Kurt was seeing red. He drove around town aimlessly, just to avoid being home with him.
How dare he! After everything he put me through! Kurt thought. He was holding the steering wheel so hard his knuckles were white.
Before he knew it, he was in front of Jesse's house. He walked to the front door and knocked. After a minute, Jesse opened the door, and seemed surprised to see Kurt. He was wearing a pair of grey sweatpants and an oversized t-shirt. Kurt's anger cooled down a little and he smiled.
"Hello, love. I didn't expect to see you…"
"Nice outfit."
Jesse chuckled. "Well, like I said, I didn't know you were coming back. Is everything ok?"
Kurt sighed. "I just had a huge argument with Finn."
"It was bound to happen, wasn't it?"
"I guess so…"
Jesse didn't say another word. He simply opened his arms, and Kurt cuddled against him, hid his face in his boyfriend's neck, inhaled his comforting scent. Jesse wrapped his arms around him and stroked his hair.
"Mamma Mia! on my flat screen?" Jesse suggested after a moment.
"Well, aren't you the perfect man?" Kurt answered, looking up to see his boyfriend's handsome face.
"Even in sweatpants?"
"Oh yes, you're that good." Kurt then wrapped his arms around the taller boy's neck and gave him a big smooch on the lips.
After the movie, the boys cuddled on the sofa and chatted for a while, and then Kurt went back home, far more relaxed then when he had arrived at Jesse's. Still, he was relieved to discover that Finn was asleep.
The next morning, when Kurt woke up, his roommate was already up. He put on his robe and cautiously went upstairs. Finn was in the kitchen, already dressed, eating his cereals.
"Hello, Finn." Kurt's expression was blank, his voice was monotone.
"H-hi, Kurt…" Finn answered, his eyes on his bowl.
Kurt knew he was being unfair to the boy by holding a grudge like this, but he couldn't help it. He refused to let this go that easily. Finn had, throughout the years, consciously or not, caused so much pain to Kurt. Love hurts, especially when it's one-sided. More than once had Kurt cried himself to sleep over the quarterback… And when he was finally over him, when his life was better than ever, when he had met the gay boy of his dreams, Finn just had to mess with his heart again.
He still loved him. He would always love Finn Hudson; it was almost innate. It just wasn't the passionate, obsessive love he had felt for so long. It was much healthier; it was as strong as a gay guy could love a straight buddy. He was just so damn fond of the boy. It was a powerful feeling, even though it was hard to describe, to label it. And it's just so easy to be mad at someone when you love them so much.
"Can we talk?" Finn asked.
"Didn't do us much good yesterday, did it?" Kurt replied matter-of-factly.
"I know, but…"
"No, Finn. I know what you have to say, and I don't want to hear it."
"Okay…" Finn said; the awkwardness was palpable between them.
Finn put his bowl and spoon in the dishwasher.
"I'm going to play basket-ball with Mike and Matt…"
"It's a free country."
Looking downright miserable, Finn grabbed his ball and walked to the door. "Have a good day, Kurt…" he said in a tiny voice.
"You too, Finn." Kurt answered, still unconcerned.
After the taller boy left, Kurt sat on the couch in the living room and let out a big sigh. He didn't like being mean to Finn.
About an hour later, as Kurt was watching a rerun of America's Next Top Model, he heard the doorbell. He went to open the door, and was surprised to see who the visitor was.
"Rachel Berry."
The girl had a timid smile. "Hello, Kurt."
"Finn isn't here. He's…"
"…playing basket-ball with the boys. I know. I came here to see you."
Kurt raised an eyebrow. "What could possibly be the reason?"
"Let me in and I'll tell you."
Rachel was probably the last person on Earth Kurt felt like talking to at that moment, but he was rather intrigued as to what she had to say, so he let her in. He sat in his father's big lazy-boy and crossed his legs, his hands on his lap. She sat on the couch, straight as an arrow. He looked at her intently, waiting for her to start talking.
