note- i know. i know. long time T_T sorry.
"I want to die." Sesshomaru said to himself as another stack of papers were brought to his desk. The pile of papers seemed never ending; as he got close to finishing the burdensome pile, another pile would magically appear. Sesshomaru banged his head on his desk, "Do it for your kids Sesshomaru! Wait…I don't have any kids. Damnit there goes my inspiration." Sesshomaru said as he laid his head on his desk. His ears perked to the sound of his office door being opened and to the timid footsteps that belonged to Rin.
"Sir? Is this a bad time?" Rin said in a low voice. Sesshomaru shook his head and said, "No I was just having a mental break down Rin just like any other day in the office. What is it?"
"Well, Inuyasha is here reporting for work. Do I send him in?"Rin asked. Sesshomaru raised his head from his desk and simply nodded. Inuyasha strode into the office a few moments later and Sesshomaru's eyes widened to the size of plates.
"Wow brother I'm impressed." Sesshomaru said with a smile. Inuyasha was dressed in a black white pinstripe suit with a white collar shirt and red tie. 'And I thought he was going to come to work in his pajamas.' Sesshomaru thought in amazement. "I know, I was thinking about coming in my birthday suit. But then I thought to myself, I wouldn't want my poor brother to feel ashamed that his junk is smaller than his little brother's." Inuyasha said with a smirk.
Sesshomaru's eyes narrowed. "I fail to see the humor." Sesshomaru replied. "I figured that much. So, I'm here and ready to work so what do I do?" Inuyasha asked. Sesshomaru thought for a moment then a malicious smile found its way to his lips. Inuyasha's eyes widened. "I don't like the look on your face bro." Inuyasha said.
"I know exactly where to put you." Sesshomaru said, his smile never leaving his face.
"How are you feeling Kags?" Sango asked as she started to dust the dining room table. Kagome thought for a moment as she sprayed the windows with windex and said, "I'm alright. At first I was devastated, but now I guess I'm numb to the whole thing. Besides now that Koga is back in my life and my wedding is coming up, I don't have time to be sad over that playboy."
Sango nodded and said, "And I heard that dumbass Miroku apologized to you. How did that go?"
"It went really good I thought. I appreciated the fact that he got the courage to apologize to me. And he was able to tell me Inuyasha's story which did give me some insight as to why he is the way he is. But I know that's no excuse for how he treated me." Kagome said as she wiped the windows. "I agree, but I have to say Kags that I have never seen Inuyasha mope around the house this much before. Kirara told me that when she was cleaning his room, he just laid on his bed staring at the ceiling the whole time! He didn't make a pass at her or anything! Can you believe that?" Sango said in amazement.
"He didn't? That is really weird, usually he can't keep his package inside his pants and now he has no problem doing that?"Kagome said as she looked at Sango. "I guess so. Don't get me wrong I don't like the guy at all, but it seems that he may have actual remorse for the whole thing." Sango said in a matter of fact tone.
Kagome felt a tinge of sorrow in her heart for a brief moment. There was a small part of her that wanted to take Inuyasha in her arms and forgive him just so that she could see a smile on his face. However, she knew what he did was unforgivable. She began to feel for this man and in the end she realized that everything was a lie. Tampering with someone's emotions was unheard of, and he knew that; yet he still went on to destroy her. 'Maybe you're being too hard on him.' Kagome thought to herself.
He does sound remorseful, maybe he does want to apologize to her. Kagome shook her head. 'I should put this matter out of my mind. I'm getting married to a wonderful man who really does love me.' Kagome thought to herself.
Sango couldn't help but glance at Kagome as she rubbed polish on the table. 'He may be an ass Kagome, but I think he really does love you.' Sango thought as she rubbed the polish onto the table. How she wanted to tell her friend that. But this matter was out of her control.
"I can't believe he put me as the janitor!" Inuyasha said into his cellular as he walked on the sidewalk. "Well what did you expect dude? Mail room?" Miroku said as he tried to stifle his laughter. "The mail room would've been heaven compared to this! I had to clean the bathrooms in my brand new suit! I think I got some shit water on my pants!" Inuyasha whined.
Miroku burst out in laughter and said, "That's hilarious. Sounds like you had an awesome day at the office dude."
Inuyasha sighed and ran his fingers through his hair with his free hand. "Well at least I'm finally taking responsibility with the company. Hopefully Sesshomaru will see how bad I want to take my place in the company." Inuyasha said in an exhausted tone.
A moment of silence passed and Miroku said, "I'm really impressed Inuyasha. You're changing and it's definitely for the better." Inuyasha smiled and said, "Thanks dude I appreciate the support. And there's something I want to ask you."
"Have I talked to Kagome? Is that what you want to ask?" Miroku said in a knowing tone. "How did you know?" Inuyasha replied. Miroku chuckled and said, "Lucky guess my dear friend. And yes, I have spoken to her. I went to her apartment to apologize and she was nice enough to accept it. I also told her about you and Kikyo and how you've changed since then."
Inuyasha sighed and replied, "I guess its better you told her. I wish I could tell her that my feelings for her are real and that I wasn't lying. I want her to trust me again. When I tried to tell her I loved her she just wrote me off and rightly so. But I want to tell her one more time that I love her and I always will and maybe she will find it in her heart to give me another chance."
