Stupid Lies and Foolish Games
By Catrina
Chapter Three
A/N: Sorry for the long delay. Work has been rough and real life got in the way of writing. I seem to be back on track and now the story is coming back to me. Thanks for the support so far for this fic. I love reading the reviews and knowing what you guys really think of the story… so keep reviewing... it motivates me.
As always THESE CHARACTERS ARE NOT MINE
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Kyo could say that his dislike for Yuki was still strong but it seemed to be fading with the advance of their charade. The next few days went off without a hitch, but here and there he found that people were starting to give him looks. No doubt, most of Yuki's class recognized him and the trips to and from both work and school were tiresome. It seemed that being involved with Yuki was much more attractive then being his cousin like it was in high school. But he didn't want to try to get these know these people looking at him or try to be himself. Still he knew that there had to be a way to end this charade with both of them coming out of it unscathed.
But days and nights in the apartment were strange. When they were both in a room together it was like the got confused. Were they acting or weren't they? Should Kyo take the chair or should he sit on the couch with Yuki, he was more lost by each passing day, and he hated Yuki for putting him in this situation.
But then again he had agreed and for the life of him he couldn't remember why.
Yuki had yet to bring up that kiss again, and Kyo just lived in the lie that they had created for themselves.
It seemed to be working well, except for the fact that they were invited to a party tonight…and it was his weekend off, so he had no excuse not to make it. He just didn't want to go, he had never been to a college party, and when the last thing that he wanted to do was see Yuki drinking again.
He knew that when he got home Yuki would be dressed up and waiting to go and that he would then have his wardrobe pulled apart as Yuki found something that he deemed decent for Kyo to wear as his date.
He already knew that his night would suck, and he was only half way home from school.
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Yuki looked at the outfits scatted on the bed and realized that he was indeed acting like a high school girl. He literally was standing in his room in his underwear trying to decide what to wear to a party. There was something wrong with this picture. And more then that he knew that Kyo wasn't really going to care. That man could make jeans and a black t-shirt look good and this was something that Yuki had learned by spending many hours staring at Kyo trying to understand when his cousin had become hot in his eyes.
But not only did the man make jeans look good, he made black pajama pants, cords, and a fucking towel look good. He decided that Kyo would most likely even look fucking gorgeous in a dress.
And here he was trying to think of what would make him look just as Kyo in a black t-shirt. The world was a cruel place that had been designed to make Yuki suffer. This he decided was his punishment for trying to lie to the world. But the last three months had been the most peaceful of his life, so it was hard to be sorry.
From his open door he heard the key in the lock, and quickly pulled on the back slacks and the Chinese style burgundy shirt and peeked out of his door. Kyo opened the door and dropped his backpack right in the entrance as he bent over and took off his shoes.
"Hey." He called out in greeting. Kyo looked up, and then stood up.
"Hey, so are we eating before this thing?"
"I wouldn't recommend the food that you would find there. You never know what will be spiked." Yuki smirked a little at his joke.
"So are you telling me to keep you away from all the punch? Tell me again why we have to go to this?"
"We have to make an appearance once in a while, it's lucky we've made it this long without people wondering if we have broken up."
"I think your friends would guess if you aren't asking to bunk with them." Kyo went to the kitchen and cleaned the rice before putting it in the rice cooker. After starting that he headed to his room with Yuki on his heels.
"I know but still, I keep suspecting that they suspect something."
"You could always tell them the truth, ya know, that we are cousins." Kyo looked over his shoulder and pulled two pair of slacks out his closet and held them up for Yuki's inspection. Yuki chose the grey slacks.
"I know, but then everything would still go downhill."
"Yuki, I think if I can understand, and I hate you, the friends who like you can understand too." Yuki digested the words a little surprised at the pique of pain they caused. He had thought that after some of the things that they had been through that it was past the hate stage.
When Kyo didn't hear a response he turned and looked to see a slightly hurt look on the rat's face. He went back over the conversation so far in his head and didn't see a reason for that look.
"What's wrong?" Kyo asked standing a little straighter as he pulled the shirts out of his closet for Yuki's inspection. But the rat had looked down and was not looking back at him. He took a couple steps forward and paused a little in front of the rat. "Hey," a little bit of anger in his voice, "I asked what was wrong."
"Nothing," The violet grey eyes, looked up a little cold and looked at the shirts the other boy was holding up.
"Liar." Kyo stated throwing both the shirts over his shoulder on to his bed.
"Nothing really…" Kyo took another step forward and Yuki straighten up facing Kyo down, knowing that he could still beat Kyo every other day.
