Edit: Just added Tweek's sounds to make Tweek more Tweek-y.
Creek (CraigxTweek) [Cromas (CraigxThomas), TweekOC]
The lie is a condition of life. - Friedrich Nietzsche
i.
Tweek quietly mumbles to himself when Craig decides to ask his question.
Why doesn't it bother you that Clyde is gay? He almost winces because that came out as bastard-like as he thought.
Tweek shrugs, though it's half lost in his twitches and says, Jesus-I just don't see the big deal, in that fast Tweek kind of way. It's awful how people-ngh-have to force people not to like others because they think it's wrong. And then added a gah, as if as an afterthought.
Craig blinks because that sounds so horribly misplaced from the blonde's mouth but still so horribly-Tweek. You've been watching Ellen, haven't you?
Tweek smiles a small, quirky smile that doesn't stay really long and says in an almost-murmur, I'm bi-ngh-if that helps. He turns his jagged eyes to him. Do you like anyone?
Craig shrugs almost nonchalantly. He ignores the voice saying that if Tweek knows he's bi, then that means he's liked people, and if he likes guys, then that means Craig might have a chance with him.
ii.
Grk-maybe you should go out with him.
Tweek smiles that small, quirky grin again and Craig knows it's because he wants the noirette to be happy, and his happiness, in Tweek's mind, is standing not too far away from him in plaid shirts and khaki pants.
Tweek knows he's homosexual—it sounds completely wrong in his mind, but then again, gay sounds demeaning—and, just recently, they found out that Thomas likes Craig.
Really, Tweek's just trying to be a good friend. It's not his fault that it had been the wrong paranoid blonde that ended up liking him. Craig's the coward, not him.
He figures he could give it a go, so he does, sorta. He totally asks Thomas in a half-assed way, but Craig figures he's done good when Thomas nearly breaks his neck nodding, and Tweek beams at him when he knows the noirette finally stands a chance in happiness.
Craig almost honestly thinks so, too. But it's still Tweek's face he sees when he turns around and walks home, after setting a date and time and place, alone because Tweek has makeup class, Token is absent, Clyde's already left for the sick friend's house, and he's a pussy to ask Thomas to walk home with him.
And it's still coffee and almonds, not strawberry and cinnamon when he closes his eyes.
iii.
It hits hard when, in one of their home dates, Thomas picks Toy Story as the movie to watch while eating leftover popcorn and mousse cake.
Tweek's always loved Disney, especially when they're with Pixar, except Tweek would rather watch Toy Story 2 because he's always adored Jessie.
It doesn't matter though, because whatever it is, Tweek is always there in his and Thomas' dates and that's not right at all. Craig is not as big of a bastard as people credit him for.
Thomas shifts closer to him and Craig's arm is automatically around his body. It satisfies the Tucker that its Thomas that pops in his mind when he does so.
It's just that, when the movie ended, Craig had the inclination to tell his boyfriend that they should watch Toy Story 2. But he stops himself anyway.
iv.
Craig swears that something (everything) breaks in him when he enters the Tweaks' coffee shop and, when Tweek's taking his order, a pretty brunette latches herself on Tweek's back and Tweek laughs after screaming bloody murder.
He realizes how pretty she really is when she introduces herself. She has dark auburn hair and pale grey eyes with a name like Ian. When Craig raises his brow, Ian says her real name is Lillian but she doesn't want to be called Lily and it suddenly strikes Craig that this girl is wonderful for Tweek.
She sits down beside him when Tweek—proudly, Craig notes with half delight and half discontent—announces that Craig was his best friend.
They talk and Craig is unnerved on how easy it is to be with her, but he doesn't want to hate her at the same time.
He finds out that his suspicions were correct and that Tweek and Ian had just hooked up not too long ago. Tweek said that he was going to tell them, it just so happened that Craig found out earlier than the supposed confession.
Whatever broke in Craig broke even more.
And it didn't help that Ian loved holding Tweek's hand and Tweek didn't mind intertwining their fingers and Craig felt both happy and hurt.
And then Craig asks for a macchiato because he's feeling for something strong but still sweet and Craig doesn't say much between the conversations.
v.
This is the first time they do this, the both of them, so it's naturally clumsy and painful and altogether weird but they both honestly enjoy it—to some extent.
Being around strong Catholics (Clyde's mom for one, the Marshes, Token, Butters, and Tweek—who's really the most fervent, in totally awkward but totally wonderful honesty, because it just really somehow fits the whole perfection Craig sees the blonde as), Craig's always figured he'd rather have sex after marriage, but he doesn't really care, as long as he does it with someone he truly cares about.
And he does. Cares about Thomas, he means. So he doesn't really regret doing it with him—or at all, really.
But when they're done, Craig can't find it in himself to sleep and he watches the blonde sleep.
He still wishes that it's dull-but still bright lemon hair peeking from under the sheets instead of deep ochre hair and loud snores and strained mumblings instead of hushed snores and deep breaths.
He still doesn't regret it. But he hates himself because he'd rather be in his best friend's couch right now.
vi.
It's horribly ironic when it's Thomas who goes up to him.
He says he can't do this anymore, and he really just wants Craig to be happy (Now, why does that sound so painfully familiar?) and he knows he can't be if he keeps the noirette with him.
Craig is affected, really, honestly affected. Because he hadn't been lying when he said he cared for Thomas, and Thomas had been his only stable pillar because Tweek and Ian are so so so happy and now that pillar is gone.
Thomas says it hurts him, too, to be with Craig, because he knows there's nothing he can do, and Craig knows Thomas wants to be the stronger man, and he is, because Craig will never be strong. And that's a good enough consolation.
When he watches the blonde leave, Craig feels hurt, and he doesn't want to be alone when he is, as much as no one will ever know, so he calls Tweek and he swears his voice doesn't break when he says, Thomas broke up with me.
vii.
They're in Tweek's house watching a movie—this time it's Toy Story 2, the right movie—while eating grilled cheese sandwiches and throwing each other butter popcorn.
It honestly feels good when Tweek's spewing dangers about their game even if his spaz doesn't bother stopping himself from throwing the kernel (the popcorn was running out) or laughing his eyes out.
Craig feels better now, because Tweek promised he could stay the night because he knew that Craig needed someone right now. Tweek already has that extra mattress reserved just for Craig upstairs with exactly three pillows and one thick blanket and one thin sheet.
He's sure this is where he should be (as awfully cliché as that sounds) and even if his breakup with Thomas still hurts somewhere, he doesn't really mind it as long as that means he can be with Tweek.
And then Tweek smiles at him with a small, quirky grin and maybe people weren't as stupid for saying that love is the best thing in the world.
And then when he sleeps, the last thing he sees hears feels thinks is Tweek and he knows he'll be the first in the morning, too.
But when he wakes up, he hears Tweek on the phone talking to Ian, and something in him breaks again.
(But he still smiles when Tweek calls him up for breakfast with egg and sardines.)
Aww, Craig's so pathetic, isn't he? Yes, he is. Pfft, if he just said something, it would've saved him loads of shit and pain. But then, you know, people, right? Ehh. I just realized this isn't exactly a drabble. Oh well 8D
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