Bella's POV:
Riiiinggg!
Ugh, damn clock, let me rest in peace!
Riiiinggg!
I don't wanna wake up! Reality is a nightmare. Shut it! I reached for the alarm clock and shut it. Then, my phone started ringing. I picked it up and looked at the caller: Edward. It hesitatingly said, "Hey."
"Bella, we need to talk. I need you," his velvety voice was nowhere to be heard. His voice was cold and distant.
"I don't deserve you..." Memories of us together flashed through my mind. "You could live without me... You're gonna be fine... without me."
"I... I can't live without you," he said. "Not anymore..."
"Edward? Can't you get it?" I almost yelled to my phone. "I WAS THE ONE WHO HURT YOU! You SHOULD HATE me!"
"I... can't," he said. "I... I love you, Bella. Can't you see? You are my life!"
"You're mine too... but... It would be better if we end it," I whispered. "I don't want to hurt you more."
"Bella... You want this? You want us to end?" He was suffering. I couldn't take it anymore.
"It is better for us... for you, for me." I was crying again. "Good-bye, Edward. You'll always be the one." I hung up the phone. I lied down on my bed and sobbed silently.
The door opened. It was Alice. "What do you want?" I said loudly.
"An explanation," she announced. "And I want it specific."
"I don't feel like it," I said, losing my patience. Alice stared at me with those puppy dog eyes that I hate. "We broke up."
"What?!" Alice's mouth dropped open. "No way. You tell me you're-" She looked at my expression then said, "Oh, you meant it... But... WHY?"
"I don't wanna talk about it! Can't you people see? Give me some friggin' space! PLEASE!" OK. I know it was bad to shout at Alice like that but I couldn't help it. Why do I have to repeat the memory of Edward and I that I hate the most?
"Well, sorry, Bella. I just-- I never wanted to... aggravate you... but..." She paused. "It's my brother and my bestest friend we're talking about..." Then she turned on her heel and left me... Alone.
Edward's POV:
After she hung up, I couldn't help but think of her. Again. I threw my phone and it hit a picture of Bella and I, at the concert of Paramore. I groaned and turned the radio on. "So Sick" by Ne-Yo was playing.
"Gotta change my answering machine, now that I'm alone
Cause right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Caused you walked out the door,
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin' 'round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin' over you
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be
That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio"
"Bella..." I said feebly, then slowly drifted to sleep.
~Dream Start~
It was a nightmare. I saw Bella walking up the staircase of a wonderful house. It looked familiar. Really familiar. It was my parent's house! I followed her, wanting to touch her pale skin again. Inside the house, everything was the same... Except for... one thing. I wasn't there. It couldn't be...
"I'm sorry, Bella..." Alice was saying it over and over again. "It wasn't your fault."
"Wasn't my fault? Get real, Alice!" She yelled. "I broke his heart. I'm to blame! It IS my FAULT that Edward's DEAD!" She crumpled into a fit of sobs.
ME? DEAD? It couldn't. It wasn't possible!
~Dream End~
I woke up and breathed a sigh of relief. I'm not dead. But it sure feels like I am.
Someone knocked on my door. I wanted it to be Bella. Bella... Bella please be--
It was Alice. Great timing as usual. "We need to talk."
"Go away," I moaned. then cosed the door but Alice stopped it with her foot. "Alice, get out!"
"No," Alice said stubbornly. "I want something only you can give."
"What?" I didn't know where this was going, but one things for sure, it's not gonna be good.
"Why you and Bella broke up," Alice said.
"It's... complicated," I sighed. She was looking at me with those irritating puppy dog eyes, it was makin me more tense by the second.
"No. Tell it all." Her voice was firm. Commanding. I hate it. But I still told her the whole story.