GAH! Idea block! This'll be a short one!
I closed my eyes.
I seemed to do that a lot when I needed to think, or when I was just plain tired of life. And for once this time, I wasn't thinking about Xavier.
I was thinking about Amanda.
I remembered how Amanda and I used to be such great friends. I remembered how every week, twice a week, we'd always play at each other's houses. I remember the smile on my face as I stared into the eyes of my best friend. We'd always do everything together. We were always in the same classroom every year, we liked the same things, we were the perfect couple of best friends.
Then came Naomi.
I remember that day. It was best and the worst day of my life all at the same time. It was that day, that changed my life forever. And thinking about it now, I only think about the path I chose that day. I can only remember that if I'd adjusted one, tiny thing that day, my life would be completely different.
It was a beautiful Friday afternoon. Amanda and I were about to start middle school together. This was the first year we were in different classes, so we thought it would be devastating. We also knew that there was a new girl in my class, Naomi.
Amanda and I were playing in the schoolyard while our parents were inside the school registering us for the year. We were on the blacktop playing some sort of hand game we invented that summer. I remember she stood up to get her bag, which was on the table behind us. And that's where it all went downhill.
It was supposed to be a joke, and I knew that. I didn't blame her for it one bit. We both stood up. She crept behind me and table-topped me. After that, everything went black. And when I woke up, she and a different girl loomed over my bed, my dad in the doorway.
And that girl was none other than Naomi.
They told me what happened. That, after I blacked out, Naomi and her mom were walking out of the school after registering her. Naomi saw me unconscious and ran to my rescue. Her mom got our parents and they carried me home.
I could still feel the huge headache I had that day. But I could also feel Amanda's apologetic face and Naomi's warm smile. I could read worry across my dad's face and I could feel the tension in the room that was so tight and packed in that I had to open a window. Which, Naomi so kindly did for me.
But it was after that day that my life was changed. And I couldn't decide whether it was for the better or not, until I met Xavier. But now I'm having second thoughts about that.
If, that day, I had chosen to stay home instead of hang out with Amanda in the schoolyard, I would probably be hanging out with her posse still. I would probably not even know who Naomi was. And I would, most likely, have not even given so much as the time of day to Xavier.
But that's just it. I did hang out with Amanda that day. And I did get table-topped. And I did this, and I did that, and I don't know if they were mistakes or if they were just…just fate telling me what should and shouldn't happen.
Was it my choice to start hanging out with Naomi along with Amanda? Yes.
Was it their choice that they hated each other for it? Yes.
Were those my eyes that were so oblivious to see the feud between the two teens I called my "friends"? Yes.
Was it all supposed to happen?
I just don't know.
But after a while, Amanda got sick of it and just tossed me out like I was dirt. And it was then when I determined I belonged with Naomi and Miyuki and Andre and all of them. But after Xavier and Damon and Damen came to our school, I just didn't know what was going on. I didn't know who I was anymore.
Was I Trinity, the one who loved to be different and express herself in colours that defied the rainbow? Or was I Trinity, the one who loved Xavier?
I know one thing's certain, and that's that I'm me. And that's one thing not even a person like Xavier could take away from me. Nor Naomi, nor Amanda, nor anyone else who lived the colours of that rainbow.
And that's just it. I'm me.
I'm the Trinity that doesn't have a clue who she is and needs help, but pushes everybody away when they offer. I'm the Trinity who ignores her emotions and moves on in life as if it didn't exist.
And little did I know, that these emotions came with a price.
It's short. But it's sincere.
Aw! This chapter really came from the heart. I got the idea from it when my friends table-topped me after school once. Thank god it was in the grass.
Another thing about this chapter:
TADAAA! This is what happens when I watch too much Evagelion. It poisons my mind and this stuff comes out. I mean seriously, every five minutes it's, "THIS PLACE SMELLS LIKE BLOOD!" for Shinji.
Okay, sorry for that NGEva reference.
ANYWAY! Please leave nice reviews so we can get closer towards the end and I freak out because I have no idea what'll happen in the triquel!
XXXXOOOO,
~Nikki-sama
(PS: LOL! I even named this chapter in reference to Neon Genesis Evangelion! I'm such a fangirl! ^^)