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Cinderella, the nerd girl?!
by: camille36
Chapter 6: As Christmas is near
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Ugh. What should I do? I think it's really impossible to bring them back. But honestly, I tried not to tell them, but the thing is, I think I'm getting more and more comfortable with Ruka, and I don't know why. After all the days we've spent… it's like they're all important to me. And now, Ruka is one of my precious friends. But what will I do if he will hate me too?
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Sigh. I was feeling chilly, since I looked at the window and I noticed that snow started to fall again, leaving the streets like sheets of blankets. But it's a good thing Ruka borrowed me his jacket since I haven't brought mine, and he said he was feeling fine. Unexpectedly, I noticed he was already freezing to death. Just as I thought.
Since he's always seated at my back, I returned him his jacket, paired with a smile I always have.
Me: Here, Ruka… you need it more than I do.
Ruka: Mikan, didn't I tell you that I'm perfectly fine?
He was still freezing. His teeth were knitting, while constantly hugging himself, looking for warmth.
Me: Look at you! And you're telling me you're perfectly fine? I'm really okay. Thanks to your jacket, I'm feeling better. And it's your turn for it.
Ruka: Mikan.
Me: Ruka. Please?
Ruka: All right, all right. I'll use it already. Happy?
Me: Thanks, Ruka!
I smiled again back at him, but a bit gentler.
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As classes were going on, I constantly remembered what happened a while ago.
"We'll never consider you as our friend anymore." "Our friendship is over. Farewell."
Those words repeatedly ran through my mind, and I can't stop thinking about it. I don't know that such words could give a meaning like one; how could I explain it… it's like the words are resurrecting emotions… emotions of angst, sadness and guilt.
Why? Why do I suddenly remember what Nobara said? Speaking of which, I think I've said that myself before, but I can't seem to remember…
Ah. As I glanced onto my memories, there was one which was different from the others. I think I was still 6 that time, and I was there outside a big mansion, and I was talking to a boy, whose face seemed to be blurry.
Me: Why didn't you tell me before?
Boy: I tried to, but…
Me: I'll never consider you as my friend anymore! I hate you!
I can't seem to remember why I said that and to whom I'm saying that, but it doesn't matter anyway. Past is Past, and I must forget what happened before and I must focus on the future.
But, will I get a bright future if this is the situation between my friends? I sighed. I really don't know what to do between these hardships I'm encountering…
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After a little while, I'm feeling a bit stiff and I noticed I'm being thrown at something. Crumpled paper, perhaps? But it gave me attention.
Ruka (whispers): Mikan! Pay attention!
Me (turns back): What?!
Then, just at that moment, someone suddenly clashed my desk, not knowing it was Jinno-sensei who used his electric rod.
Jinno-sensei: And just what do you think you're doing, Ms. Sakura? Not paying attention to class?
Me: I'm sorry, Jinno-sensei…
Jinno-sensei: You're an Honor Student and you're not paying attention to class? Hmm…that's new…
Jinno-sensei spoke dramatically as the frog in his shoulder spoke with him in unison.
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Oh thank you, dismissal has finally arrived! I've wanted to come home already after all what has happened this day. Oh how I wish this day would end completely…
Me: Hey, Ruka?
Ruka: Yeah?
Me: Since you've already experienced before what I'm experiencing now, what did you feel when Natsume said that he doesn't want you as his friend anymore?
Ruka: Same as you do, but I kept my cool and didn't cry.
Me: So this is what it feels like when you lost the friends you spent years with, huh?
Ruka: Yeah…brings back the old days… I was really the same as you do.
Me (sighs): I really wish Dad was here to comfort me when I'm experiencing these kinds of problems… Dad…
Ruka: Don't worry, I'm here… to be your Dad's substitute.
Me: Really? Thanks, Ruka!
: First, my Dad left me. And now my friends. All the people I love left me. Why is life like this? God, do you hate me? I'll do whatever I can do… Now my dad, then my friends. The only one left is you, Ruka… and I can't afford to lose you too…!
With all I'm saying, I couldn't help but cry for the third time. I've been longing to break down these tears. My life has worsen; no, it's been a long time since it worsened, when my Dad, the most important person in my life, left me completely. And now my friends left me. What should I do? All I have left is Ruka…
He noticed that I was crying again so he hugged me tightly. At first, I was hiding it from him so that he wouldn't worry about me but it ended up with him knowing it.
