Full title: Everythings okay in the end, if its not okay then its not the end
written by: xXxsecretdesirexXx
Compliments to: Delaware forever for the new title of this story
hey guys this is chapter two, hehe.. also Im not having this story beta-d so if you see any mistakes point them out so they can be rectified.. Also this chapter is pure fiction, sorta! Il finished the rest of that sentence at the end... enjoy..Also thanks to Delaware forever for the new name of this story..
Chapter 2.
I didn't go to my next class either. I drove home faster than I should. I knew Charlie was patrolling the streets during the day and he'd kill me if he caught me. But I couldn't stay there I had to leave and cry at the revelation I had made. I wasn't good for Edward I repeated this over and over in my head and each time it hurt more and more.
I was stupid what was I thinking? But if this meant Edward and I would never hurt over each other again maybe it was a good thing. Maybe it really was for the best maybe?
I didn't go to school the next day or the day after or the day after that. It was then Charlie realized something was wrong and what did he do? He called Alice and she came. Why did she come? Did that mean Edward hadn't reacted like I did. Didn't he care? Then I found myself crying again.
Of course he wasn't as effected by this he didn't love me, he loved himself. He probably knew I was at home crying but still what did I expect from him. As I told him and repeatedly told myself he wasn't my knight in shining armour nor would he ever be.
"Oh Bella" Alice threw herself at me and hugged me in an attempt to make me feel better. We didn't speak and so the silence lingered on until it grew uncomfortable.
"Alice how is he?" I asked as soon as I was capable of speech.
"As well as can be expected"
"What does that mean?" I asked clearly not understanding.
"Well he gets up in the morning attends school and speaks when spoken to other than that he lives in his room and if your name comes up in conversation he immediately finds away to leave."
"God Alice, I though I was doing the right thing, I taught it would be better for both of us" I said through sobs.
"Bella, you didn't know what was to be expected" she soothed.
"Alice, I need to go out for awhile! Can you go to Rosalie's and I'll be there in an hour" I spoke as I grabbed suitable clothes. I wasn't going to show up in a trackie.
"Ok Bella, Em where are you going?"
"I have to get Charlie's dinner it's easier to get it now and I must post something" I lied but she didn't notice.
"I'll see you in an hour" she said as she got into her car before she spoke to Rosalie on the phone.
I drove faster than I though was possible for me. I knew Esme wasn't at home and silently I prayed he wasn't either. How unlucky I was. I pulled up beside his Volvo.
I still had my key and walked straight into his house although I knew I shouldn't.
I was outside his room counting to ten in my head trying to calm down when I heard it or more her.
"So who's this Bella chick?" I didn't recognize the voice.
"She's just some girl who I used to be friends with" that was my queue I felt rather confrontational ' just some girl' was I?.
I walked in to see, some slutty strawberry blonde lying half naked on his bed.
"Bella" he spoke with authority.
"Edward I need , actually I want my stuff and No I didn't bring yours with me you can collect it just give me an hours notice so I wont be home" I smiled.
"Your over-reacting" He smirked.
"Clearly" spoke the woman on the bed.. I decided I might as well speak to the bitch now. I turned to look at her and stuck out my hand for her to shake it.
"Hi I'm just some girl who Edward used to be friends with" I saw him grimaced in the corner of my vision.
"Tanya" she replied.
"Bella but you already know that I see" as I gestured to the numerous pictures surrounding his room.
"So how long have you know Edward?" I asked actually interested.
"Yesterday" he had slept with her and he'd known her a day. I ran to his en-suite and threw up repeatedly until there was nothing left in my stomach.
"Bell's you alright?" He called from outside the door.
"Fine, take care off Princess over there, I'll be out in a minute" I stayed in there possibly longer than I should have But I couldn't move.
I walked out after Id fixed myself and righted my hair. I was surprised to find Tanya gone.
"So she's pretty" I said.
"Not really" He frowned. This was awkward but I needed to know either way.
"Why'd you sleep with her so?" I asked and he looked away embarrassed.
