I fell asleep and woke up with tears in my eyes, but I wiped them away as I got ready for school. I took a shower and as I brushed my teeth, I noticed that I was still wearing our friendship necklace. For a moment, I simply looked at it in the mirror as I scrubbed my teeth with the toothbrush. I gripped the toothbrush between my teeth and reached around my neck to find the clasp. I undid it and placed it in the small basket that sat on my bathroom counter.
I finished getting ready and replaced the gold necklace with a silver sparrow one. Slowly, I made my way downstairs and walked right past the dining room where I could hear Gabriel talking to Dad about something. It didn't matter what it was, it was of no concern to me. I picked up my backpack from by the door and made my way outside.
It was a nice day and the sun was shining. I wanted to just stay here and lie in the grass and not have to worry about anything. The driver called to me that it was time to go and as I rushed over to the limo, I checked my phone merely out of habit. I half-expected to see a missed call or a text from Amaya, but I guess that was too hopeful. The screen only showed the time and date along with a picture of a monkey from the zoo yesterday. I climbed into the limo and sat in the silence all the way to school. . The screen only showed the time and date along with a picture of a monkey from the zoo yesterday. I climbed into the limo and sat in the silence all the way to school. There sure has been a lot of silence… it used to be that there was never enough.
The huge school even seemed different to me today. I stepped out of the limo and directly to my right, I saw Amaya do the same. I quickly debated in my head whether or not I should saw something. I could apologize and then have my best friend back or I could just ignore her and be driven crazy by the silence. But even if I apologize, it wouldn't be the same… neither of us had been very nice to each other.
I hadn't realized we were staring at each other until Kyoya stepped up beside her. He gave me a courteous smile and I couldn't bring myself to give any kind of acknowledgement. I turned away from them and practically jogged into the building until I got to my class.
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Amaya smiled at Kyoya spotting Kiyomi, she didn't even have a chance to say anything to the male. She simply shot him an apologetic look before dashing after her best friend. She had screwed up, and dammit if she was going to let her pride keep her from her best friend. "KIYOMI!" she shouted down the hall, thankful Kiyomi had turned to look at her, and not caring about any of the other stares.
She crashed into her friend wrapping her arms around the girl tightly "I'm sorry:" She babbled as tears fell down her cheeks. "I didn't mean to snap at you!" She sobbed softly ignoring the strange looks. "I feel horrible. I was overreacting last night. I just got so upset thinking that you didn't trust me. I thought.." Amaya paused as she realized Kiyomi was standing stiffly.
"Kiyomi?" Amaya asked stepping back, her hand going to her friendship necklace for strength. She had found that morning and put it back on. "When I woke up this morning and you weren't there I realized I almost lost my best friend over my own stupid self-worth issues. Kiyomi please forgive. I don't know what I'd do without you. Kiyomi…" Amaya begged softly still crying.
"It was all my fault, Please Kiyomi find it in your heat to forgive me. Please, I don't want to loose you. I'm so sorry" Amaya murmured, knowing that forgiveness wasn't likely. She had lost it last night, botching at Kiyomi to make up for her flaws. She hadn't wanted to admit that maybe she had messed up this time in her planning. That maybe she wasn't as good of a friend as she thought.
And now, standing here in the crowded hallway she realized just how bad of a friend she was. She had been selfish dragging Kiyomi to the host club, she shouldn't have just assumed. It was no wonder Kiyomi didn't trust her, she didn't deserve to be trusted. She always acted before she thought, and if Kiyomi had been hurt, Amaya would have never forgiven herself. She had no right to be crying either. She shut her eyes tightly, trying to stop the tears that wouldn't stop coming.
She couldn't believe she had blown up on her friend last night. Damn her own stupid little insecurities, they were nothing compared to what Kiyomi's mother put her through. And now after acting like such a bitch last night she begging for something she didn't deserve.
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Amaya squeezed her eyes shut and I watched in silence as she seemed to be having some sort of inner conflict. I wanted to say something to her, tell her that I forgave her and that I shouldn't have started it. I couldn't though. As much as I wanted to completely forgive her, I know that when people are upset and yell at each other, a lot of things that come out are one hundred percent true. Obviously we both have issues and pent up feelings that may burst again.
"Amaya," I said. She opened her eyes and looked at me. I offered her a smile and took her hand. "I want to say it's okay and that we can forget all that, but we both know that's not possible." Her eyes still shone with the tears that were building up to fall again. When the tears did start again, I wiped them away as best I could.
"We'll have to work on this," I told her. "And I do trust you, you aren't the reason I've kept some things from you. And don't let yourself ever think that." She sniffled and nodded. I pulled her into a hug and she wrapped her arms around me. "And don't apologize for yelling, I should have just gone to sleep."
"But I know that you had to ask, it does seem like something I would do. I'm really sorry, Kiyomi."
I shook my head. "It doesn't and I don't know why I accused you. I wasn't thinking straight I guess. I'm sorry Amaya. I still love you, you know." She nodded just as the bell to get to class rang. We said our good-byes and went our separate ways. I walked into class and went straight to my desk, ignoring the strange looks from Tamaki and Kyoya.
