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The next day was a little colder than yesterday. The air was even cold inside the house.

Canada and Ukraine sat near the fireplace wrapped in blankets. Canada was pretty quiet, especially after what happened yesterday. Ukraine on the other hand wanted to get Canada to talk to her so she always tried to come up with something to say. Maybe she could cheer him up.

"He kissed you?"

"Yes… It's strange though…"

"Why?"

"I always thought he loved England, but, he said he… loved me…"

Ukraine scooted closer to Canada and placed her hand on his shoulder.

"Well" She said "What does your heart say about him?"

"…" Canada knee his heart was saying no, but why? Someone finally admitted they loved him and he doesn't even want to give it a chance.

Ukraine decided to change the subject but before she could speak, Russia entered the house and walked by the room.

"Oh! Hello brother" Ukraine said somewhat cheerfully.

Russia just looked at her before turning his attention to Canada. Canada stared back at Russia. They hadn't talked to each other since yesterday. Every time Canada would try to start a conversation with him, he'd ignore him.

Russia simply walked away up to his room. Canada only watched as he felt his fears grow. Why was Russia mad at him?

Ukraine felt uncomfortable watching this tension between the two grow stronger. She tried to help get Canada's mind off it.

"W-Why don't we make chocolate chip cookies, ok?"

Canada didn't want to do anything right now, but he also didn't want to be rude so he agreed with a smile.

They both entered the kitchen and got their ingredients.

:::

Russia stayed in his room with Lithuania. He needed the company and Lithuania was always there for him when he needed it. It's not like he had a choice though.

"Lithuania…"

"Yes sir?"

"I feel a much stronger pain inside me now"

"I… uh… think it's because you're…" Lithuania stopped himself realizing if he said this it would surely make Russia even more upset than he already is.

"Da? Go on"

"U-uh, Y-You're… jealous…"

Russia looked over at Lithuania smiling, an evil aura surrounding him which made Lithuania fear for his life.

"I-It's a natural emotion sir! There's nothing wrong with it!"

"Are you sure I'm jealous? How can that be?"

"Y-Yes, maybe it's because America kissed Canada"

Of course Russia told Lithuania what he'd seen, he needed to tell someone and Liuthuania would always keep his secrets.

"Ah… I'll go see Canada, but I'm still mad at him"

"I don't think it was his-" before he could finish Russia closed the door, "…fault"

Russia made his way downstairs. He looked in the living room, no one was there.

"Ah? Where did they go?" he asked himself.

Then, he heard laughing and giggling in the kitchen, so he checked in there.

Canada had flour all over him and Ukraine the same. They both looked as if they were having a good time. Russia watched as Canada took off his glasses . The glasses left an outline of skin which, looked pretty funny. It made Ukraine point and laugh at Canada.

"Ok!" Ukraine said trying to catch her breath from laughing so much, "How are the cookies?"

"They seem ok" Canada tasted the cookie dough, "Perfect"

Once Canada and Ukraine had finished making the cookie dough balls and placed them in the oven, Canada spotted Russia standing at the doorway, watching them.

"Why are you making a mess in my kitchen?" Russia asked.

"Oh, brother! Don't worry about it, we'll clean up once we're done, right Matvey?"

"…U-um… r-right"

Canada didn't take his eyes off Russia. He wanted to talk to him again, but he knew Russia was stubborn.

"Russia?"

Russia just ignored Canada and walked away. Canada felt as if a weight had been set on his shoulders, he didn't know how to make Russia listen to him.

"Matvey?" Ukraine said.

"Eh?"

"Are you ok?"

"o-oh, yes, I'm fine"

Ukraine checked up on the cookies, then looked back at Canada while starting to clean up, Canada helped.

"Well, cheer up Canada, after all, You should be excited!"

"Eh? Why?"

"The Christmas festival is in two days"

That's right, the festival that meant so much for everyone. Canada wanted to spend it with someone special didn't he? Now that he knew America loves him, maybe he could, but will that make him happy? Why? Why wasn't the very thought of actually spending Christmas with someone who loved him, joyful? Happy? Great? ...Ok? None of these sounded right. Every time he thought about spending the rest of his life with America, he felt as if he was held down by chains keeping him away from what might actually make him happy.

Maybe something didn't want him to love or be loved.

:::

Canada sat alone on the couch that night, thinking to himself. Why won't Russia talk to me?

He tried to piece this puzzle together, but there was a piece missing. Maybe he could see if Russia could tell him, this time.

Canada headed upstairs to Russia's room. When he entered he found Russia sitting by himself drinking vodka.

"R-Russia!" Canada panicked hurrying to Russia. He sat in front of him and took the bottle away.

"Ah? Give me back my vodka, Matvey" Russia ordered angrily.

"You already had two whole bottles of this stuff, this is unhealthy"

"You don't know me that well, Matvey. I can handle more than just two"

Canada set the bottle down beside him. A smile formed on his face. Russia stared a little confused.

"I got you to talk to me" Canada said relief in his voice.

"…You did" Silence… "But that's because you cheated"

Russia stood up and walked away from Canada heading for the door. Canada immediately got up and followed after him.

"Russia, I fail to see how that's cheating!"

"It was cheating, that's that"

Russia marched downstairs with Canada still following behind him.

"Please just stop walking away from me! Why do you hate me all of a sudden?"

Russia said nothing.

"Why are you torturing me like this?" Canada shouted.

"This is not torture" Russia turned to face Canada wearing a menacing irritated expression, "If you want to see real torture, then I can easily tie you to a tree and burn you alive"

Canada's fear grew a little more, but he tried to swallow his fear and continue to gain Russia's friendship again.

"Just, let me try to make it up to you, whatever I did wrong let me fix it, please!"

"Why!"

"Because I WANT to talk to you!"

Silence filled the room. All that was heard was Canada's panting. Russia watched surprised at Canada's reaction. He thought he was always soft and quiet, shy… but, he could yell pretty loud for a quiet one. Canada could get pretty mad with a passion if he wanted to. Russia liked this side, it was interesting.

Russia smiled; he reached his hand out to Canada's face and wiped a tear away. Canada didn't realize he was crying until then. He quickly turned around and began wiping the never ending stream of tears that ran down his cheeks. This whole month had been one embarrassing scene after another. He showed nothing too secret to anyone, not even his own brother, but to Russia, He had shown his anger, his tears… his self. Canada blushed as he reminded himself of this.

Then, he felt Russia's hand spin him around. He looked up at him eyes more watery than before. He immediately looked away not wanting Russia to see anymore of his tears. Russia placed his hands on Canada's face forcing him to look up at him, but Canada kept his eyes shut, quietly sobbing.

"Matvey, you can open your eyes to me"

Canada did open his eyes for him, he was curious why he did, but he did. To Canada Russia looked so sweet, like a mother at that moment.

"Don't cry Matvey, I didn't know just talking to me was so important to you"

Canada could've pouted right there, but he was too embarrassed and upset to make any other face expressions at him. He sniffed and gasped a couple times before walking closer to Russia and wrapping his arms around him. Russia blushed staring at Canada. He wrapped his arms around Canada holding him softly. The soft hug tightened though, Canada didn't mind.

"…Russia" Canada said.

"Da?"

"Why are you mad at me?"

Russia let go of Canada. He only smiled childishly at him. Canada waited for an answer.

"Can I have one of those cookies you made?"

Canada sighed, knowing he wasn't going to get an answer out of him.

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