This isn't an, i'm going to pick this up again completely UD. More a i had a short burst of inspiration. But it's something, and i hope you're still reading, even though i'm not UDing frequently. This isn't a very good chapter, sorry... but it just came to me.

Chapter 5

It was hard to sleep in hospitals regardless of the situation. Even if she wasn't up all night, throwing up, the beeping and the constant movement makes it hard to sleep. Doctors and nurses are always around, and while they try to be quiet outside your room, it just doesn't work. It had been a week, since he proposed. And she accepted, there was another two before the wedding. If she was alive for that long. Being aware that your time is running out, isn't a pleasant feeling. But it's not the worst thing. The worst thing is watching everyone around you feeling your time running out too. Watching it hurt them, more than it actually hurts you. Maybe that was the real reason she couldn't sleep again tonight.

Gibbs was lying next to her, equally as awake. It was about four am and she hadn't fallen asleep yet. She wasn't doing too well.

In fact, she wasn't doing well at all.

Resting her head on his chest, her arm crept around him. "Promise me you'll be ok," she whispered.

"Jen-"

"No, don't you 'Jen' me, promise," she whispered, clutching her arm around him even tighter.

"It will be ok," he whispered back, putting his arms around her.

"No it won't," she said softly, her tears soaking through his shirt. "I'm going to die," she said, shaking slightly,

"Jen," he said, his voice catching,

"I need to know you won't stop living," They sat up on the bed, and he looked at her, but didn't say anything. He couldn't bring himself to. So instead, he leaned forward, and placed a soft kiss to her lips, "You need to rest," he said, kissing her again.

"Jethro," she said, tears running down her cheeks.

"Rest, Jen," he said soothingly, leaning back, wrapping his arms around her trembling figure. She buried her head into him and cried, he held her, cursing himself for being unable to put the thoughts running through his head into words.

He couldn't live without her. How could he lie to her, tell her that he would be ok? Maybe the nicest thing you could do for someone you love is lie to them. But he couldn't. Perhaps he was too selfish to do that, or maybe he just loved her too much.

"I love you," he whispered, holding her closer to him.

"I love you too," She whispered back, hanging onto him. Scared that if she let go, she'd slip away.

Tony woke to the sound of running water, and was surprised to see the spot next to him empty, and the light in the bathroom on. He clambered out of bed, and made his way there, glancing at the clock on the way that read four am.

"Zee, what are you doing up?"

She was stood in front of the mirror, she'd been splashing water on her face but fresh tear streaks were still evident.

"Hey," he said, closing the distance between them, and wrapping his arms around her, "It's ok, it's gonna be ok,"

She hugged him back, and he rubbed her back. "What's wrong?"

"I just had a nightmare Tony, it is nothing, I am overreacting."

"Why didn't you wake me?" He said softly,

"I did not want to disturb you,"

He broke away from her, and looked her in the eye. "It was about Jenny?"

Tears filled her eyes again, and she nodded.

"It's ok," He choked out, hugging her again, "It's ok," He said again, trying to persuade himself as well as her. "Come on, let's go back to bed,"

She followed him back to their bedroom, and he placed a gentle kiss onto her forehead. "We'll get through this," he whispered.

"Jenny will not," she breathed, her heart constricting painfully in her chest at the words.

He didn't say anything. There was nothing he could say, as they sat down on the edge of the bed, nothing he said, nothing anyone said would makes things change, make them any better.

He was just about to suggest they lie down, when Tony's mobile rang.

"Hello?"

"We need you two over here, now," It was Gibbs voice on the other end of the line,

"Boss?" Tony asked, dread filling him, he could see the same fear building up in Ziva's eyes.

"It's Jenny,"

I'm so horrible... saying i won't UD again that soon. Please try be patient, i know it's hard... :P Anyway, i know it's short and not very good. But please review anyway.

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