A/N: Please, if you haven't already go back to chapter 8 and read the ending, I added about a paragraph more to it. It basicaly leads up to this, so you might want to go back lol Okay, thanks guy ^_^ Reviews help me update, since I know alot of people are reading this, it'd be nice to get a few ^_^
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Soft silk like hands met tear stained pale checks, attempting to caress the unbearable pain away. Axel wished he could transfer all of Roxas's sorrow and worry into his own body. He hated everything that made Roxas frown, sulk, and cry. Axel was willing to fight the entire world for Roxas, he was willing to face the flames of hell, and Axel would die Roxas if he had too. There was nothing Axel wouldn't do for his blonde angel, he only wanted his lover to smile and be happy. Axel was content even if Roxas wanted him gone, just as long as he was happy. His own happiness didn't matter when it came to Roxas, because to Axel the only thing that made him happy was when Roxas was happy.
At the moment, Roxas wanted and needed to be loved by Axel. He longed to feel the comfort of his lover, to feel like he was wanted by someone. Roxas was in dire need of Axel's caring touches, passionate kisses, and his trusted one-hundred percent true love. The red head was the only person Roxas knew could make him feel that way.
The way Roxas felt like he was flying while both his feet were still planted on the ground. How Roxas saw sunshine when it down poured glistening cold rain. Roxas felt like Axel filled up his heart. Before Axel, Roxas always felt empty, but now it was different. Roxas felt his heart was complete and open for Axel to take. The pure blissful feeling of having Axel around made Roxas weak and his stomach flutter with butterflies. It was unlike any other feeling he's ever had.
"Axel, it hurts." Roxas whispered as his arms wrapped tighter around Axel's neck. The blonde buried his head into Axel's chest, letting Axel kiss his bare flesh right under his ear. Roxas shuddered, his stomach getting tight with anticipation. He needed Axel to be closer, to move as one with Axel.
"Roxas, relax, I'm not going to hurt you. I want to make you feel better…I want to love you." Axel smiled into Roxas's shoulder, placing another kiss there. His hands, softly running up and down Roxas's shoulder's and arms.
Axel was almost able to feel the wheels turning in Roxas's head as he clung to him, not making any other sounds besides an occasionally sob. Axel closed his eyes and placed more kisses along Roxas's shoulder and up his neck until he reached his lips again. Roxas kissed back, letting Axel lightly nibble his lower lip and his hands start to undo his jeans. Now, the real moment was starting as the heat began to intensify.
"Everything will be okay, I promise." Axel whispered, successfully getting Roxas's jeans undone and ready to pull off. Roxas lifted his hips as Axel placed a hand on his hip, he helped Roxas move until is jeans were on the ground. Another quite sob escaped Roxas's lips as Axel trailed his hand up Roxas's trembling thigh, letting that hand rest on the elastic band of Roxas's boxers. Axel looked up to see Roxas was starring right at him with sad and desperate eyes. Axel could almost read his expression clearly, it screamed please.
"I love you." Axel said as he moved his body down, placing a kiss on Roxas's thigh. The younger boy let out a moan of approval as he arched his back slightly. Axel knew it was a weak spot on the depressed blonde, he knew it was one of the many spots that put Roxas in the mood.
"I love you too, Axel." Roxas sniffled, letting his hands move down to pull his own shirt over his head. Axel looked back up towards Roxas and smirked at the action, getting turned on as he watched Roxas take off the unwanted piece of clothing.
A few more kisses were placed randomly around Roxas's almost fully exposed body before the teen pulled on Axel's worn out band T-shirt. Axel gave his lover a knowing smile before sitting back and pulling it off himself. Roxas's eyes lit up at the sight of his boyfriend's perfectly toned stomach. He knew Axel worked out with Riku on the days he wasn't busy, but it looked like he did it everyday judging by the looks of it. Roxas extended his arms towards Axel again, wanting and needing the older boy near him again. Axel gave in and laid down on Roxas, letting Roxas wrap his arms around his neck, pulling at his long red hair once in a while. Axel didn't complain at this action, he only encouraged it by moaning into their kiss.
Roxas pulled back to breathe and looked up towards the open window; Axel followed his gaze and quickly felt the same guilt and worry he felt before. The man was still out there, and there was nothing he could do about it right now.