"Well…whatever…" Kyo turned his back and pulled his shirt off, "Can I get changed in peace or do you want to watch me?" He looked over his shoulder and Yuki simply raised a brow and turned on his heel and strode out to the room. Kyo slipped on the grey slacks and then put on a white tank undershirt, and then put on the black button up shirt. He walked out of the room in into the kitchen, pulling out the curry left over from the night before, warming it and fixing both of them a plate. They sat down to eat but Yuki didn't pick up his chopsticks instead he glared at Kyo.
"You know for you hating me, you put on a really good show. Have you thought of becoming an actor?" Yuki asked snidely.
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" Kyo asked placing his chopsticks down as well and glaring across the table.
"Nothing… just…"
"Just what, Yuki, just say it."
"I don't hate you."
"What?" Kyo looked at him and blinked, then blinked again. Confusion was apparent in his crimson eyes.
"I said I don't hate you."
"What does that have to do with anything?"
"Nothing, I just thought that we were past that, that you had matured."
"I have, when did I say that I hate you?" Kyo asked looking confused, while Yuki's looked turned exasperated.
"Two minutes ago… not even." Yuki glared at him, his frustration growing.
"I did?" Yuki nodded, "Listen Yuki, I have spent that last 19 years of my life hating the rat, and you because you were the rat. You are the one who made the cat a mockery in the zodiac, you are the one that was always gifted, you are the one that everyone liked, you were the one who got all the attention, you were the one that everyone always compared me to. I hate that, I hated that I could not compete with you half the time so I never tried, so yeah we may have developed some type of comprise, but do I expect this to last, no…I don't."
"Why not?" Yuki asked offended but pleased with the honesty.
"Yuki, you spent the last 19 years hating me, and now it is all over?"
"No, Kyo these last few months living with you has changed our relationship."
"We are cousins Yuki, not lovers, not like everyone thinks."
"I know that, I'm just saying that I don't hate you, and I don't like the idea of you still hating me." Both were getting to the point that they're voices were raised, not uncommon between them as their tempers frayed.
"You lied, you lied to them all, and you got me tangled up in it. I respect honesty, and I am lying to every person that you introduce me to. I don't like that."
"And what about this," Yuki reached across the table and entangled their fingers, something that both of them had gotten used to doing. "Do you shudder with disgust when I touch you?" Yuki watched as Kyo studied their hands, his tan fingers twisted with Yuki's pale fingers.
"No, it doesn't bother me…" But he started pulling his hand away until Yuki gripped his hand harder.
"That's my point, this touch and this game playing, we keep playing it all the time and you still say that you can't stand me."
"Well we have to so that we can cover up your lie!" Kyo pushed his plate away no longer hungry; he wasn't surprised when Yuki did the same, but refused to let go of his hand. "It's not like we are friends or anything."
"We're family." Yuki countered.
"Yeah, well we've never acted like family; we most certainly aren't when we are around your friends."
"Kyo," Yuki forced himself to soften the grip on his hand and let the other boy pull away. Maybe he was getting confused; maybe when he played the game he was wishing that it was something closer to real life. "I just want this to be over." He realized that that was true. He did wish that he didn't have to pretend with everything. That he and Kyo could act that way all the time, he enjoyed being around Kyo, he liked being surrounded by his scent, he liked when he could lean back against him and his heart would match Kyo's beat for beat. He came to the realization that he simply didn't want it to be a charade…not anymore and he really didn't know how to deal with that. He looked up in shock when he felt hands come down onto his shoulders and massage gently. He noticed the plates were cleared and the lights were mostly off. How long had he been lost in thought?
"Don't worry, we'll think of something." Yuki leaned back against the chair tilting his head all the way back; his head hit Kyo's stomach when their eyes finally met.
"How can you be so understanding?" Yuki dropped his head, his forehead hitting the table, amazed really at how mature Kyo was being over his. It seemed that somehow over the years Kyo had become a very good man. He wanted it to make him mad, but really how could he be when he was at the receiving end of Kyo's kindness.
"Maybe optimistic is a better word?" Kyo said on a question. He let his hands continue to move some of his fingers catching strands of his hair and letting the silken strands fall between his fingers. Really as Kyo he wouldn't be doing this but he was preparing for the role that he would have to play tonight.
Yeah right.
He could lie to everyone and Yuki but he could not lie to himself. He was starting to hate and like these damn things that Yuki drug him to. Granted this was only the second one. He thought back to the first really not quite sure what to make of it.
"This is a party Yuki."
"I know" the rat stated while he took a deep breath and then put his hand in Kyo's and laced their fingers. Kyo looked down into the grey eyes of the rat and prepared himself to look at him lovingly.
