Stupid Lies and Foolish Games

Chapter Four

By Catrina

A/N: Sorry for the long delay. Thanks for the support so far for this fic. I love reading the reviews and knowing what you guys really think of the story… so keep reviewing... it motivates me.

As always THESE CHARACTERS ARE NOT MINE

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Since Yuki's accident he had had a hard time thinking, just getting his mind to concentrate caused some issues. Headaches happened and he spoke to doctors on a regular basis. He was told that his brain just wasn't putting together some memories and thought together right. Some of his memories were dreams and sometimes he thought reality was really what where dreams and he hated the fact that he relied on Kyo so much. It was obvious that while he wasn't a bother, Kyo sometimes just seemed to snap at him or just look at him in shock. He loved it when he had asked Kyo if they had had sex. The cat had dropped the coffee cup and looked at him with wide eyes and a worried look. Yuki just shrugged his shoulders and said ' Oh that must have been a dream.' Then had walked away, he had felt Kyo stare at him all the way down the hall. He could tell that he was shaking the cat up, but that was his plan. The feelings that he had he knew were real. There was no question or doubt in his mind even though he knew that Kyo thought it was only because the wires in his brain were a little crossed. But both he had Kyo had to face the fact that he may not ever remember the right things, and while Kyo had been patient he may have to continue to be the rock that supports him until he is back on his feet.

Yuki kind of likes depending on Kyo.

Yuki laid in his bed thinking as the sun was creeping into his window. The morning was starting and while he still went to class today was Saturday and he really didn't need to get out of bed. It seemed like a great day to be lazy and just hang around in bed. Yuki turned to his side and listened hard to see if Kyo was awake. The other boy had been up late last night watching a movie, and while Yuki had fallen asleep during the movie, it had held Kyo's rapt attention until the end. He had woke Yuki up and they had headed to bed at around 3:00. But now he was somewhat awake and needed to relieve himself. Yuki still hated to wake up and today was no different. He stumbled to the bathroom and did his business surprised that he had not cause Kyo to wake. Peeking into the other boy's room he realized that the other boy was still out cold, tangled up in his sheet and curled on his side. He took a moment just to take in Kyo's appearance. He loved to look at Kyo, he was very easy on the eyes and he knew that he had like Kyo long before his run in with a biker. While he couldn't always connect the memories he knew what he felt and knew that it was honest. He sulked into Kyo's room and approached the bed. It wasn't just his looks that attracted Yuki to Kyo. It was his spirit, his patience, his smile (when he would actually smile) and the cute blush that raced across his cheeks when Yuki said something mildly sexual. It was everything about the cat that seemed to speak to him and even though he knew that it was wrong and that most people wouldn't understand he knew that it was more then a crush that he had on the cat.

Yuki pulled the covers back and climbed in under the tangled sheet. He shivered a little, Kyo's room was colder then his own, and as he settled into the bed he was wrapped in Kyo's sent. He loved it, he could already feel sleep starting to pull at him, he knew it wouldn't be long, but he was cold and tucked the sheet around him as he tried to draw closer to Kyo.

The other boy turned from his back to facing Yuki, and as though Kyo knew he was there, and knew that he was cold, he pulled Yuki closer and Yuki tucked his head underneath Kyo's chin and snuggled into his arms, feeling safe and warm he fell back to sleep where he dreamed of more with Kyo, a life where he slept like this everyday.

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Kyo woke knowing something was different, he was warmer and the scent of Yuki filled his senses. It was then that he realized that he was holding the other boy. Kyo sighed, but kept the other boy close, listening to his breathing realizing that he was still asleep. Kyo was finding it harder and harder to fight Yuki all the time. He kept waiting for the other shoe to drop. For Yuki to wake up and just snap out of it and life to be back to the way it was before he moved in, and it was the way that it was in high school. He just didn't know what would happen if he took the next step, the step that would take them away from this dance around each other and take them to dancing with each other. Kyo had never felt so lost in a situation in his life. He looked down at Yuki curled against him, his grey-ish hair around him like a halo, lavender grey eyes shut with long lashes fanning his cheeks. When he tried to move away Yuki followed, shivering slightly. He realized that he was most likely cold. While Kyo usually slept with a sheet, Yuki had blankets piled on his bed- even in the middle of the summer.