"Finn told me that you are dating Jesse."
Kurt rolled his eyes. "Why am I not surprised… You're here to tell me to stay away from him, that he's trouble, blah blah blah… Am I right?"
"Actually, no. I rather think that you should go for it."
Kurt's eyes widened. This was the last thing he had expected to hear from her. "I beg your pardon?"
"I know you may be surprised to hear this from me, but I really think Jesse could be very good for you. When I learned that he was gay, well… let's just say that a lot of puzzle pieces fell into place. I should have seen this much sooner. I grew up with two gay dads, I'm very disappointed with myself for not connecting the dots. His demeanor, his looks… it's just so obvious now. For my defense, I was mesmerized by his leading man charm, and thus blind to his homosexuality. But it's now crystal clear: he is gay. So I'm happy for you, Kurt. You deserve it."
"Why, thank you, but how is it possible for you to say that? Jesse was horrible to you. He made you look like a fool."
"Don't get me wrong; I will hate Jesse St. James for the rest of my life. But he is not a bad person. Despite his proud and confident attitude, he is quite susceptible to peer pressure. He's too eager to impress. That may be why he's such a good performer."
"That reminds me of someone…" Kurt said with a lop-sided smile.
Rachel smiled back. "I am the same, I know. That's probably why we looked so good together, the leading man and the young ingénue. Jesse is a good catch, Kurt. Just… make sure he deserves your trust."
"Is that the only reason you came to see me, to give me your blessing? Not that I actually need it…"
"Of course not. I wanted to talk to you about Finn."
Kurt frowned. "What about him?"
"As the captain of New Directions, it is my duty to make sure that all of our members get as much rest as they can this summer in order to come back to glee practice in September with high spirits. And this tension between you and Finn is putting your morale in jeopardy."
"What are you talking about?" Kurt sighed.
"Finn is sad, Kurt. I know he does not approve of your relationship with Jesse, but give him a break… He is only trying to look out for you."
"How do you know that?"
"He talks about you a lot, you know… Just because he's not gay and doesn't care about you that way does not mean he doesn't care about you at all, Kurt. It's quite the contrary; he really values your friendship, he looks up to you…which is kind of ironic, since he's so tall."
"It's getting him down that much that I'm mad at him?" Kurt asked, still incredulous.
"Oh yes. He called me yesterday evening and told me about your fight. He sounded very depressed."
Kurt suddenly felt very bad for the way he had treated Finn. He was still mad at Finn's blatant ways of showing his disapproval of Kurt's relationship with Jesse, but he hadn't needed to be so harsh. He had to find a way to make things right… and he suddenly had an idea.
"Thank you, Rachel, for your surprisingly helpful insights. Now if you'll excuse me, I have some things to do."
"No problem, Kurt. I'm always glad to help my fellow glee clubbers."
Finn came back half an hour later, his t-shirt stained with sweat.
"I got your text message… Is everything okay?" Finn asked cautiously when he saw the other boy in the living room.
Kurt smiled, and Finn seemed to relax a bit. "Yes. Sit down."
Finn obliged, and Kurt took a deep breath. "Things have been awkward between us lately, and it saddens me very much. This is why I've had the idea of hosting a barbecue party for the whole glee club here. We could organize it together."
Finn's face instantly lit up. "That's a terrific idea! But… do you really think it's the best way for us to get past our problems? I think if we just sit down and talk…"
Kurt instantly raised a hand to stop him. "No. I told you. I know what you think of my relationship with Jesse, and I am not interested in hearing your input on the matter yet again."
Finn looked unsure. "Uhm… okay…"
"You'll be in charge of buying the food, okay? Burger buns, meat, sausages… tofu ones for me, please…"
"I know what we have to buy for a barbecue, Kurt."
"Of course. I'm sorry. I'll take care of calling everybody. We'll do it this Saturday, is that okay with you?"
"Yeah, it's fine."
