2. What to Do?
I thought a moment as panic flowed through my body. What if...? I couldn't finish. I loved my family. Maybe I should just turn myself in without getting them killed. This would be the second time they'd do that for me.
"No, Nessie. You are just like your mother, exactly." he said. I forgot a moment about that. I would just have to keep my thoughts secret until I decided. It would have to be a last minute decision. "Ness you are not going."
"Edward, what is she thinking?" my mom asked, annoyed that she didn't know. I sighed. He looked at me. Please don't tell her. I don't want her to be upset. My eyes were blue with sadness. "Ness, why are you sad?"
"It's nothing, love." he sighed reluctantly. "She just doesn't want any of our lives in danger like before." He frowned, still staring at me. My eyes were now chocolate brown, my original eye color.
"Is it just Jane?" Esme asked in her motherly voice. Dad shook his head but Alice spoke.
"It is Jane, Alec, Felix, and Demetri. 'Just in case'." she was still staring into space, her eyes glazed over, seeing what we couldn't. I thought a moment. I couldn't outrun Demetri, he'd track me down and there was no way I could leave Jacob. I loved him too much. My family would be devastated. I couldn't but I had to, I would not just get my family killed because of me. I couldn't think of this now. Just then the phone rang and Emmett answered, quickly of course.
"Ness it's for you." he held out the phone to me. Was it Jake? I really didn't want to talk to anyone else but him right now. I walked, slowly, over to grab the phone.
"Hello?...what's up?" I sighed, listening to Lexie on the other line. "let me ask my parents, okay?" I paused looking at daddy and he nodded, quickly telling mom that I was going to the mall with some friends. "Yeah I can go. Who else is going? All of us?" I paused. "alright see you in an hour." I sighed again and hung up.
"Hey everyone." Jacob said walking through the door. I smiled and ran to him, kissing his cheeks and lips. "Hiya Ness." he chuckled then looked back at my mom and dad. This was new to us so we kept checking my parents to make sure I wasn't going over board. It was difficult because we were like brother and sister, then best friends, and now we were dating. Jake said imprinting was like that, but it seemed weird. I loved him, still, and that wouldn't change.
"You want to go to the mall with me? I mean it must sound boring but its not. And, we might see a movie after." I asked him. "I'm going with a bunch of friends and it won't be the same without you." I looked in Jake's eyes, my eyes now purple. I was content.
"Sure, sure. When?" he looked upset.
"In an hour? If that's alright." I frowned too, looking away from him and looking at the ground.
"That's fine, I'll just tell Sam." he smiled at me, lifting my chin to see into my eyes. I smiled. He stepped outside and phased into a wolf. He came back in a few seconds later, smiling. He hugged me from behind. "So what's new?" he asked. I frowned at my dad. Don't tell him either. Please, daddy. He frowned too and shook his head, his face strained. Mom noticed, of course.
"What is she thinking, Edward?" he looked at her. Jacob looked at them then at me, worried.
"She thinks this is all her fault. She just wants to go to the Volturi and die without getting us into any trouble with them." Jacob stepped away from me, trembling, horror on his face. I looked at dad with a bewildered look on my face, eyes turned red then blue. I buried my face in my palms.
"You-" I cut off, crying. I looked up at him confused. "You betrayed me, daddy." my eyes still blue, red tracing the inside. He crossed the floor over to me, putting one hand on Jacob first then hugging me.
"Who'd have known you'd grow to be so much like your mother?" he whispered, chuckling in my ear. I folded my arms, stubbornly. They chuckled at me. This was not my usual behavior, we all knew that. Maybe because I was afraid, afraid of the Volturi. I stopped and put on a happy face. I went to hug Jake but he held out his arm, stopping me, and stepped back. I looked at him, confused. "Give him time to calm down, Ness." I rolled my eyes and hugged Jake tightly. He relaxed and so did I.
"We'd better get ready to go." I told Jake, looking up at him. He smiled down at me, almost amused. "why you laughing?" he shrugged.
"You're just so short, like your mom." he said, looking at her, all remembering something I wasn't alive to remember. He nudged me as I stared out into space, wondering what had gone on before me. "Let's go, Nesserz. I'm driving, of course." he looked at my father. He nodded and I grabbed Jake's hand while walking to the car. My dad was lending Jake the Volvo for tonight because he knew this was my favorite car (besides Alice's Porsche). Jacob opened the passenger door for me and then he got in the driver's side.