Part of Kyo found that it was humorous.

Kyo relaxed and brushed his hand down from Yuki's head and down his back, drawing from the other boy a moan as he moved closer. Kyo looked at the clock realizing that it was way past 9:00, but it was a Saturday, and they had no where better to be and Kyo was more and more at a loss, and Yuki- well all Yuki really wanted to do was talk about it and push the issue.

And Kyo just didn't know what to do. So he just held Yuki and let himself fall back to sleep.

The next time he woke, it was alone and to the smell of smoke coming from the kitchen. He was awake in a snap and up and running to the kitchen where he found Yuki holding a skillet that just happened to be on fire.

"What are you doing?" He yelled the question as he races across the room to throw flour on the fire and then run it under water. Yuki looked at him with big, big eyes and shrugged his shoulders. "Open the window." Kyo ordered and Yuki did as he asked and then looked at him.

"I just wanted to make eggs."

Kyo looked at him in shock, "How did you start eggs on fire?"

"I'm not sure actually."

"Yuki, you don't cook, you never have been able to, I cook and you do the dishes."

"I know but I wanted to make you breakfast."

Kyo was surprised at how fast his anger could actually deplete. Before he knew what he was doing he went over to Yuki and placed his hands on his shoulders. "You don't have to make me breakfast."

"But you do so much for me and I do nothing for you."

"It's a fair trade, you helped me pass English, and as soon as more things fall into place you'll do more. This is only temporary."

"The doctors say that I could never remember everything. I may never be able to remember all my memories like I should."

"Don't worry, you will have more memories to make, and those don't get jumble up like the others do. You will be fine." Kyo dropped his hand from Yuki's shoulders, and started to walk away. "I'll make lunch when I get out of the shower."

Yuki nodded.

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For the most part Kyo could keep his temper in tack, but sometimes when Yuki did something stupid he just couldn't help it. Yuki had done laundry and bleached his clothes, his black pajama pants that he loved now had streaks of pink, and he knew that it would take a while to break in another pair. Now Yuki called Tohru a lot more then he used to. She still live with Shigure at the house, and she cooked and cleaned, and now Momiji and Haru lived with them and Shigure would most likely get Kisa and Hiro when they got older as well. He seemed to do a good job of raising kids. Kyo had no idea why people thought that but- oh well, Tohru was just a call away, but Kyo still got just a little jealous when he would hear Yuki laughing with Tohru on the phone even though he really had no right to be.

His life was getting more confusing by the day, and he was letting Yuki get away with stupid stuff. He really should be putting his foot down, but he couldn't, because when he tried Yuki would just get this hurt and broken look about him and while Kyo knew that he was getting far too emotionally attached he let Yuki get away with it.

Yuki would sneak into his bed at night and Kyo didn't say a thing, he most assuredly didn't let Yuki know that he was sleeping better because of it.

Yeah- and those little touches that he was letting Yuki get away with across his shoulders, or brushing hands, or ruffling his hair, yeah he shouldn't be letting Yuki get away with that but he was. And even more he was getting used to it again. It was like they were playing a game again, but this time Yuki wasn't playing and that was what had Kyo in a knot, knowing that Yuki emotions were actually out there.

There for him to see, and he for some reason just couldn't do the same

He couldn't let Yuki see that his emotions were the same… that he was out on the same branch of the tree.

But Yuki seemed to be happy and he was happy more often then not, and Kyo seemed to be at ease when Yuki was like that. He wondered when he had become a step away from in love with his cousin.

"Hey, can we go out to eat. You don't have to work, do you?" Yuki asked coming out of his room where he was doing his homework.

No. I'm free tonight." He answered looking up from where he was doing his homework at the kitchen table. It was Calculus 2 and while it was a harder course he was enjoying it.

