I am so sorry that it took me so long to update. But I didn't know how to continue this story. I have however now finished it. THere are four more chapters and I'm posting them all today. Please read and review.
Time passes
Time passes. For everyone.
It doesn't matter what you're doing. It doesn't matter what you're going trough. Time will always keep on going. It doesn't stop for everyone. For some people time passes to quickly. For some, time goes to slow.
Especially at night.
As he lies in his bed and stares at the clock. Every minute that passes seems like a lifetime. Thoughts run trough his mind. Thoughts he wished he could escape. Thoughts you never wanted to think again. But you can't wish them away. You can't stop thinking.
And you can't fall asleep. So you can't escape them.
You thought that with time it would get better. That your friends would help you trough it all. And they did. They tried to help you. But none of them understood how far down you actually were. No on saw how much pain you were in.
You don't know what hurts the most.
That they didn't see how much it hurt the first time. Or that once time passed they thought it would pass as well. And you could fool them. The same way you did before. With smiles and stories.
6 months have passed.
But the pain doesn't go away. It won't go away. The nightmares won't disappear. The thoughts keep rushing trough your head. And you wish it would just go away. But you don't want to kill yourself. Because you know that Paula and Kate would want you to live.
But, oh, it hurts so much.
You try not to think. But you can't escape the thoughts. The memories. You keep breathing in and out. You breath trough the pain. And no matter how much it hurts you are aware of one thing. You are still alive. Despite everything that has happened to you. Despite all the pain.
You are still alive.
You want to stop thinking. You want to sleep. But sleep won't come. Instead, you watch the clock. As another minute passes by.
Slow but steady.