I knew this was a bad idea the minute I got into Axel's car when he picked me up right on time. I was freaking out. I was grateful that Axel kept things easy between us. We hardly talked and he kept his eyes on the road. It was like he didn't even know I was there and that's how I liked it.

When he got to the house where the party was, I was more nervous then ever. The place was PACKED! Just being around one person made me uncomfortable but it was like the whole school was here…

"Hell yeah, it's party time," said Axel excitedly as he smacked the steering wheel with his hands before opening his door and getting out.

If Axel hadn't opened my side of the door, I wouldn't have gotten out of the car.

*I can do this, I told myself mentally, taking a deep breath before I forced myself to get out of Axel's car.

"Just relax, Sora, we're here to have fun," said Axel encouragingly as he draped an arm around my shoulders and led me towards the house, the pounding music pulsating my insides around.

Like the music, my anxiety grew more and more powerful within my body, shaking my insides and fighting to burst free. That arm around my shoulder sent electrical bolts shooting into my skin and zapping at my nerves, making me flinch ever so slightly. I didn't want to be rude when Axel was trying to help me. So far he's been quite nice.

"Hey, Axel, 'bout time you got here," said a teen that I recognized as one of Axel's friends and he was looking at me with a weird grin. "I see you've brought a date."

"Yeah, and we're planning on having one hell of a time," replied Axel as he exchanged a strange sort of handshake with his friend which involved fist bumping and palm slapping.

Why did I get a weird feeling about all this? In all honesty…it was freaking me out.

*I want to go home… I wanted to say but that pulsing music just pounded my voice and courage down into my stomach where it twisted and churned to the point I may be sick.

"Come on, Sora, we better get inside before all the drinks are gone," said Axel over the music and shouting, a grin on his face that made me nervous.

But I nodded and let him lead me into that house where the noise nearly broke me apart. Literally. Even though the door was wide open, the shock wave of sound slammed into me like someone hitting a gong. That ringing vibration shooting through my body and almost shattered my eardrums.

Everyone moved around me like one solid mass of color and smells – mostly alcohol and cigarettes which made me cough and get dizzy.

Looking up at Axel for help did little; he was too busy talking to friends and other students from school. There were even kids here that I've never seen before.

"Hey there," said a large guy with black dreadlocks who smirked at me and grabbed my arm. "How about you and I go party upstairs huh?"

He sounded drunk, his speech a little slurred and his cheeks were a little flushed, but his grip was firm on my small arm.

"Let go!" I demanded as he I tried to pull free, panic twisting around in my body.

"Back off," growled Axel as he pulled the guy's hand off me and shoved him away.

A wave of relief washed over me when I saw Axel defend me, barking at the guy to get lost and he did.

"You okay?" asked Axel in a humored tone, an airy smile on his lips and the smell of alcohol permeated from this breath.

"Y-Yeah…I think so…" I muttered, still a little panicked by the incident.

Suddenly I wanted to be anywhere but here!

"Come on, let me get you a drink so you can chill," Axel offered with more insisting than concern, his arm going around me and pulling me off towards the kitchen.

"No! I-I don't drink!" I stammered with alarm and I started squirming to try to escape Axel's hold on me.

"Don't be a wimp, Sora; you're here to have some fun! Live a little!" he kept insisting his arm keeping a tight hold on me and I couldn't get away.

Maybe I was over reacting…? What do I have to lose? Riku? He's already lost to me. He abandoned me. This was his entire fault! Before I knew it, a red plastic cup was pushed into my hands and looking down at it, I saw it was filled with a golden brown drink with a thin layer of white foam over it.

Beer…

"Go on, have a sip," Axel egged me on, gesturing with his own cup for me to drink from my own. "You're a party for Christ's Sake! You want to have fun or not? It'll help you out, man!"

With a moment of hesitation, I started at the cup before lifting it slowly upwards until I felt the rim pressing against the lip. It was now or never…maybe it won't be so bad. Just a little sip won't hurt.

Opening my mouth I let it drain past my lips, letting it slosh against my tongue and causing me to cough.

It was awful!!

"Yuck!" I exclaimed, pushing the cup away from me and I vigorously wiped my mouth on my sleeve.

Laughing, Axel patted me on the back before taking a gulp of his beer.

"Don't worry, you'll get used to it before the nights over," he reassured me with a grin before pouring a bottle of beer into my cup to refill it even more than before. "You're pretty fun, I should bring you out more often."

I smiled at him a little but said nothing. I couldn't say anything for there was nothing to say.

"Come on, let's mingle a bit," he said, his arm going back around my shoulder and he guided me through the house.