"Great, let's go." Kyo looked down at his cargos and black shirt.

"Okay, let me change." Yuki gave him a strange look as he looked down at his jeans and white shirt.

"Why, you look fine, hot actually." Yuki waked toward him as Kyo had stood and he ran a hand across the mid drift that was shown between his shirt and his pants.

"Huh?"

"I must have never told you that." Yuki looked up and to the right trying to dig through memories and drawing a blank.

"No, you always wanted me to change."

"Are you sure, or did you just think that I wanted you to change?" Yuki asked looking thoughtful as he fingers danced across Kyo's stomach. That was really one of those things that he really shouldn't be letting him do. Kyo dug though his own memories and realized that Yuki had never really told him that.

"Huh, I thought so." Yuki stated grabbing his coat and walking to the door. "Let's go."

They made there way to a Sushi place down the street and sat and talked while they waited for their meal and then ate in silence when there meal came. It was as they were getting up to leave that someone sat next to Kyo. He looked over surprised to see the other boy sitting beside him.

Jirou was taller then Kyo by a couple inches, and had dark hair and darker eyes. He was tan like Kyo, and had a wide bright smile with white straight teeth. His nose was straight slightly turn up at the end and high cheek bones.

They had had an on-again-off-again relationship before falling down to be becoming friends. He draped a long arm over Kyo's shoulder and smile at him.

"Hey 'yo." He smiled over at Yuki and Kyo spared a glace over to Yuki seeing that his glare could freeze water.

"Hey Jirou, what you doing here?" He smiled at him, ignoring Yuki for the moment and the swift kick to his shin.

"Grabbing some study food." He pointed to the to-go bag beside him. "Haven't seem you around much lately, I stop in at work and you aren't there."

"I still work there but things have been busy. This is Yuki, my cousin." He got another swift kick in the shin, but this time he glared at Yuki.

"Hi." Yuki's voice was frigid.

"Hey, didn't know that Kyo had family around. But then again, you did have a roommate when I was at your place."

"Yeah, that's Yuki."

"Really, sorry I didn't meet you then, you weren't home, it would have been nice to meet you."

Yuki realized that he was nice, this Jirou person, who was beautiful, was nice as well…but he had his arm around Kyo and that was unacceptable. Completely unacceptable, and while he knew that it was jealously burning in his stomach making him slightly ill he couldn't stop the feeling.

"Yeah, occasionally I go out." And while lately that wasn't true, it was true when this person had been in his home with his Kyo. "Are you ready to go?" He asked Kyo blatantly ignoring Jirou.

"Yeah," Kyo glared at Yuki again, and he knew that he was being rude, but he didn't care at the moment.

"Hey, can I give you a call, maybe we can catch a movie sometime…" Jirou left that hanging out there and Kyo nodded.

"Sure, just give me a call."

The walk back to the apartment was quiet, Kyo didn't start a conversation and neither did Yuki, but as soon as they walked in the door that was over.

"You let him touch you." Yuki growled at him facing him down the second Kyo had closed the door.

"So?"

"You let him touch you and flirt with you in front of me."

"Again, so?"

"Why did you let him do that?"

"He's a friend of mine." Kyo hung up his jacket and finally looked over to Yuki and he was surprised by the anger that he saw there.

"He was not a friend, he was hitting on you."

"I am not your property." Kyo was more then a little insulted but he knew that Yuki was angry, and more then a little jealous.

"What is that supposed to mean?" Yuki walked farther into the apartment and snapped on the lights.

"That you don't own me, I have friends, I've had boyfriends." Kyo faced him down.

"Not anymore." Yuki turned on him, and Kyo realized that he had never really seen him this angry before. Sure when they had fought he had been upset and looked angry, but never like this. He almost looked hurt.

"That is not your decision to make." Kyo told him.

"I have been nothing but up front with you. You know that I want you, you let me sleep with you, and you let me touch you. I feel you shiver, you hold me each night that I sneak into your bed. Are you telling me that is nothing?" The last question was a yell and Kyo swore the walls shook.