"I'm here. Your brother is fine. Demyx is probably playing with his silly music…Don't worry." Axel sighed, brushing his fingers through the soft blonde hair he came to love. Roxas sighed as well; feeling like Axel was talking more to convince himself than Roxas. But, Roxas didn't care right now; he just wanted to be with Axel.
"Come here." Roxas whispered, pulling Axel's head back down to kiss him more deeply. Axel ran a hand over Roxas's chest, lightly playing with one of his nipples. Roxas felt a shiver go down his spine as Axel did this, wanting more from the older boy. Axel smirked into their kiss, now pinching only slightly to make his lover moan lustfully into his mouth. Roxas bucked his hips up, feeling the effect he had on Axel. He knew the older of them both was big, but for some reason he seemed bigger tonight. Roxas almost laughed at his thought, but held back and settled for a simple smile.
"I want you." Roxas moaned with a smile still on his lips and faded tear tracks on his face. Axel felt happy when he saw that smile, the smile that captivated him months ago.
"I want you, more." Axel moaned as he left Roxas's chest to go down and play by his belly button. Roxas smirked as he felt Axel dip his finger into his belly button, feeling as if it were a childish act.
"Ax…" He moaned, feeling a little silly.
"Rox…" Axel mimicked, laughing when Roxas hit him playfully. "Oh do it again…" Axel whispered close to Roxas's ear. "I like it when you're rough."
"Shut up." Roxas laughed, no longer feeling sad about what happened. It was mostly because Axel was helping him forget by replacing sadness with happiness and love.
"Make me." Axel flashed a toothy grin as he captured Roxas's lips wit another more forceful kiss.
Axel felt Roxas grab the sides of his head, pulling him deeper as he thrust his hips up into Axel. Axel moaned more wantonly than Roxas, and a little louder. It made Roxas blush deeply when Axel shoved his hand down Roxas's boxers unexpectedly.
"Ax!" Roxas gasped, pulling away from Axel's lips, but not moving away completely.
Axel smirked, his eyes half opened as he felt Roxas's arousal in his hand. Roxas wanted to hide his face, like he usually did when Axel touched him this way. Axel had gotten him to be a little more open when it came to touching him, but couldn't stop the boy from blushing.
"Axel, come one…don't tease me." Roxas moaned, turning his face away from Axel. Axel continued to stare at Roxas as he moved his hand slowly from the base to the tip of Roxas's erection. Roxas moaned, feeling his face get as red as Axel's hair. It seemed the heat from his embarrassment was getting to match the hat Axel was creating. Axel ignored Roxas's previous plea and continued to make him blush.
Axel's other hand that wasn't down Roxas's boxers was playing with Roxas's hair. His vibrant green eyes locked on to Roxas's face waiting for him to look back. Roxas knew Axel was waiting for him to look and refused to look back at him. Instead, Roxas closed his eyes and moaned as Axel pleasured him slowly and very teasingly. Axel glanced down at Roxas's hips still moving with his hand as he jerked him off, than back up at Roxas to see if he opened his eyes yet.
"Roxas." Axel whispered.
"…What?" Roxas sighed as his breathing was hard to control.
"Look at me, Roxas." Axel used his commanding, husky voice knowing that Roxas loved it when he acted like a controlling dominant partner. In response he got a very whorish moan and another wild thrust out of Roxas.
"Look at me." Axel repeated, listening o Roxas's breathing become erratic. The red head roughly climbed over Roxas's smaller body, moving his hand faster along the teen's length. He bit along Roxas's collarbone as he sent his hot breathe over Roxas's face.
"Roxas, open your eyes." Axel commanded again, still moving faster with one hand while he other came up to teak a nipple. Roxas moaned out again and arched his back, his chest meeting Axel's.
Roxas opened his electric blue eyes as he let out hot and heavy sighs, moaning in between. Axel loved the sight of Roxas losing control and couldn't help but let a sly smirk grace his features.
"Good boy." Axel kissed him as he felt Roxas leaking pre-cum, knowing he was close. "Come for me?" Axel asked, more than commanded. Roxas moaned into their kiss as he felt his stomach tighten and his toes curl.