"I may not know a lot of things dude, but I do know that whenever she looked at you she nothing but tenderness in her eyes. And you don't look at someone like that unless you have feelings for them. Go to her dude. Tell her how you feel and if she turns you down again, then at least you know you fought for her til the end." Miroku said in a calm tone.
Inuyasha stopped walking and thought for a moment. 'Should I tell her?' Inuyasha thought to himself. The fear of rejection plagued his heart. Never before had he felt this anxiety about telling a girl what he felt. And now just the thought tugged at the strings of his heart. But, he had to know if she loved him back; even if that meant the possibility of tearing his heart apart.
However, he couldn't help but hear those damning words echo through his head.
Now that I see what you really are. It makes me wonder why I even cared about you in the first place.
Kagome laid on her bed, too exhausted to take her shoes off. "I hate that mansion with all my being." Kagome whined. If it weren't for the fact that she needed that job she would quit. Every time she cleaned that house it seemed to get bigger and bigger. 'Man I wish Koga was here to give me a back rub.' Kagome thought to herself as she rolled to her right side to look at the clock. The bright red lights of the clock told her that it was five in the afternoon. "He won't be home for another hour."Kagome said aloud.
Koga was out doing errands for the wedding. Kagome wasn't shocked at how serious he was about the wedding. He had always loved her with all his heart and always gave her one hundred percent effort when it came to their relationship. He really was the perfect guy and she was going to marry him.
So why wasn't she excited? Why didn't the thought of the wedding bring butterflies to her stomach?
This isn't what you want.
"Shut up."Kagome said to herself. It is what she wanted; she always wanted to marry Koga. He was the man of her dreams. Wait…was?
Kagome fell off her bed when she heard a knock on her door.
"Ow…"Kagome whimpered as she rubbed her back and walked to door. Nothing could have prepared her for what she would see. She opened the door to see the one person she wished she could banish from her thoughts and from her heart.
Those damn golden eyes that made her heart quiver. Those damn lips that often curved into a smile that also made her smile. And those damn ears that would make her laugh whenever they twitched uncontrollably.
Inuyasha.
"Why are you here?"Kagome whispered. Her eyes began to mist and tears started to roll down her cheeks. Inuyasha simply lifted a hand and wiped away her tears. There was only love in his eyes. "Please Kagome don't cry. I hate it when you cry."Inuyasha said with a sad smile.
"Well you know I can't help it." Kagome replied. Inuyasha only nodded. The silence was intolerable. It was worse than running a knife into your bare skin. How she wished she could say something to him, but words wouldn't come.
Finally, Inuyasha broke the silence. "Listen I know I'm not welcome here and I understand that. But I just wanted to give this one more shot. I know I'm an asshole. I know what I did was wrong. And I want you to know again that somewhere in this mess I fell in love with you. And I wish that you could just find it in your heart to trust me again. My feelings are real, Kagome. I'm not lying to you this time. You've changed me! I finally got a job at the company! Something that I thought I would never do! You finally gave me the kick that I need to take responsibility for the company and stop being the dumbass that does nothing but party. I owe all this to you, Kagome."Inuyasha said with pure passion.
Kagome just stood rooted at her doorstep. His words fell on her ears and she had no idea what to make of it. Here he is, telling her that he loves her again and that he wanted a second chance. What should she do? 'I don't know…'Kagome thought to herself. Her heart screamed at her to give him another chance while her brain told her not to, it was a tug of war.
She had to give him an answer. After a few moments there was a victor and then she gave him her answer.
"I'm marrying Koga. I love him. He's carrying no drama with him. Which is really refreshing for me, I'm sorry Inuyasha you're too late." Kagome said with a sigh.
For a split second she could've swore that she saw unshed tears in his eyes. But a second later they were gone. "Okay Kagome, I respect your decision. But if I may, can I ask you one thing?" Inuyasha said.
Kagome nodded.
"Can I kiss you?"Inuyasha asked.
Kagome thought for a moment. She had a fiancé! How could she explain that she kissed Inuyasha to Koga? 'Well it could be a kiss on the cheek.' Kagome thought to herself. Kagome nodded in reply to his question.
Inuyasha laid a hand on her cheek and leaned in. Before Kagome could protest his lips sealed whatever protests she had. Everything she felt was washed away. All her hate, sorrow, and confusion were banished from her mind. She wrapped her arms around him out of instinct and he did the same. Inuyasha ran his fingers through her raven locks causing Kagome's heart to skip a beat. The kiss was tender and sweet, yet it was also sorrowful. She felt his pain and agony and she wished she could take it all away. She couldn't help but realize that their bodies fit so nicely together, like puzzle pieces. Pieces that were thought to never have fit together in the first place.
Before she knew it, Inuyasha pulled away and gave her a sad smile. "I just wanted to show you Kagome since words can't convince you. I won't get in your way anymore. You have my word. Goodbye." Inuyasha said in a quiet tone.
And that was it. He was gone.
Kagome stood at her doorstop for a minute then proceeded to close the door and throw herself on her couch.
"What have I done?" Kagome said as she began to sob.