"Yuki, calm down." He walked slowly towards the rat.

"No, I will not calm down. Have you been leading me on? Because I know that you feel something for me. Are you a coward? What are you afraid of? Why is it that you will never touch me back?"

"Yuki, you are not yourself. You are different."

"No, you do not get to play the martyr here. You aren't stopping me. I am me, sure the memories are a little scrambled, but there is nothing that different about me. No body sees it but you."

"I see it I know you better then them."

"I know what you taste like." Yuki walked toward him and Kyo found himself against the table, Yuki boxed him in. "I remember every kiss we have had, every touch, I remember what your hair feels like, and what your body feels like pressed against mine." Yuki leaned in against him his mouth right on his ear, his breath hot, sending shivers across Kyo's nervous system. "I said you belonged to me and you didn't tell me no." Kyo felt lips on his ear and it went straight to his knees and they bent slightly. He brought his hands up to Yuki's hips set to push him away but for some reason was pulling him closer. There was a kiss on his neck then along his jaw line.

"You're just jealous." Was that his voice that came out breathless?

"Damn straight, he touched what was mine." Yuki pulled away from the tentative kisses on his jaw line and was so close that they really were breathing each others breath.

"I'm not yours…" Kyo stated. He looked into Yuki's eyes, they were literally full of desire, and the pupil flared so there was only a ring of grey.

"I'm sick of this game. You want me; I want you, what the hell is the problem?"

"You…"

"If you say I'm not me we are gonna have some issues." The statement was accented with a bite to his lower lip. Before Kyo realized it his eyes fell to half mast as he looked at Yuki's lips. It had been so long, and every night he let the rat sleep with him more and more memories of every time the touched worked its way into his dreams.

Yuki realized the minute that Kyo's thought process really stopped. He didn't even stop to smile before his mouth was slanting over Kyo's nibbling on his lower lip before Kyo let him kiss him deep. Every other kiss Yuki had let Kyo control but not this one; he dominated the kiss, kissing the other boy until he was breathless. He pulled away barely letting Kyo catch his breath before he was kissing him again. He could feel Kyo's hands digging into his hips and he pressed his hips against Kyo's realizing that yes, Kyo was just as hard as he was.

"You want me." Yuki whispered into his ear, before once again biting on it drawing a moan out of Kyo's red lips. He ran his hands though Kyo's hair once again familiar with the texture. He brushed his thumbs against his cheek bones, noticing the flush that was there, and when his eyes opened he look Yuki dead in the eye.

He really didn't know what to say, he couldn't really lie to Yuki, it was the truth, and Yuki was no longer listening to his excuses. He was batting all of them aside.

"You are just as hot for me as I am for you." It was once again a whisper against his lips as Yuki brushed their lips together as he pressed their hips together. He was comforted when the moan was torn from both of them "Why are you fighting it so hard. Was it because we hated each other for so long…cause I really don't hate you any more." Yuki once again thrust against him please when Kyo bit down on his lip, fighting to not make a sound. Kyo shook his head-no it wasn't that.

"What is it then?" Yuki asked he wanted the real answer.

"I don't…" He stopped to moan when Yuki once again pressed their hips together, Kyo's hips pushed back before he really knew what was going on. His hands pulled Yuki's hips against his again, "I don't, god, want to take advantage…" Yuki's lips stopped him, eating the rest of his excuse.

"You would never take advantage of me." Yuki told him when he pulled away but, he didn't let Kyo say anything, he kissed him again and again, and was overjoyed when Kyo started kissing him back. Those beautiful hands of his had sneaked under his shirt and those hands felt hot on his skin.

Kyo was giving in.

Yuki pulled away completely and pulled the cat away from the table grabbing his hand and pulling in down the hall and then pushing him into the bed room.

Kyo's head was full of excuses, but Yuki would fight them all.

Kyo knew that he shouldn't be doing this. But Yuki was pushing, Yuki wanted him and his kisses were addictive and before he really knew what was going on he was falling into his bed, the rat underneath him and pliant and he didn't know what to do.

