothin much Bebe." Oh, did u hear 'bout the C's comin bak"
'Yah, sucks much.'
'Did Cullen try to see u?"
When the wolf pack rescued Angela, I told her about the Cullens too. I also told her how Edward used to sneak in to see me through my window. She pretty much knows everything, and I knew that she could keep a secret.
'Yep, I ended up with mor hartbrek and a sore elbow.'
"OMG, did he hurt u? I am so gonna kill him!'
'LOL, let's do it 2day. Huntin EC just might be fun! Oh and no, I fell off my bed. Don't laugh tho.'
'kk, I wont'
'Any otha news?'
'Well, the C-kids r goin to r college…'
I dropped the phone. They're going to our school?! Just then, I heard Carlisle come to tell us that he was ready. I gulped trying to avoid looking at him. This was going to be fun!
I picked up my phone and told her I had to go. I walked with Carlisle and Charlie and we sat down on the bed in the room. He started to check my elbow and I shivered at his cold hands. Man, why can't this be over?
"Well, she seems to have a broken elbow. It'll heal in about a 4 to 6 weeks so she shouldn't use it for a while."
He put a cast on my elbow so that I wouldn't be able to use it.
"Oh, thank you Dr. Cullen." Charlie replied sincerely. He looked at me expectantly and I sighed.
"Um…thank you…." He seemed pretty sad so I decided to play nice. "Um…?"
"Please, Bella. Call me Carlisle."
"Um…Carlisle…would it be ok if…I see…your family again?" So I could kill them off! I had to push that thought aside, even though that would be a good ambush.
"Of course, Bella, we all missed you so much!" He seemed to have brightened up. "Esme and Alice have been dying to see you again." The end of my lips curled up as I pictured Esme and Alice. I would love to see them again. Maybe I could give them a chance…or I can use this as an advantage to get rid of them- although I didn't want to hurt Esme or Alice.
"Sure!" I said as I jumped of the table-like bed. I hesitated as a thought hit me, but I felt it was the nice thing to do so I, awkwardly, hugged Carlisle and thanked him before I ran out the room.
I need emotional support before I go into the battlefield so I raced towards the car, got in and hid. I was sure that maybe one of THEM was bound to show up and I didn't want to see any of them until I was emotionally stable. Killing a few more vampires, hanging out with my friends, and a few breathing exercises might help.
As soon as I was calm, Charlie was in the car and driving back home. I asked if I could go to Angela's before I could go to THEIR house, he gave me the ok and I left.
I got into my truck and drove to Angela's house. She greeted me at the door and I told her everything that happened. She thought that I should probably give them a chance, but I still felt like they should pay.
"Ok, Bella, they did that for your safety. You should at least try." I flopped down one her bed and just laid there. Now Angela thinks I should give them pity for hurting me?
"No…I can definitely not forgive them. Maybe I should skip out on them." Angela gave me a very disagreeing look, so I sighed. "Fine, fine, I'll go, but can we at least go for one little hunt before we go?" I pleaded with my eyes and she finally gave in.
"Fine, just don't be long, ok?" I nodded and was about to get out from the window until she stopped me. "Wait, I want to go too!"
I looked at her skeptically. "You have got to be kidding! You might get hurt."
"Hey, I've practiced with Jacob many times. I want to hunt my first vampire today." She said boldly. I stifled a laugh at her bravery.
"Angie, I'm not going to let you get hurt…not again." Picturing the events from last year, my fist tightens on the edge of the window. It really was entirely my fault.
"Bells, I'm not going to get hurt, trust me!" I thought for a second, and decided to let her just this once.
"Ok, but if you get hurt, you are never going to hunt again…ever!" I put emphasis on the "ever."
"Ok, ok, I get it." We both went out from the window and got into my car; Angela drove since it was hard to drive without using my left arm. It's a good thing I learned how to fight with both hands.
"Nice cast by the way." Angela teased.
"Shut up Angela. I can't help it that I'm so clumsy." I pouted, "Oh, I have to call Jake." I called Jake and asked if he could give me that certain "thing" he said he made for me. He said he would me meet at the forest to give it to me, which I was happy about since I've been waiting for it ever since last week.
We finally made it to the forest and saw Jacob.
"Finally, I get to have a little sword with me!" He gave me the sword, half my sword's size, and I hugged him as appreciation. "Thank you!"
"You're welcome, Bells. Don't hurt yourself with it though." I knew what he was talking about as he glanced at my cast.
"I fell!" I yelled and stomped my foot.
"Did you just stomp your foot?" They both laughed while I groaned and stomped into the forest.
What grand friends I have! I heard them following me and I reminded myself about the whole 'hunting' issue.
I threw Angela the small sword that I had recently received and took out my own. "Okay, Angie watch your back and always listen intently." I instinctively went into hunting mode and began to search for vampires. I could see Angela and Jacob hiding in the shadows, which was hard because they blended in so well, and I smiled at how good they were. Maybe Angela won't get hurt.
I automatically jerked my head towards the rustling of the leaves. There was definitely something in here.