Ruka: There, there. Let it out, Mikan. It's better for you to let it out so that the feelings of guilt will run out of you… and compared to me, I blocked my tears to break down because of my pride but I ended up still feeling what I experienced before.
What is this? I can't stop crying… maybe what Ruka said is true. I've been preventing my tears to fall before when Dad left and the tears I preserved that time broke down today… Oh well. If my heart wants to cry more then I will cry more.
After several minutes, I stopped crying, but I ended up wetting Ruka's uniform. I feel refreshed now after the crying and after what he has told me.
Me: Thanks…for listening. And uhm…sorry for wetting your shirt.
Ruka: No, it's okay! It's alright…
Me: Oh no, I didn't notice we were here by my house! Uh, thanks again, Ruka. You can go now.
Ruka: Uh, are you sure you're okay?
Me: Yah, yah, I'm fine! Really. So you can go now, your parents might get worried and they might blame me for that.
I was letting him hurry because Mom might see us again together.
Flashback
Mom: So his name is Ruka, is he? From now on, you're not allowed to see him anymore in going home. Understand?
Me: But, Mom-
Mom: No 'buts', young lady! Now go to your room!
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Ruka: If that's what you're saying, okay. I'll be heading now. Take care of yourself, okay.
I smiled back at him, meaning I'll do what he says. Then I watched him head home, making sure that he's going back safely and also, to make sure that he won't be seen by Mom.
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Meanwhile, I checked my phone to see if crimsoneyes has replied after 2 days. And finally, he/she replied!
crimsoneyes: Hey! Sorry for not replying to your messages. Anyway, here are all the answers 2 all ur questions:
1. Yes, ur ryt. I don't want to reveal my name, because I don't reveal it 2 someone I don't know that much, even if ur already my friend… actually, ur not the only one who became my friend of mine just by being txtmates in the 1st place… and I also don't reveal my name 2 them.
2. And I'm a guy. FYI.
girlgenius01: Ah, I see. I understand why u don't want to tell me ur name. Just another question. Ur in high school too, ryt?
Send to: crimsoneyes
1 message received
crimsoneyes: Yup.
girlgenius01: Ah, thanks. Anyway, I need to go now. I think I'm hearing my mom's voice 2 cook for dinner… I'll just txt u again later. Bye!
Send to: crimsoneyes
1 message received
crimsoneyes: That's okay… I'll just wait for u later. Take care!
I don't know why, but I think I'm getting more and more comfortable with him.
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5 minutes after dinner. I texted him again.
girlgenius01: Hey, I'm back…
Send to: crimsoneyes
1 message received
crimsoneyes: Hey! I've been waiting for u!
girlgenius01: Oh God, I'm getting tired of these daily chores. There's no end 2 it. I've been fated 2 live this kind of life…
Send to: crimsoneyes
1 message received
crimsoneyes: Daily chores? I feel sorry for u… I hope I would be there with u to help u out…
girlgenius01: Thanks, but this one's different. It's not the usual chores that everybody does.
Send to: crimsoneyes
1 message received
crimsoneyes: What do u mean? I don't get ur point.
girlgenius01: You're the 3rd one who will know about this one, so can u keep it as a secret? I don't want my life to be exposed, so…
Send to: crimsoneyes
1 message received
crimsoneyes: Of course! U can trust me on this one. Pinky promise!
girlgenius01: I knew I could count on u! Well, u see…
Send to: crimsoneyes
I told him EVERYTHING. That I only lived with my mother and my two sisters, and that my Dad and my friends left me just recently. But not actually everything. I didn't tell him that the only friend I have left is Ruka.
1 message received
crimsoneyes: Wow… I really wish I was there by ur side to cheer u up, now there's no one left with u now…
Aww. Sometimes he could be so thoughtful. Imagine, I didn't tell him that I still have Ruka and he said he wants to be by my side to comfort me… He's a bit compared to Ruka, to be honest.
The wind was getting hard and cold again outside. The snow has stopped, but the temperature hasn't changed one bit. I forgot that Christmas is fast approaching, and I noticed that I might spend it a lot different this year. Last year, I spent Christmas in Hotaru's house with the whole group, but this time, it looks like I'll be spending it at home... alone. If it's Christmas which is approaching, then that day will come sooner...
A/N: Whew! Another long chapter! Maybe I can update this Tuesday, since our classes won't long for the whole day, but I'll only try. Hope you enjoyed the chapter! Please review! Until I update soon! ^_^