He said hi to a lot of people. Many guys and girls who seemed to know him pretty well. Was Axel popular or something? I only walked along side him quietly, occasionally taking small sips from my cup which I was getting a bit used to. It still left a bad aftertaste in my mouth. I didn't know if it was the loud music, the drinking or the smell of smoke but I was starting to get a headache.

He made our way into the living room, Axel still being greeted by many and me just coasting along. But then…

"Hah! Riku, you're a riot!" exclaimed a girl in amusement, her laughter breaking through the thick wall of music and chattering.

Riku?

Looking up quickly I saw across the room, sitting on a couch beside a red haired girl, was Riku. Of all people in the world…it was Riku.

Gradually realization kicked in and I know exactly what was going on. Forgetting about Axel, my eyes fixed on Riku; I pulled away and started walking towards him with conviction and I had only one thing in mind.

"So I was standing there in the room with th-" Riku was explaining with such enthusiasm in his voice as he told his story.

Oh how it didn't last long. He stopped in midsentence, eyes wide as he looked right at me as I stood in front of him, staring back.

"S-Sora…" he gasped and I noticed his body going ridged a shocked look on his face that made me relish the moment.

"Hey, Riku," I greeted with a snippy smugness to my tone as I glared at him and tried not to lose it. "Nice seeing you here, having fun? I sure am."

"What are you doing here Sora?" questioned Riku with a frown as he got up suddenly, sounding angry with me which in turn made me angry.

"I should ask you the same thing, Riku!" I snapped back at him, my voice on the verge of shouting and I didn't care that people were watching and listening. "Was this why you couldn't make it after school Riku? Because you'd rather be at a party?"

"Don't push this on me, Sora!" he growled, hands in fists but I knew he wouldn't hurt me.

It only made me feel more powerful and triumphant. But it also hurt me too. It hurt me deeply like a knife being twisted into my chest.

"You lied to me you asshole!" I continued to shout at him, my body trembling with my anger towards Riku. I could just feel the tears pooling. "All that crap you said about being my friend was a damn lie! You'd rather ditch me and be here with some girl! I hate you!"

Lifting the drink, I threw it at him, the stunned look on his face made me relish the misery I must have caused him. I backed away, wanting to run from him. He reached out to me but his arm was caught by the red haired girl and he did nothing.

…Nothing!

It nearly killed me. I turned and I ran for it. Ran away from Riku's voice trying to call me back and I ignored it completely. I was blinded with tears and swimming thoughts as I ran through the rooms and crowds of people. Down the hall I went, to the end where a door was open. I ran inside and flung the door shut behind me.

There in the empty room, the music only a muffled sound, I collapsed on the edge of the bed and cried.

"Sora…you in here?" asked a curious voice that wasn't Riku like I somewhat hoped for.

No, it was Axel.

I didn't reply, only curled up and hid my face, wanting it all too just go away. Why did I come here? I should have just stayed home and ignorantly believed that Riku was busy helping his grandmother or something. Anything would have been better than this.

"Hey, man, don't sweat it, ok?" murmured Axel as he came into the room and closing the door behind him, his tone almost…comforting.

He came over and sat next to me. Looking up at him with my red puffy eyes I saw he had two cups in his hand and he was watching me curiously.

"You know that guy back there?" he asked, meaning Riku.

"Yes," I replied in a choked voice as he looked away from him and rubbed my eyes. "He was my best friend, until he ditched me."

"Man, that's heavy, so not cool," stated Axel airily as he set the cups on the floor and sat me up with firm hands. Then he handed me a drink. "Here, have some of this, it'll make you feel better man."

"Is…he still out there? I don't want to leave here if he's still out there," I told him, not thinking much of the drink as I started sipping from it, not totally used to the taste.

"Nah, he left after you doused him," said Axel with a slight frown and a shrug but then grinned at me. "Which was pretty cool, by the way."

I smiled a little at that and drank the rest of my cup so that it was empty. Why did it bother me that there wasn't any more left. At least it did make him feel better. Less pain but it made my head feel a little light.

"Here, you need it more than I do," chuckled Axel as he handed me his cup which I took without much thought and began downing it.

I drank it all and felt almost…strange. I head was all foggy and sloshed around like water in a jug.

"You know, Sora, you should worry about that creep," stated Axel as he turned to me, his hand touching my cheek. It felt like ice. "He doesn't care about you like I do."

"You…do?" I asked, more like mumbled as he head spun around which made me confused.

"Yeah, I like you, and I'll show you how much I do right now."

With that said, he leaned in, his face getting closer and closer until his lips pressed against mine. It startled me and I tried to pull away but his arms went around me and pulled me close, his lips connecting with mine again.

