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Chapter 4: Awakening
Kakashi woke up and saw a light. I must be dead, he thought. It was his fault Iruka was dead. It was only fair that he was dead, too. He had killed so many Shinobi and wondered whether there was an extra place for those people in afterlife. He heard a voice "Kakashi, are you awake", This voice belonged to…Tsunade? He wasn't dead. He tried to open his eyes. It was really hard but it worked and once Kakashi had opened his eyes he saw himself lying in a bed in the hospital. Tsunades face right over his. "So you're awake", she said. Kakashi didn't want to listen to her. He had to fight with himself before talking to Tsunade. He was OK with all the blood on his hand from the many Shinobi he had killed in his life, but now even Iruka. Iruka. . Irukas smile, his cute blushing. He'd never be able to see that again. If Iruka hadn't died he could have seen it again and again . It mattered to him, yes after all Iruka HAD been precious to him. He wanted to be left alone, he didn't want to see Sakuras smile, when she put a bunch of flowered next to his bed. He felt like never smiling again. But just like all the other times he hid his pain behind a masc of neglect.
A certain sentence of Tsunade made him come back into reality again, away from his dark thoughts. "By the way , Kakashi , Iruka asked whether you were ok." All right. He WAS in afterlife. He WAS dead. He had to be. Otherwise Iruka woulnd't have been able to ask for him. But if he wasn't dead, that meant that Iruka wasn't dead either. That meant Iruka lived. He WAS ALIFE. Kakashis heart began to bump in his chest and suddenly there was hope in him again. "Iruka..ins't dead?", he asked carefully. Tsunade shook her head. " He wasn't in a very good condition when he was brought here, but he's fine now. But YOU , you have given up nearly every bit of Chakra in your body to stabalize him." Tsunade sounded reproachful. "You've fallen into a choma and I wasn't shure, whether you'd awake at all. By the way, Iruka already told me all about what happened on your mission, well at least to the point when he fsinted. I expect your report in three days, 'till then, RECOVER!", it sounded like an order. Kakashi felt relieved. "Can I see Iruka now?" he demanded. "Yes , in comparison to you, he's able to walk at least", Tsunade said and a few minutes later Iruka was standing in the room. He looked very pale, but smiled when he saw that Kakashi was awake. Kakashi felt so relieved he sank back into the pillow. "Pakkun saved us." Iruka said instead of a greeting. "He sat on a chair next to Kakashis bed. The athmosphere was very uneasy with Sakura and Tsunade still in the room starring at them. "Could we both have a little talk under four eyes", Iruka asked politely and Kakashi thanked him for it. Tsunade and Sakura left ad closed the door behind them. "Pakkun saw me getting hit by the Kunai and took off to the village to get help.", Iruka added. "Well", Kakashi sighed a bit," I guess I godda thank him for it, then". The atmosphere was still quite uneasy and Iruka seemed like he wanted to say something, but was unsure whether he should do it or not. Iruka , who had looked on his hands all the time suddenly raised his had. "Why didn't you save me from the Kunai?". Of all the questions Iruka could have asked this was the worst one . "And who was this woman? What did she mean by you seducing me?" And Kakashi began to explain. How he and Niku had been a couple a long time ago, when Kakashi was a teen. She had caught him once kissing another boy in his flat. That was when Kakashi had his coming out and told her about him being gay and all. Niku wouldn't accept it. She tried to kill Kakashi for leaving her one day. Of course she was thrown out of the village and she never came back again. That day she came back to get revenge on Kakashi and Iruka was just pulled into it.
"And about this whole seducing thing", Kakashi added, "Well she must've thought that we were in love with each other." He looked at Iruka whose face had turned deeply red. Kakashi had missed it so much. But then he looked at Kakashi earnestly again. "So why could'nt you save me, then. You could have dodged the Kunai. ", Kakashi sighed , took a deep breath and decided that it was best to tell Iruka the whole truth. "Well then I wouldn't have been able to kill her and get the information from her…and that was our mission. " A long silence,"Oh", Iruka just said. "I….I thought you were different Kakashi." Iruka looked hurt. "I thought you were a great Shinobi, but now I think of you as something worse than trash. You know I just thought I..you and me…we…I don't know what I thought." He got up and wanted to leave, but Kakashi grabbed his hand and pulled him to his bed. " I know this was wrong and Iruka I promise with my life…it will never happen again. As long as I live." The hurt look in Irukas eyes softened a bit, but it was still far from vanishing. "Iruka, do you know why Niku wanted to hurt you? She said she could see that you were precious to me…please don't leave now. You can think of me as the worst Shinobi ever for abandoning you when you needed me the most, but please don't leave right now." Iruka looked surprised."Why not? Why shouldn't I leave you now. You didn't help me, too when I most needed it. " , Kakashi looked deep into Irukas chocolate brown eyes." Because I need you, Iruka. I pomise it will never happen again." Iruka looked into Kakashis lazy, honest gaze. He heard his appealing voice. He needed him, too. But still what if Kakashi left him alone again. He couldn't trust him. "I'm sorry", Iruka muttered when he wanted to leave the room, but Kakashi pulled on his hand and pulled the Chuunin close to him. He pulled Irukas face to his and suddenly Iruka felt soft hot lips on his. A shock went like Shwooosh trough his body . This was the best thing he had ever done. Kakashis lips were smooth and he could smell him. Kakashis smell was the best smell in the whole world and it made his heart pound like a hammer. "More", Iruka moaned into the kiss. His hand grabbed into the Jounins hair, when Kakashis hands explored Irukas back and went under his shirt. The young man moaned and pressed himself even harder against the elder man. They let go of each other and Iruka felt his cheeks getting hot. Kakashis just did his awesome Kakashi smile and said:"You sure, you don't want to stay a little longer?", Iruka blushed even deeper. "Eeerm…well..I..I'm sorry but I have to go..to do some work..errm…" and he ran out of the room as fast as he could.