"You brought me to a party."
"Yeah."
"I don't do parties."
"You don't have to do anything."
"Yes I do, I still need to be your damn boyfriend."
"Yes, so look like you love me." Kyo thought the night had been going well until it looked like the one person on the planet who hadn't got the memo that Yuki was taken hit on him and he had looked at Kyo and Kyo had just laughed. Receiving an angry stare he walked over to the pair and had wrapped his arms around Yuki from behind. Kyo was almost surprised by how quickly Yuki had relaxed against him. He had looked to the other boy who looked a little disappointed.
"Sorry this one is taken." The other boy blushed and then hung his head as he walked away. Kyo could almost feel the jealousy rolling off the other man. He then let go of Yuki's waist and grabbed his hand. Kyo walked to a wall, then leaned against it, and pulled Yuki's back against his chest. Kyo found that it was nice to hold Yuki this way because then they didn't have to really look at each other, and fake looks but they still looked involved. He placed his hands in Yuki's pockets and Yuki placed his hands over Kyo's arms.
"You are too high maintenance." Kyo told him.
It was true to, Yuki seemed very high maintenance. He didn't like these things and the last thing that he really wanted to do was go to another one
"After this I am preparing for finals. Not parties for a while…okay? Just let me be me…okay?"
"This one is the big one on campus, so we…I shouldn't have any problems after this."
"Okay." With that Yuki lifted his head off the table and Kyo pulled away to grab their jackets.
"Let's go."
"You don't hate me do you Kyo? Really?" Yuki could have bit his tongue; he really had no idea where that question came from. He watched as Kyo looked away then looked him in the eye.
"You were the one person that kept everyone from seeing me…really seeing me. I resented…maybe still resent that. Ironic how everything you do know, just pulls me into the spotlight, huh?" Kyo's lips quirked in a smirk and Yuki couldn't help but smile.
"I never meant to."
"You didn't have to try and that only made it worse."
"I still don't know what they see in me. What makes me so special?"
"You really don't get it…look in the mirror…"
"The same could be said for you." Yuki interrupted, but Kyo went on like he never heard him.
"And you always think of everyone else but yourself…me, I'm a selfish bastard. I don't help people because I want them to leave me alone. You should try it."
"You helped me."
"Because, damn it, Yuki even when I try I can't get away from you." He pulled open the door and held it open for the rat, "I don't hate you; can we go now?" Kyo knew he looked more then exasperated but…com'on already. But he was surprised because those words caused most likely the most beautiful smile he had ever seen grace Yuki's face.
"Okay…let's go."
The walk on campus was not far but in the cold night air it seemed like it took hours. By the time they got to the house both of them were shivering and had rosy cheeks. They were greeted at the door, and their coats taken by the host and Yuki went to mingle as Kyo went to hold up a wall.
Yuki made his way around the crowded room and took a drink, taking a small sip to make sure that it was alcohol free. When he didn't taste anything he looked to the girl that had given him the drink and politely asked, "Is this non-alcoholic?" She looked at him a little funny.
"I think so, why?" He didn't know who this girl was so he was a little unsure of whether or not to trust her. He looked over to Kyo, to see that he had a drink and that Yui was over by his side talking with him. Yui said something to make Kyo smile then Kyo said something that made Yui laugh. It had more then just one person looking their way.
Yuki down the drink in three gulps and looked to the girl, "Another please?"
Kyo watched as Yuki made his way around the room, and he made small talk with Yui. Kyo still wasn't sure what was up with Yuki's friend, but at least he had someone keeping him company. He had watched as Yuki had talked to girl serving drinks, checking most likely to make sure that the drinks didn't contain alcohol. He was drinking the drinks, so Kyo hoped that he wasn't going to be dealing with a drunk Yuki tonight. But when he saw Yuki look over at him a little angry he had to wonder what was going on.
"So when are your exams?"
"This coming month, then I have break, so I will most likely work a few extra shifts before the Christmas season is over. You?"
"Well…" Yui was interrupted when Yuki came to stand in front of Kyo.
Kyo took in his flushed cheeks, and dilated eyes and realized that he would again have problems tonight. If he had counted right that was his third drink tonight. Yuki handed his glass to Kyo.
"Does that have alcohol in it?" He asked and watched Kyo's lips carefully as he took a sip.
"I can't taste it. Why?" Kyo asked, thinking he already knew what the problem was.