"We're going to Port Angeles, okay?" I smiled, adoringly, at Jake. I felt stupid as I stared into to his lovely dark brown eyes. He made me feel so... so... happy all the time and safe. He nodded and started to drive off at a fast speed. It was pretty quiet for most of the ride. And, at first, I forgot why.
"You really think any of us are in danger, Ness?" he asked, frowning. I thought a moment, though I really didn't need to. I bit my lip as I debated whether to tell him what I was thinking or not. Of course everyone is in danger! I wanted to say. Not just me either. It's the whole family. The whole population of Forks, Washington. I looked at him, my eyes a milky gold color, as i bit my lip more. He stopped the car and kissed me deeply. I closed my eyes, never wanting it to end, but I laughed at myself, making him pull away. "What's so funny?" he asked, curious.
"Nothing I was just laughing at myself." I told him, biting my lip, hoping he'd kiss me again. He had jumbled up my thoughts before and I wanted him to do it again, I was starting to think about the Volturi.
"Will you tell me what you were thinking before we get out?" I looked out the window and saw that we were already at the mall and my friends were inside... out of the rain. I shook my head, no. "Later?" he asked, a puppy-dog face forming. I frowned.
"Sure, sure. Later-" I thought a second. "Later, only if you kiss me again, like that." he shrugged and leaned in to kiss me again.
We entered the mall, hand-in-hand. I saw Lexie and Carina's eyes pop open, their mouths forming into huge O's. I laughed out loud when I reached them, they looked at me questioningly.
"Lexie, Carina, this is Jacob. My best friend ever since I was born!" they nodded silently at the truth. I looked around. "Where's Nick and Justin and Codie?" They kept their eyes on Jake. Lexie smiled slightly.
"They're coming, they went to the food court, uh, let's go find them." she started walking in the direction of the food court. We followed, looking at Jake every few seconds, I started to feel nervous. Nick had always had a crush on me since I met him. Now, I was going out with Jake after I told him I didn't know if my parents had allowed it yet. Jake, of course, was walking so close to me I couldn't see to the left of me. We reached the food court and I spotted Nick right away, thanks to his bright smile and glowing eyes. Then I saw her. She was wearing normal, human, clothes. Her eyes bright red, her hair blond, a baby face, forever 13. Jane. I froze where I stood, unable to speak, Jacob clenched my hand with worry.
"What's the matter, Ness?" he asked as quietly as possible. "I smell vampire." he hissed under his breath. His body started to tremble.
"Jake not here. Not in public." I whispered back, trying to control the stress, and started walking again. He sighed reluctantly and followed, Lexie and Carina hadn't noticed anything. I smiled halfheartedly at them as they quickly walked to Nick, Justin, and Codie. Jane stared at me from across the room, I shivered. Jake followed my gaze and trembled once, but controlled the other shakes. Nick looked curiously at the two of us.
"You know her?" he asked, gesturing towards Jane. I nodded a stiff nod. "Cool, I was talking to her before and I think I like her." he smiled. That was good in the sense that he didn't like me anymore, but still it hurt to think that he was in love with a killer, the thing that wanted to kill me.
"Y-you..." I didn't finish. Too afraid she'd hear me. Too late. She was quickly moving towards us, smiling an evil smirk at Jake and I. A tear fell from my eye. Jake looked at me knowingly while the others stared with questions in their eyes. I shook my head and wiped the tear away.
"Renesmee!" she called, her evil smile still in place, her red eyes piercing at me. I looked away. "How's Edward and Bella? Aro wanted me to check the family, see how everyone's doing." I nodded indirectly.
"They are all great, thank you." I said formally, not meeting her gaze. "How are you?"
"We are all great. Were you planning to visit us any time soon?" she asked curiously. I shrugged.
"I was thinking about it, but dad said not to, he doesn't want me traveling yet." I smiled slightly and squeezed Jake's hand. Jane nodded, preoccupied by Nick, tugging at her sleeve. "Uhm, Jake and I will be right back." I told the others, hyperventilating.
I walked with Jacob to the far side of the mall, near the stores my friends couldn't afford. I rolled my eyes mentally.
"Nessie. We have to get you home." Jake said in a stiff, hard voice, his face a mask. He tried calming the trembles that rolled through him. I hugged him tightly, also trying to calm him down.
"Jakey, we can't. I need to protect my friends-" he cut me off quickly.
"Yeah? And, I need to protect you." I sighed against his body. How the hell did he expect to survive in this world if he kept risking his life for mine?
A/n: Sorry the chapters are so short. it's because there's not a lot of action and i kind of have writer's block. :P ugh. so please Read and Review for tips... thanks for reading, i love y'all!