"Edward?" I questioned.
"She was a distraction and probably will be again"
"Why?" I asked not getting it.
"You" was all that came out through his lips.
"That's not true and you know it" I said in a whisper but I was aware he could hear.
"How would you know you never asked?" He was getting angry I could tell from the way his lips twitched.
"Fine so Edward Cullen how do you feel about me and anything that has got to do with me?" I asked trying to feign boredom but I knew he knew me better.
"I taught I loved you and vice-versa until you shattered my heart and gave up on me and I hate your friend Mike he's always looking at your chest or your lips lustfully and I don't like it" He raged. . Angry Edward was so erotic and I knew I shouldn't be thinking about Sex right now but I just couldn't help it.
"Yeah well it's not like you did anything to change that I've known you five years and you over looked the situation all the time. I loved you and still love you, always will but you don't get it. I cant be second best to your mother Edward it's not fair and I know what you go through but I have never once put Charlie before you I could but I know it would hurt you as it does me."
"Bella if you love me why did you push me away?"
"It's better for both of us this way neither of us will hurt over the other again. It's not that I'm not prepared to hurt for you but Fuck it Edward I don't see it changing anytime soon" A tear slid down my cheek and his hand brushed it away.
"Bella I really am sorry I never meant to hurt you. I didn't know it effected you this much if I had I never would have compromised you this way"
"Edward I'm sorry too, I love you at least you know that right?"
"Yeah Bell's I love you too" Then for the first time in five years he kissed me. But it wasn't the kiss I had been waiting for. It was safe and cautioned and it didn't feel right so I pulled away.
"Edward" His forehead was resting against mine.
"Why did you really sleep with Tanya?" I knew I shouldn't ask as it would hurt me but I wanted to know.
"I was hurt and she was nothing like you I wanted to forget but it didn't work I just kept picturing you under me" Okay not want I wanted to hear. I began to blush.
"Oh god Bella that sounded terrible"
"No it didn't, just unexpected that's all" I smiled "You really wanted it to be me?" I asked as soon as I regained my control and collected my thoughts.
"Well yeah!" He looked away slightly embarrassed.
"How long?"
"What?" he looked confused.
"How long have you liked me?" I asked noting the blush on his cheeks.
"Two years I guess since you were fifteen or maybe a little before that you?"
"Always" I smiled.
"Then why didn't you say something you ninny?" I looked up at him.
"rejection which would lead to disappointment which in turn would lead to us not being friends which would lead to hurt and crying"
"Oh Bella" he pulled me into a bear tight hug that was causing me difficulty to breath.
"Edward trust me, it's no longer a big deal like I have you don't I?"
"Always" I looked at the clock and realized that I was late Alice and Rosalie would kill me.
"Fuck I got to go" I went to kiss him and he caught my wrists as I went to leave.
"Where?" He whispered against my skin
"Alice, Rosalie" I mumbled back.
"So?" He looked up at me from beneath thick eyelashes.
"Come with me" I suggested, Alice would freak if I stood her up, it was my suggestion like.
"Kay As long as you don't leave me again it will be ok" he smiled.
"Never" I promised.
I arrived at Rosalie's to find her and Alice sitting on the step smiling as Edward and I approached them holding hands.
"So?" Alice mused.
"Em well I didn't really go to the supermarket"
"I knew that before I left your house"
"So why didn't you tell me about Tanya?" I asked slightly irritated.
"Em who?" She shot daggers at Edward.
"Doesn't matter anyway I went to your house and the end result is well this. Details later can't embarrassed Edward" I smiled and he blushed. I knew Id have to ask him what I was to say about Tanya my least favourite person on the planet right now.
The rest of the day past from mortifying question to mortifying question and back again. I must admit I really should have left Edward at home but I couldn't bare be away from him at least not now. I know it looked like I was needy but I was.
Yup chapter two, anyway I never got with my friend as yes he was interested in another girl... Sob but were still bestfriends lol
Jenxxxxxxx