The taller boy looked nowhere as excited as he first had. But it was a good idea, Kurt kept repeating himself. A friendly get-together would be an excellent occasion for Finn to see just how perfect Kurt and Jesse were as a couple. Because the star of Vocal Adrenaline was invited to the party, it goes without saying.
"I have something to ask you."
Kurt and Jesse were lying in each other's arms on the taller boy's bed after a heavy make out session. The moment was ideal to tell Jesse about the upcoming barbecue party. Finn had to accept their relationship eventually, and anyway, what would be the point in throwing a party if his boyfriend couldn't even attend?
"What is it, love?" Jesse asked.
"I'm having a barbecue party at my house on Saturday, and I would like you to come."
Jesse's body tensed a bit. "I don't think this is such a good idea."
Kurt leaned up on his elbow. "Why?"
"Well, for starters, Finn will be there, won't he? He doesn't scare me one bit, and nothing he could ever say would keep me from being with you, but your relationship with him is already sore, so do you really want to fan the flames?"
"He needs to accept it, Jesse. He needs to accept us."
"Maybe. But then there's Rachel; she's Finn's girlfriend now, so she will surely be at the party, and there will be some drama if we meet again.
"But I don't give a damn about Rachel Berry! If she dares to say anything to you, there will be hell to pay."
Jesse caressed his boyfriend's cheek. "Is it really that important to you?"
"Yes. It is."
"Then I'll be there. For you." Jesse said before kissing Kurt's forehead.
Kurt was in a party supplies store with Mercedes. He knew he should have gone there with Finn, as a part of their party planning, but he couldn't miss the chance of telling Mercedes about the rather strange and unexpected conversation he had shared with Rachel.
He was going all out with this party: balloons, crepe paper chains and even a piñata. It was all impossibly corny, but he was sure it was the kind of traditional party Finn would love. Nothing too sophisticated, nice and traditional, just like him. The better his mood, the more likely he would accept Kurt and Jesse as a couple. The young man's arms were full of stuff as he recounted the whole conversation to his best friend.
"Finn really likes you that much?" she asked.
"Apparently, yes. But Rachel might be exaggerating; you know how she is…"
"It's not surprising coming from the glee club's golden boy, but this, added to the fact that he's so mad that you're seeing Jesse…"
Mercedes paused, and Kurt looked at her with curiosity. "…yes?"
"Well, if I didn't know better, I'd say that the boy's jealous."
Kurt rolled his eyes. That was Mercedes' conclusion to Finn's behavior? That he was jealous? That was utterly impossible. …Or was it?
"Oh, come on, as if! Finn is not jealous! He's not gay! He has already made it very clear, and he's in a relationship with Rachel."
"Maybe La Berry turned him gay? She's crazy enough for that!"
They both laughed as they walked to the cash register to pay for the party supplies.
"Maybe he just really likes you, and he doesn't want you to get hurt." Mercedes suggested.
"That doesn't explain why he's so persistent! Every time the topic is on the table, he has to make a scene. He almost punched Jesse after our first date."
"I know, but it's Finn we're talking about. He and Puck wanted to break Jesse's legs after he threw eggs at Rachel with the rest of his bunch."
"Yes, Rachel, not me! Our relationship has always been very one-sided, and I'm not even talking about the crush I had on him. I love him, but I've never really felt any reciprocity."
"That proves my point, then. Rachel turned him gay, and now he wants your gay ass."
They had arrived at the cash register, and the employee gave them a weird look upon hearing Mercedes' last sentence. Kurt gave him an awkward smile. He paid for the supplies and they left the store, greeted outside by the hot July sun.
"Anyway, thank God you'll be at the party. I will really need your support if all hell breaks loose."
"Are you kidding me? I wouldn't miss that drama for the whole world!"
Kurt laughed. "Oh, fruit fly of mine, have I ever told you how much I love you?"
"No, but it's nice to hear it."
"Wanna go for a swim in my pool?"
"Oh, hell yes. It's like an oven out here!"
They linked their arms and skipped to Kurt's Navigator.