Well he knew what to do but this was Yuki.

"Are you going to hate me in the morning?" He asked Yuki, this was it, this was him giving in, this was him trusting that Yuki was telling the truth- that this was more then a damn game, that this wasn't all stupid lies, that this was real and could be more, so much more.

"I could never hate you; I never have; now all I want is this." He hitched up a leg winding it around Kyo's waist pulling him down. "And if you stop now I'll kill you. You know what I want, so give it to me."

Kyo shook his head a smirk on his face, as he gave up leaning down and whispering "so damn demanding," before kissing Yuki and giving Yuki exactly what he wanted.

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When Yuki woke in the morning it was with startling clarity. He was curled around Kyo, absorbing his warmth. And it felt right just like it did every morning he woke in his bed. But this time he understood why Kyo was worried because he remembered the lies, he remembered the act. He settled back against Kyo and looked up at him. Sure he was sore in places that he had never been sore in before but he wouldn't take it back. Just like he knew that he should not tell Kyo that he remembered anything. Kyo would change… the moment he knew that Yuki remembered he would change the way he acted, he would treat him like he used to. He wouldn't be patient or understanding. He ran a hand up and down Kyo's naked chest propping himself up on an elbow to watch as the cat woke. It was earlier then Yuki usually got up but he really wanted to repay the pleasure that he had received before, but then a nagging thought caught in his brain.

How did he know how to do what he did?

Had Kyo had a lover before him?

That thought put an anchor in his gut.

He traced a finger around Kyo's navel and looked up when his breath hitched. He caught Yuki's eyes and even though Yuki was still a little jealous over his wayward thoughts, his first concern was to place Kyo at ease, so that he knew that he didn't make a mistake yesterday.

"Morning," he said with a smiled on his lips.

"G'morning." Yuki was rewarded with a smiled and then pulled down into a kiss, he forgot his wayward thought as he focused on Kyo.

"How are you?" Yuki asked blushing just a little.

"Good, you?" Kyo asked as he stretched, his arms falling back around Yuki when he was done.

"Amazing…a little sore."

"I was too my first time…"

"Stop."

"What?" Kyo asked a little surprised by the venom in his word.

"From now on no one but me." Yuki looked him dead in the eye when he said that. He watched as the words sunk into his head.

"You sure?" Kyo asked and Yuki nodded.

"From now on it's you and me." He leaned over and kissed Kyo, pressing their lips together, but pulling apart just as quickly. He paused unsure, "Is that what you want?"

"I'm kind of into monogamy." Kyo answered and Yuki realized that at least on this they were on the same page.

"Good…because now you really are mine."

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It was surprising how well they fell into a pattern.

Sure have sex changed things, but Yuki couldn't help but think that it had changed things for the better. When he had first moved in they had fallen into a truce, but this- this was exponentially better. This happiness couldn't really be explained. Granted he remembered more then he had before, but that hadn't changed his feelings for Kyo, not in the slightest. But once in a while he would catch Kyo looking at him with a question in his eye. But Yuki was getting really good at distraction. Because he knew that he was lying to Kyo- just like he knew that Kyo respected honesty almost more then anything else.

Yuki wanted to tell him… but then he was scared that it was change everything. And that thought alone froze him in his tracks.

And when Kyo would look at him a question in his eye, Yuki would do what ever he could to distract him.

But then again Kyo was easily distracted. All it really took was a kiss, and then Kyo's arms would be around him pulling him closer and before he really would know what was going on he was usually panting Kyo's name spread out on the nearest flat surface.

Oh… did he forget to mention that they had great chemistry.

But go figure it was a little thing that got him busted.

It was their one month anniversary, and Yuki had gone into the kitchen and while he wasn't great in the kitchen, he could make rice and eggs. And that was what got him busted.

"Yuki whatcha doing?" Kyo asked as he had come in and he was making the eggs and dishing up the rice and Kyo had that look like he knew something and Yuki didn't.

