Day 8

Pink and I have been chatting a lot through e-mail, exchanging gaming tips and ideas.... but as of late, she's been telling me about some troubles at her school. Her last e-mail about it read:

Matt,

Things are getting really bad at school now. Viral X is a Kira follower and he heard me saying 'Kira should be punished for his actions'. He's been harassing me about it saying that I'm Anti-Kira and I'm really scared... I'm afraid that he might kill me...

Oh, I told her that Matt was my nickname so she calls me that all the time. But that's beside the point. She asked me to be her bodyguard whenever she leaves school and is at the Golden Saucer. I agreed without hesitation. She shouldn't have to be afraid for her life like that.... That's my life.

I went to her school this afternoon and she was outside before the bell rang, looking really nervous. She ran over to me and hugged my arm. She looked as if she had been crying a little. I wrapped an arm around her and walked her to the train station. On the way there, Pink told me that she had skipped all the classes she has with Viral X because she was afraid that if the teacher left the room, he might try to hurt her. She was trembling a little and I could tell that she was going to cry again. So I did what I felt was the right thing to do.

I hugged her. I held her close and didn't let her go. I could feel her hugging me back and tears wetting my shoulder. Quick flashbacks to the few times I held Mel whenever he cried (mostly after we learned about L's death and the times he just felt like it) back at Wammy's flooded my head... but they were replaced by Pink.

"I promise you, Pink... I'll protect you forever..." was all I told her. Only after I said that did I feel like a hypocrite and a liar...

The case wasn't over; Kira was still on the loose; I could serious die finishing the case.... I shouldn't have made that promise to her, but I wanted to comfort her. After a while of standing there in my arms, she pulled away and wiped her eyes, smiling.

"Thank you, Matt. I feel so safe when I'm with you," she said. She wiped my face and I realized that I had shed a single tear.

What's happening to me? Whenever I'm not hanging out with Pink, she's on my mind and when I'm close to her, my heart is racing and my stomach feels like it's in knots. I can't be in love with her.... right? I mean, the case is the most important thing right now... even if it's cold.

I can't think. I need some fresh air.

Signing off,

Matt

P.S.

After getting to the station, Pink kissed my cheek. I started blushing and my heart began to race again. If I am in love... which I'm not.... this is a very dangerous game to play.