A POV
Get your butt down here, Ed! We have to go hunting!
I could hear an audible sigh from upstairs and I knew he had no choice but to come down. I tried to warn him that he shouldn't have visited her so soon, but he just had to ruin it.
I saw him slump down the stairs and I felt very sorry for him.
Eddie, I know something that will cheer you up! I thought, cheerily. He was definitely going to like this surprise!
"What?" He wasn't even going to guess?! Man, he's no fun.
"Jeez, you're no fun! I guess I'm not going to tell you about Bella!" He lifted his eyebrow and seemed very interested.
"What is it?" I prepared to start a little conversation, in Japanese, in my head so I wouldn't give it away.
He grinned, "Alice."
I started the conversation about shopping in Japan in my head. Ha!
"Alice, just tell me."
"You have to guess." I sang as I conversed about their skirts and pretty accessories. Their shoes in that shop were definitely cute!
"Alice! Please, just tell me, and stop saying 'kawaii', it's scaring me." I giggled.
"Okay! Bella is coming over!" He broke out in a full smile.
Sadly I can't see her for some reason.
"Why?" Why is she coming over or why can't I see her?
"Why can't you see her?"
"Maybe because someone is interfering…like a werewolf…"
"What?!"
"Hey, that's just my theory, but right now we have to hunt."
He hesitated but gave up, "Fine."
I gave him an umbrella, which caused him to look at me oddly, and dragged him with me to the forest, "Jazzy and Rose is already there!" I can't wait to see my little sister, Bella! Maybe she even grew a fashion sense since we've been gone! Edward shook his head in dismay, but I just stuck my tongue at him. Hey, a girl can dream can't she, although it is Bella?
We stopped when we heard something move. It didn't smell like a vampire, but it was…smelly. EW…it smells like…wet dog?
B POV
I hung upside down from a tree, looking for the evil creature that was here. It stopped so I had to be very quiet. Not spotting anything, I swiftly and quietly jumped from the trees to see if the creature was still here. Then, I heard a scream. Angela was there, so I quickly went towards her. When I was by her, I saw Jake, in his wolf form, on top of…Alice?!
"Jake, get off of her!" I spoke without thinking. He looked at me questionably, but got off.
"Ouch, that hurt!" I stifled a laugh. I bet that did. She looked towards me and smiled brightly, "Bella, you're here! Why are you here?" Good ole Alice, asking the question I didn't want to answer.
"Um…well I…"
"We come here often to…bird watch." Angela said quickly, as she hid my sword behind her quickly.
"Really, that's…interesting." I don't think she was convinced.
I decided to change the subject, "It's nice seeing you again, Alice!" She smiled until she saw my cast. "So…still clumsy I see." I nodded slowly, lowering my head with embarrassment. I just hope she avoids noticing how Angela is not screaming her head off at the sight of a werewolf.
"So, Bella, why isn't Angela screaming her head off over that?" She pointed to Jacob who growled at her.
"Um…she knows about werewolves…"
"Does she know about us?" Please believe me, please believe me.
"No." Doubt filled her eyes and she turned to Angela. "Edward." I froze at the sound of HIS name. He's here?! No, we have to go! I just hope Angela can convince them.
Edward appeared behind Alice and shook his head. Oh thank you God! Whatever Angela said in her mind, she must have been convincing! I still needed to get Angela and Jake out of here.
"Um, I have to take them home…so I'll see you guys later."
"No, don't worry about it. I'll take them home. You and Edward go home first."
What?! I still don't feel comfortable with being here with them. I at least need to kill one vamp- or…I could kill Edward. I sighed in defeat. I just have to hold it, make an excuse to go, kill a vampire, and then come back.
"Sure." I avoided all contact with Edward and continued to walk to their house. Halfway through the dreadful and awkward walk, it started to rain. Wow, these are the days that I start to despise the weather in Forks.
Suddenly, I didn't feel wet anymore and looked up to find Edward holding an umbrella over my head. I mumbled a 'thanks' and we just quietly walked. Because of the umbrella, we had to keep close contact, which felt strange. I had a feeling Alice set this whole thing up. Stupid pixie!
Lost in thought, I almost tripped, but sadly Edward caught me before I fell, lovely. The touch sent an electric jolt I was very used to whenever I touched him. Why me? I pushed him away and made it clear to him once and for all.
"Listen Cullen, I don't need you to catch me when I fall or protect me from the rain. I can handle myself! I've lived without you for a while now and I'm content to let it stay that way, so back off or I'll kill you and your family!" I stomped away and felt victorious yet guilty. Suddenly tears kept falling and I felt myself getting weak. Maybe this is punishment for what I said. Man, does karma work fast.
When I felt like I was far away from HIM, I rested on a tree. It felt just like the one I rested on yesterday. It's good that the tree protected me from the rain since I was pretty sure I was getting sick. The last thing I needed was more rain. The tears still kept seeping through, even though I kept wiping them away. Stupid tears, stupid Cullen, and stupid vampire, this is their fault.
I laid down and remembered all the good times in my life. My life changed but I don't know if it changed for the better or for worse.
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