"I was making …"

"You don't remember how to use the rice cooker and last time you started the eggs on fire."

"The directions…" He pulled up the lid only to show that the directions had been removed… "I called Tohru…" the moment the lie fell from his lips he realized his mistake. Tohru was camping with the other cousins in Osaka, not reachable by phone.

"You remember." Kyo's voice was steady but his eyes looked upset, those beautiful eyes were filled with something that Yuki had never seen before.

Yuki nodded not sure what to do, but right now lying was not the answer.

"Yeah, just woke up and it was all together, like the puzzle pieces just fell together." He brought up his hands trying to show how everything had fallen together, but it didn't really help.

"How long?" Kyo looked at Yuki. He had had a feeling, Yuki was more confident, and was more able then he had been for the weeks that he hadn't remembered. He had been less aggressive and not asking as many questions about this, that, or the other. Kyo had had a sneaking suspicion, but there was nothing like having that confirmed. He had been noticing it especially the last week or so.

"I asked how long. And don't you lie to me, you are better then that and I think that I deserve more then that."

"After we slept together." Yuki muttered. He heard Kyo laugh and looked up sharply. It was a sarcastic laugh, not one of the true laughs that Yuki had heard in the past.

"Yuki, for the month that we have been together we have slept together a lot, you are gonna have to be more explicit then that." Yuki blushed at that because that was true, there wasn't a day that he didn't have Kyo inside him or he was inside of Kyo. It was like they couldn't really survive if they didn't touch during the day. Leaving for class in the morning took almost 10 minutes of kissing and hand holding and then blushing when they got to class late.

"The first time." Yuki couldn't look at him…

"The first time?" Yuki could hear the anger and he really didn't want look up but he did and he recognized the gleam in his eye for what it was.

"A month ago… you've lied to me for a fucking month?" The words tore across Yuki's skin making it cold.

"What would you have done? The minute you knew I remembered you would have stopped. You would have said that now that I remembered that it wasn't real that the stupid lies and the foolish games were all that counted. But they weren't. What I have felt for you has never changed. Ever. Me remembering wouldn't have changed anything. But you would have changed. If I had told you, you would have ended everything. Just look at this last month, how perfect is has been."

"You don't know that, you don't know what would have happened because you chose to lie to me again. You decided for the both of us Yuki, and that wasn't right."

Yuki knew that Kyo was right; he knew that he was more then right. He had a right to be angry. But Yuki hadn't known what else to do and he told Kyo that.

"Honesty Yuki lies are what got you in trouble the first time. How…how am I supposed to know that everything that you have told me isn't a lie?"

"I'm telling the truth Kyo, you have become so much to me, this…" He motioned his finger between the two of them, "This means so much to me." He knew that he had to be pale, and he knew that his eyes had to be wide. But Kyo's hair was mussed from running his hands through them and his eyes held the look of betrayal. His movements were jerky, nothing like his normal graceful movements. He was hurt.

"I know that you are hurt, but please…."

"Please what Yuki listen to more of your lies, more of your half truths?"

"No, I promise…"

"I need to go…"

"No… please…" Yuki begged. He could feel it; his heart was stuttering in his chest, his hands were cold and his vision becoming blurry. "Kyo…"

"I… I need to think…" Kyo was walking on autopilot, getting on his coat and approaching the door.

"Kyo…" Something in Yuki's voice must have caught him because he turned around and looked at Yuki and he took in the appearance and the absolute fear in his eyes.

"I'll come back…but right now, I just need to…go." He turned and opened and then closed the door behind him.

Yuki felt his knees give out and he slid boneless to the floor.

"He'll be back….he'll be back…" For some reason the mantra wasn't that comforting and as his tears fell he knew that while Kyo would come back it didn't mean that he would stay.

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Sorry guys another cliffie… I swear I don't do this on purpose. Please as always review and let me know what you are thinking. There will most likely only be one chapter left and maybe an epilogue. We shall see.

Thanks for reading,

Cat