Axel closed his eyes as he listened to Roxas come, feeling him fill up his hand. Axel smirked as Roxas let his body relax, lying still on the bed as he came down from his high. Roxas had his eyes closed again, as Axel placed another kiss on his shoulder than his lips.
"Hey." Axel said as he removed his hand from Roxas's boxers.
"Mmm." Roxas slowly opened his eyes to see Axel had his own hand full of cum in front of him.
"Spread for me." Axel moaned, he himself still hard, and now getting harder at the thought of their next game.
"Hold on." Roxas moved around in order to get free from his now dirty boxers. He spread his legs slowly for Axel, trying to still relax from his orgasm. Axel on the other hand was still anxious to release, and wanted to do it inside of his lover.
Axel smirked at the sight of Roxas out of breathe and already letting himself be prepared for another orgasm. Axel hurried as he placed a still slick finger of cum inside Roxas, making sure to go slow as the boy attempted to relax his muscles.
"Fuck." Roxas bit his lip, trying to ignore the harsh feeling of being invaded by Axel's finger.
"Shh, just relax." Axel attempted to calm his lover, by using another hand to stroke his thigh lovingly. But, Axel couldn't hold back a moan at seeing Roxas like this. His body full out on display as he pumped his finger full of Roxas's cum inside his body.
"You should see yourself…You look so hot." Axel moaned, daring to add another finger as Roxas gasped in pain. Axel felt bad for a second as he realized what he just did, the tears of pain falling from Roxas's eyes. "Shit, I'm sorry." Axel apologized quickly, moving up to kiss Roxas and make him feel better. Roxas almost laughed at how protective Axel could be, and how he treated him.
"I'm fine, just keep scissoring me…I don't want your monster of a dick to kill me." Roxas laughed, making Axel smirk at how he could joke around like this during an intimate moment.
"It's not there to hurt you…Only to make you feel good." Axel moaned, kissing the side of Roxas's face as the teen relaxed more around his fingers." It only wants to push inside of you and find that one place that makes you moan like a whore and beg for more." Axel groaned, pushing his erection down against Roxas's new one.
"Fuck me, Ax…" Roxas groaned out, pulling Axel closer as Axel felt his fingers begin to move more easily inside of Roxas.
"Oh I will…Just wait a little longer, I don't want to hurt you." Axel kissed his lips again.
"You're not going to hurt me. The only moans you'll get from me are ones begging you to move faster and harder." Roxas moaned, biting his bottom lip the same time as Axel.
"You like to talk dirty?" Axel laughed, pushing in a third finger, one that Roxas almost didn't notice.
"Love to…But, I'd rather listen to you moan." Roxas locked his blue eyes on Axel's green ones, their lust combining into a fusion of love.
"Okay…I think you're ready." Axel gasped as Roxas arched into him again, making Axel more needy for release.
Roxas slipped his eyes closed as Axel pulled his three wet fingers from his loosened up hole. Roxas felt Axel get off of him to retreat towards the bedside table, getting what was obviously needed to continue. He listened closely as Axel squeezed out an amount he thought he needed, and smirked when Axel let out a sigh of pleasure. Roxas cracked his eyes open in time to see Axel on his knees in front of him with his head titled back. Axel's red hair was falling behind him as he panted at his own touch, his fingers spreading the lube around his hard member. Roxas licked his lips, maintaining self control as he watched the red head stroke himself a little longer than necessary.
"You know I could probably have a nice orgasm watching you do that…" Roxas smirked up as Axel slowly brought his head down to glare seductively down at him.
"I'd like to see that." He purred, leaning back down to line himself up with Roxas. "But, we'll save that for another time." Axel pressed himself against Roxas, making the teen wince. "Remember, relax."
"I k-know." Roxas gasped again, Axel wasn't exactly taking it slow.
Axel leaned down towards Roxas to kiss him and lace their fingers together above Roxas's head. Roxas bit Axel's lip almost to the point of bleeding as the red head pushed in a little too far.
"Axel…Fucking slow down…" Roxas panted, gripping Axel's hand tighter.
"Sorry, it's just you feel so damn good…Fuck, you're really tight, Roxas." Axel moaned into the blonde's mouth, basking in the tight heat that Roxas held. "Just relax…" Axel rubbed his fingers over Roxas's hand, attempting to calm him down.