"Because I drank four glasses and now the room is spinning and I don't feel good." Kyo wanted to laugh when Yuki whined at him but it was hard not to feel sorry for him. It was obvious that he had tried to not consume something that would end up screwing him up. Kyo thought fast about what an understanding boyfriend would do in this case and held open his arms. Yuki walked into them burying his face into Kyo's neck and leaning against his body. As soon as he closed his eyes the room stopped spinning and he felt anchored in Kyo's arms. He felt safe. He let out a sigh and listened to Kyo's heart beat.
Yuki felt Kyo arms wrap around his waist and he settled in against his body listening to Yui and him talking. That however was most likely the not best thing to do, he realized that Yui was flirting with Kyo and the damn cat didn't have a clue.
"So you know when Yuki comes to the dorms you are more then welcome to come along. We would love to have you there." Yui stated.
"I need time to study; Yuki and I like to be together when we get the chance."
"Yeah, but still, you don't need to be a hermit. You really can come along."
"I'll think about it, but it's nice to get my study time in."
Yui wanted to see Kyo more often? Yuki could not believe his ears. Wanting to get Kyo's attention he went to open his eyes but he was instantly hit with vertigo, so he quickly closed his eyes, and did the next thing he thought of. He opened his mouth against Kyo's neck and kissed the skin there. He felt Kyo's hands clench on his waist in warning but he did it again, this time nipping slightly with his teeth.
"Yuki?" He heard the question in Kyo's voice and tried to whisper but instead nothing came out.
Kyo felt the flutter of lashes against his neck, but when he felt the lips against his neck he had to fight not to shutter with the feeling. It felt nice, but the teeth felt even better. He couldn't suppress the shudder that went through him that time. He leaned down trying to listen to Yuki only realizing that he wasn't saying anything.
"Yuki?" Kyo tried again to get his attention, but the rat really did seem out of it. This time he looked over to Yui and told the other boy that he was taking Yuki outside, with a steadying arm around his waist he walked toward the patio and the cold air hit them both hard. Kyo sat Yuki down on a bench and kneeled down in front of him. "Yuki?" When the rat wouldn't answer he laid his hands on the silken cheeks and tried again. Hazy grey eyes opened and looked at him.
"That bastard is not my friend." Yuki growled looking into Kyo's eyes.
"Huh?"
"That bastard was flirting with you right in front of me… you were holding me even…"
"Yuki…Yui was not flirting with me…"
"You're…you're defending him…are…are you interested in him?" Yuki looked hurt when he asked the question and in all honesty the thought was completely absurd.
"No Yuki…" He stopped when again Yuki copied what Kyo was doing and placed a hand on each side of his face.
"Are you interested in me? If we weren't cousins? If I weren't the rat and you the cat? Would you be interested in me?" Yuki asked and Kyo leaned closer trying to shush him.
"Yuki…what kind of question is that? Be careful what you say around here."
"Why?"
"Why…" Kyo repeated exasperated.
"You don't really care about me…"
"Yuki, do you think that I would really do this if I didn't see how much easier it was making things for you. You are home on time from class and meetings, you don't have pounds of gifts and we occasionally get a love letter at our place. Do you really think that I would do this…just for fun?"
"You're doing it to help me?" Yuki's eyes seemed to be full of emotion his cold mask that made him the ice price had disappeared for the evening and Kyo figured that it was the reason that they were having this conversation.
"Yuki…you haven't been my enemy since Akito died." And with that Kyo found his lips covered by Yuki's. There was something soft in this kiss, almost like he was trying to say thank you. Yuki's hands dropped from his face to his shoulders so that he could lace his hands in the dark hair at the nape of Kyo's neck.
Kyo knew that there had to be people watching, they were in the back yard of a party and he knew that people could easy look through the sliding door and see them there. So Kyo relaxed and even though he knew that there would be hell to pay, he kissed Yuki back.
Yuki opened his mouth to Kyo, pleased to have the other boys tongue there, tasting him, exploring him, and he wondered why Kyo only kissed him when he was intoxicated. He felt Kyo pull him closer and he relaxed the tension and jealousy, that he would later deny, disappeared.
Kyo wondered if it was the drink, or if Yuki always tasted like strawberries. He kept his hands on Yuki's cheeks so that he could control the kiss, but also that his hands wouldn't get a mind of their own. For a while now he had wanted to touch Yuki's skin, tangle his fingers in his hair and taste every inch of his body. There had to be something wrong with this.
When breath became a necessity, he pulled away and stood up, pulling away from Yuki's arms. He was surprised when Yuki stood up as well. He wavered for just a second before placing his arms once again on Kyo's shoulders.
"Don't…Don't stop kissing me." Yuki asked as he looked up at Kyo with so much passion that he knew that it wasn't faked, that Yuki and this game that they had been playing had created something and they both knew it. Because Kyo knew that it wasn't at all fake on his side…not any more. "Please…" The word was drawn out and before Kyo really knew what he was doing he was kissing Yuki, this time harder, his teeth biting down on Yuki's lower lip before moving on to taste him.