"Nnn…no!" I gasped as I pulled away again, my head hurting with confusion. "This…this is weird. I can't…"

"Is it that guy you'd rather make out with?" questioned Axel as he looked down at me, his face darkened a little which scared me.

"I….I don't know…" I whimpered, looking up at him in fear for the question caught me by surprise and once again I was reminded of how Riku betrayed me.

It crushed me and I simply weakened in Axel's hold.

"I'd rather have you first," he remarked with a sinister grin as he began to press down on me.

The room was spinning; I was lying on a bed and felt sick and drunk out of my mind. It was dark but the light from the street laps dimmed the room in a faint orange glow. In the background, I could hear the muffled sounds of music and chatter. The sounds of a party that I wound up at and then had too many.

"Don't worry, you'll enjoy this," said the voice of a red head I had thought was my friend who I see hovering over me with his shirt off.

"No…" I tried to say in protest, though it came out mumbled and almost unheard, I couldn't think straight.

I tried to push him off but he had pinned down both my wrists, my body not having any strength left and it was hard to keep my eyes open at this point.

"It'll be fun, you'll see," he said again, that friend who I thought I could rely on when the person I cared about most deserted me.

*'Riku…' The one thought that I could put into my head without it being all muddled out with the alcohol. The one person I needed the most at this moment but had already pushed away. 'Help me…'

He began to strip me with rough hands and he ignored any sound I made of protest. I didn't want this. I didn't want to be naked in front of this person who I knew will harm me. But I did not fully understand his true intentions.

I could feel his hands on me, those cold hands that were running up and down my nude flesh and it made me shiver with disgust. I wanted to pull away but couldn't. I couldn't move, couldn't do anything at all. Only lay here and let Axel have his way with me.

His hands slid down my sides, over my hips and I felt them brush the member between my legs, a spot that not even I touch.

"A-AH!" I gasped in shock, the feeling sending a sickening wave through me and I pressed my thighs together in reaction. "N-No….don't touch me there…"

He laughed at my pleas.

"Kind of small, but not that bad," he said as his fingers ran over it, just teasing me organ and it made my body get hot.

"Stop!" I whimpered, his head turning from one side to the other, my fingers gripping the pillow tightly.

His hand was pulled away and for a second, I thought I was spared. But then I felt him touching my thighs with one hand and I heard the sound of a zipper. Getting a glance down, I saw the erect muscles which was pulled out of Axel's pants and fear made me feel ice cold. He was…

"Be a good boy and scream for daddy," he said with a grin, hands forcing my thighs open and legs up and before I knew it, I was forced into.

I did scream. The pain of being ripped and forced into brought burning tears to my eyes and my whole body to shudder. Oh god it hurt and no one could hear me!

He was moving already. Moving so roughly inside of me and I sobbed and cried out for him to stop but he only thrust harder.

"Oh, yeah," he said with a satisfied breath as he grinned wickedly down at me, his fingers gripping my thighs up in the air so painfully as he repeatedly violated me.

"No! No more…stop….please stop!" I cried and begged with tears pouring down my cheeks, fingers twisting at the pillow, the hard thrusts causing me to gasp and even stop breathing for a moment.

"You want to know something?" he questioned with quickened breath, his body already gleaming with sweat as he looked down at me with blazing green eyes. "I've always wanted to fuck the weird kid. Ever since I saw you in the park, playing in the dirt."

"You…it was you?" I gasped in horror and realization.

Even though I could hardly understand, I knew clearly what he meant. When I was small and sat all by myself at the park…where I met Riku. Axel was…that red haired boy?

I was tricked. Oh god I was tricked by Axel! He didn't bring me here to be my friend… it was all just for this!

*'Riku! Oh, Riku!'

Axel knew Riku. Another trick. Axel pretended to not know who Riku was to gain my trust…Oh God!!

"You feel better than I thought, you're so easy," he remarked to me, his lips against my ear before he pulled back and started slamming into me with hard and faster thrusts, his head falling back as me moaned.

I could hardly make a sound, my throat raw with crying and I felt dead. Completely dead and I lay there as if I were, letting him finish what he wanted with me. I was numb.

Soon it was finally over. He came inside of me, I could feel it. I felt sick but didn't care anymore.

"You're hot," he told me, his fingers tugging my hair before he kissed me with more roughness. "I'll see you around."

And just like that, he was gone. He just dressed himself, smirked at me and simply left. Leaving me alone in that room with blood and cum coming out of me, my body quivered as I finally broke down into new sobs. My whole body hurt so badly. I couldn't move while I was left there to lay in what had just happened. I was alone and used.

'Riku…Riku…I'm so sorry…Riku…'