"I'm trying! Can you pl-please just stop for a second?" The sudden single tear that formed in Roxas's eye, stopped Axel in less than a heartbeat. Axel stopped moving to let Roxas adjust to the feeling. Roxas seemed to be relaxing; he opened his eyes and let his breathing go back to slightly normal. Axel smiled down at him and kissed his forehead.
"You okay, now?" Axel questioned, sighing heavily.
"Yeah, I'm good… Just don't slam into me and I'll be able to take it." Roxas smiled, kissing Axel once more as Axel slowly proceeded. Roxas seemed to be distracted by the kiss that when Axel hit a certain bundle inside of him he gasped loudly and pulled Axel closer to him. Axel let a smug look appear as he felt Roxas shudder with excitement and begin to pant erotically. He found what he needed to really begin to make love to his Roxas.
"So that's where you are…" Axel whispered into Roxas's ear, licking the shell as he hit that spot again.
"Axel…oh god, Axel you need to actually move now…" Roxas panted, clawing at his lovers back.
"Why? I like taking my time with you." Axel laughed, knowing he wouldn't be able to hold back that much longer now.
"Axel!" Roxas moaned loudly, lifting his leg up more than what they already were.
"Okay, okay, okay…You're so needy." Axel kissed him passionately as he pushed deeper into the spot that made Roxas whither under him with need.
"Oh, gods yes…Axel, baby…Come on…Do me harder!" Roxas panted, beginning to turn Axel on even more by his words of need.
"Shh." Axel laughed, pushing harder against the blonde, his bed starting to make a little noise with his movement. "As much as I love to hear you, I don't want the others to hear us." Axel moved to brace his arms on both sides of Roxas, getting more leverage.
"I can't…h-help it!" Roxas bit down on Axel's shoulder, starting to sit up in his lap.
"Oh god, good idea…" Axel slowly let Roxas push him backwards as sat up. Axel moved his hands to settle on Roxas's hips, helping he teen ride him. "Now I know what you mean…" Axel gasped, closing his eyes as Roxas moved his body up and down on him.
"Axel! Push up more…Please!" Roxas threw his head back, grabbing himself.
"…Let me." Axel whispered to low for Roxas to hear; instead he slapped Roxas's hand away as he grabbed Roxas himself. Roxas looked down at Axel with lust hooded eyes, than down at himself to see Axel helping him out for the second time that night.
"You're so intoxicating…" Axel moaned, closing his eyes and feeling a sudden need to fuck Roxas into the bed. Axel took over again, shoving Roxas back down on the bed, almost too forcefully as he almost slipped out of him. Roxas moaned deeply as he felt Axel's plan in action, his lover was pushing into him as hard as he could.
"Fuck! Roxas! I fucking love you, baby!" Axel panted as he fucked Roxas as fast and hard as he could.
Roxas couldn't form a sentence as he began to see stars. Listening, feeling, and seeing Axel like this made Roxas want to explode with passion. Axel felt the same, that's when Axel felt Roxas tighten around him and his own member explode over his chest. Axel grunted and if possible, came harder than Roxas as he pushed in a last few times.
Roxas kept his eyes closed as he felt Axel relax against his body, their sweaty bodies sticking together almost uncomfortably. Roxas wrapped his arms around Axel, pulling him close and smelling him.
"Are you smelling me?" Axel laughed, pushing his hair away from his eyes to see Roxas better.
"Yeah…You smell like me." Roxas laughed.
"I wonder why?" Axel laughed back, kissing him softly before rolling over to the side of Roxas. Roxas smiled happily, before his stomach twisted uncomfortably. Roxas closed his eyes not wanting Axel to see what he was feeling so suddenly.
Axel held Roxas close to him, smiling happily into his hair. His mind was still set on Roxas as he fell asleep with Roxas in his arms. Roxas on the other hand couldn't stop thinking about what was going to happen in the morning. Roxas didn't want this night to end; he didn't want to leave this room ever again. He just wanted to stay here and let Axel make love to him over and over again…He didn't want to say goodbye to the one person he felt he truly loved.
"Believe me when I say, I love you…" Roxas closed his eyes tightly, his eyes leaking out a few stray tears before he feel asleep in Axel's arms for what could be, the last time.