By Yuki's moan he knew that he really didn't care. Kyo's pulled Yuki close and their bodies aligned, they were touching at every point they could. And this time Kyo didn't control his hands, he let them slide under Yuki's shirt drawing a shutter and a moan and Yuki's hands tightened in his hair holding on tight.
Kyo pulled away to breath, but his lips didn't leave Yuki's skin as he moved them over to his ear to lick then nibble on the lobe, again he felt Yuki shutter. He moved a little farther down his neck and nibbled on his neck…another shutter this time with a moan.
"You have a thing for me biting you?" Kyo murmured, a little amazed at the discovery, as he kissed back up Yuki's neck.
"I have a thing for you." Yuki commented moving his lips to catch Kyo's.
"Hey! It Yuki okay?" They both jumped at the question and turned to a started Yui who just then realized what he had walked in on. "Oh…sorry…" He turned on a heel and quickly made for the warmer kitchen.
It was then that Kyo realized how far things had progressed. Yuki's lips were red, well kissed, his hair was mussed, and he had a hickey on his neck. Oh…and Kyo's hands were on his ass…
Kyo blushed hard…he had never gotten this carried away before…even with…
"Teaches him to flirt with you…you belong to me." Yuki's words processed through Kyo's brain just as Yuki's forehead dropped onto his shoulder.
"Excuse me?" Kyo asked looking down at the man who was currently completely leaning on him.
"Kyo…I don't feel good…can we go home?"
Kyo dropped his head on Yuki's shoulder completely exasperated.
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The trip home was uneventful and Kyo walked Yuki to his bedroom, and then let the rat do whatever he wanted. He went and sat on the couch legs sprawled and arms spread out along the back. He took a deep cleansing breathe, and then started to think. He and Yuki were going to have to talk. They were no going to go out anymore…it was that simple. It was getting to the point that he was actually attracted to Yuki and that he didn't expect. This borderline friendship was one thing, but this attraction was another thing completely. And Yuki wasn't really hiding it. He had been the one to bring it up today and he hand been the ones to originally initialize every kiss…until tonight. When Yuki had asked him to not stop he couldn't stop himself from kissing him again. He could not let it go any farther…
This was Yuki…
And Yuki just sat down beside him. He thought that the rat would at least be asleep. But instead Yuki looked at him with partially clear eyes. Even though all the rat had on were boxers… he had to be cold, was Kyo's passing thought.
"Stay." Kyo demanded as he got up and went to the kitchen and filling a tall glass of water and grabbed two aspirin. "Drink the water and take these." He handed them to Yuki and watched as he obeyed.
"No more Yuki." Kyo stated it as blunt as he could.
"Huh?"
"No more parties, no more friends, no more fake dates, you can use me but I am not going to be an active part of it." Kyo looked over and he was surprised to see that the rat looked hurt.
"Why?"
"Because."
"You know what, you Kyo are a coward. You may have started out helping me, but now you've run into a problem. You like it."
"Yuki, stop talking nonsense."
"You are in denial."
"Yuki com'on…"
"You're gay…you said so…"
"You're not!" Kyo yelled.
"I never said that."
"Wrong…you told me that Yui thought you were into guys but you weren't."
"So I've never had a boyfriend…I've never had a girlfriend either."
"That's not the point… you want me because you have to pretend to want me."
"I was attracted to you before you even knew about the lie." Yuki blurted out, and it was then that he realized that while he could stand up straight he obviously wasn't sober yet, because normally he never would have said that. "I could never stop watching you…" why couldn't he stop talking? "I was glad that we would have to pretend, that we turned it into a game. That I could touch you…"
"Yuki…" He stopped when Yuki lay down on the couch placing his head in Kyo's lap. Kyo wanted to push him off but just didn't have the heart. "Yuki this is it…after this no more." He didn't know why Yuki was clinging to this so much. Was it that he really felt something for Kyo and that the alcohol that he had drank made it so that he was really honest, or was he just playing Kyo, like the rat of the past would have done. Kyo was confused, and the easiest way to end the confusion was just to end it all. He and Yuki may be awkward for a while, but it was most likely better this way. Still he didn't stop himself from placing a hand on Yuki's head and brushing through the silken hair spread around his face… surprisingly Yuki was already asleep.
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End Chapter Three
A/N2: Well if Kyo really thinks that he is going to end it there…we shall see what the next chapter holds. Hope you enjoyed the chapter…more to come soon.
Thanks,
Cat