3. Love and Hate
I quickly looked around the area that we stood. Red eyes peircing through the trees of the forest. I stood by Jake, squeezing his hand in comfort, ready to attack at a moment's notice. As we waited my memories slipped from me to him. He was masked, ready, waiting.
I sat up quickly, wide awake. I didn't remember anything from the night before or last night. I remember seeing Jane the night before at the mall, but that was it. I undressed and redressed in a hurry, eager to see Jake, see what he remembered. I felt oddly sick with fear as I came closer to my parents. I think they knew, and that's why their eyes were cautious, watching me as I paced around the kitchen. They, nor did I, want any trouble from Jane or the rest of the Volturi. I just wanted life to go on as normal. God wouldn't allow that, though, if I even believed in Him. Things happen for a reason... I was told. And what was the reason for this? Because we were too happy? That we needed more sadness in our life, more horror?
As I stood there, thinking about what would happen to my family and I, I couldn't help but notice that Jacob was not outside our cabin waiting for me. I heard the heartbeats of elk, wildcats, and other wild-life, but I did not hear the beat of the giant wolf peoples' hearts.
"Don't worry, Ness, he'll be here soon." My father told me, comfortingly. I just nodded slightly and started pacing again. My mother opened the door before the person on the other side had a chance to knock. It was Jake, I quickly ran to him and jumped into his arms. I kissed his russet cheek, probably a thousand times before I got out of his arms and grabbed his big, giant hand. We walked to the main house, slowly as he stared into my eyes. I touched his face with the palm of my hand, showing him, asking him, what happened at the mall, how come I don't remember it?
"Well, Ness, you kinda passed out after she said that they'll be visiting. We've been searching for their scents but haven't found anything new, that's why I was late today."
"Okay, Jake. Just be careful." I told him quietly as we reached the main house and went inside. Rosalie ran to me, hugging me tightly.
"I will." Jake said, letting go of my hand and going to sit on the off-white loveseat.
I watched him as Rosalie fixed my hair and make-up. Ever since I stole the make-up they had Rosalie do it. I also watched Alice dance like a ballerina while decorating the house for my "Sweet Sixteen" tomorrow. I was careful with my thoughts around my dad. When he left to get food for the wolf people that were over, I thought more and more about going to the Volturi instead of risking everyone elses life. When daddy came back I was closer to my mom and her sheild. I watched my family... the wolf people eating... Would I be able to save them and myself? I thought to myself.
Jake pulled me onto his lap as I stared into space, but once he kissed me I forgot about my worries... Maybe if I stay with Jake more often, then I will forget more, and not worry so much. I thought. And tomorrow is such a "big" day for me! I am sure I'll forget. I don't want to ruin anyone's day. I put on a smile for the rest of the day but I felt my eyes go orange, I was lying, to myself, to my love, to my family. I thought of happy thoughts, like someday marrying Jake. I smiled big as I watched daddy's face turn to mock horror, then he laughed. Jake looked at us funny and I laughed too. I winked at my dad and he smiled in response. This was our secret. I was truly a "Daddy's Girl," I guess, but he loved it.
"What's so funny?" he said, feeling left out. I touched his cheek and showed a picture of me "falling" and I laughed, though this was not what my dad had seen before.
"Oh," he laughed. "Clutz!" he kissed me deeply for a moment, I felt like electric wires were running through my veins. I suddenly held his face to mine, never wanting him to stop. My dad cleared his throat though, and, even though I was growing up, I'd always be his "little girl." I would just have to wait. I made a face and let go of Jake, blushing as I seen everyone's face. From shock to disappointment. Rosalie was smiling proudly. I had no clue why.
"Jake?" I asked when I caught my breathing.
"Yes, Nesserz?" his voice ruff, I smiled.
"Can we take a walk on La Push beach, today? I mean I have been wanting to go again but..." I cut off, feeling stupid. I wanted to cliff dive and ride motorcycles like my mom had. But, I don't think Jacob would allow that, nor my dad for that matter. I looked over but he was gone and so was mom.
"Sure, sure." He smiled and grabbed my hand. "Did you want to walk there?" I nodded. More time with him, Yay! I laughed internally at myself. I felt like a firework, coming alive, when I looked into his eyes. I felt beautiful.
"What shall we do when we get their?" I asked, hoping to hear his voice. I loved hearing it, it was so pretty. Though that was an understatement.
"Anything you want, Nessie, honey." I smiled and showed him cliff diving and motorcycles.
"Well, I'll have to rebuild your mother's for you but it shouldn't take long... Maybe a week or so? I'd love it if you'd come over more often." He winked. "But, we could go cliff diving today." I smiled big and mentally screamed. I couldn't believe he was letting me do this! Yay! I laughed out loud and Jake looked at me then kissed me again. His hand held my face and my arms tightened around his neck.
"I love you." I whispered.
"I love you, too, Renesmee." he whispered into my ear.
As we climbed the cliffs quickly, Jake kept checking to see if I was afraid of jumping off the top cliff. I wasn't.
"Ladies first." he gestured when we reached the top. I looked down the edge. It didn't seem that high, but what did I know? Jake was more alert than ever now. He grabbed my arm tightly.
"Jake? What's the matter?" I tried getting out of his grasp. I backed up off the edge of the cliff, closing my eyes, making sure I don't scream, or drown. I heard the water splash after I hit the water. I held my breath and closed my eyes. I felt Jake's heartbeat as he brought me to shore. I was extremely tired after that but Jake was still alert. "Jake? "
"A vampire is here. Jane?" My thoughts spiraled out of control. Was I dreaming or was this real? My chest grew tighter, and, though I was half vampire, I felt like crying.