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Amaya sat in class and actually paid attention to the teacher for once, to block out the strange looks from others. This was probably what doomed the two girls. If they had been paying attention in class they may have seen the females plotting minds and evil glares. But as it was they were too preoccupied with thoughts of themselves and each other. As the bell for lunch rang Amaya walked quietly with Hikaru and Kaoru to go find Kiyomi, hugging her friend when she saw her.
"It really wasn't you Kiyomi. I honestly didn't mean any of the things I said" Amaya started again, burying her head in Kiyomi's shoulder as Kiyomi returned the head.
"We'll work on it" Kiyomi promised with a slight smile that made Amaya's heart ache.
"Okay" Amaya agreed, allowing the twins to take her place after one last hug, leaning into Kyoya's comforting embrace as they walked toward the host room to eat lunch.
"Work on what?" Hikaru asked Kiyomi as he kissed her gently.
"We can help" Kaoru added before he too kissed her in greeting.
Amaya smiled slightly, starting to doubt pairing the two together. She was starting to doubt everything that had happened since her brilliant scheme. She merely shook her head as Kyoya whispered in her ear "Care to explain?"
"It's nothing" Amaya muttered, she saw Kyoya roll his eyes and smiled briefly at him in reassuring, but she still wasn't half as confident as she had been the other day. Maybe the whole thing truly was a mistake. She hadn't mean for either her or Kiyomi to actually date any of the club members. She had merely hoped that Hikaru and Kaoru who also seemed to have trust issues, may have warmed up to Kiyomi, and Kiyomi would have warmed up to them, making it possible for both of them to trust just a little easier.
Kyoya hadn't even been a spec on her neat and tidy plan sheet locked up in her mind. And now everything was a mess.
"Actually, if you two really want to help, you could teach me geography," I suggested while holding up my book trying to make it look appealing.
"How do you not know geography?" Hikaru asked. I put the book on the table and leaned my forehead on it.
"I don't pay attention in there. It's boring and I kind of have a short attention span and it's a lot of memorization and I have the memory of a fish," I explained. "Amaya, help me!"
"You do not have the memory of a fish, theirs are roughly seven seconds," she said from behind me.
"Oh God, it's worse!" I turned my head so I was looking at her. "I know that's not what you meant. Okay, Amaya, take a seat and I will tell you something I was hiding." She hesitantly sat in the chair directly to my left and I looked at her. "I'm actually failing geography… and history… and German. Also, I'm trying to hide that from Mom and Dad, especially Mom." Amaya wrapped her arm around my shoulders and gave me a sort of half hug since that was the best that could be done with the way we were sitting.
"Unfortunately, I can't help with German or history. Geography however, I'm your girl." I smiled and laughed. "We will keep your mother off your back."
"I can help you with history," Haruhi said. "It's my favorite class." I thanked her and then there was a silence.
"Oh no! I don't know anybody that takes German! I'm dead for sure!" Amaya gave me a strange look, but also had a smile.
"Did you basically just say that you are in a German class all alone?" Okay, that had been stupid of me. "And Kyoya knows German, I'm sure he would be more than happy to help." I glanced at him and he didn't look happy at all to be honest.
"Please Kyoya? I'll do anything you want if you help me!"
Kyoya rolled his eyes slightly at the girl, walking up behind Amaya and placing his hands on her shoulders. "Anything?" Kyoya asked raising his eyebrows at her, and making Amaya look at him questioningly.
"Yes!" Kiyomi said happily, making him smirk.
"Convince Amaya to be my maid" He said with a light chuckle at the shocked looks from the twins, not mention Tamaki, Haruhi, and Amaya herself.
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"Trying to fulfill some hidden fantasy?" I asked more serious than I let my voice lead on.
"You did say you'd do anything," he said simply. "Or would you rather I not help you?"
"But that wasn't a "no"… And I figured it would be something easier, at least possible! Wait, why do you even need another maid?"
He smirked at me and I sighed. He wasn't going to tell me why, probably because I wasn't too far off with the fantasy. "Why, is not important. What is, is that you said you'd do it. Didn't you say not breaking a promise is what makes you, you?"
I looked at Amaya and took her face in my hands; much like Kirara had done to me at the park; and pulled her until we were only about two inches apart. "Kiyomi, kissing me, will not make me say yes."
"Damn, it seemed like such a good idea too," I said with a laugh. "Please Amaya! It's not like I'm selling you off to some stranger."
She put her hands on my cheeks and looked me square in the eye. I was waiting impatiently for her to answer me. "No, I'll try my hardest to teach you German instead."
"But then I'd be doing worse! Amaya, I have to pass. Please?" She shook her head. "For me?" She shook her head again. I had to come up with a different strategy. I let go of her face and covered mine as I pretended to cry. "Amaya, think of what my mom did last time I failed a class. I don't want that to happen again."
"Fine, I'll do it," she grumbled. I lifted my head up and hugged her.
"Ich liebe dich!" Then I looked up at Kyoya. "Also, that is about all the German I really know." He pinched the bridge of his nose and closed his eyes.
"How is that all you know? You've been in the same German class as I have been in since before middle school." He opened his eyes when I started to laugh.
"I know, I was just kidding… but not by much. Now, all of you except Kyoya need to teach me because I have a history and a geography test right after lunch." I opened up my book and Haruhi and Amaya gave me matching looks of exasperation. "Didn't I mention that?" They shook their heads. "Sorry… by the way guys, I have a test in geography and history today! I'm so excited, now we get to study," I said with fake enthusiasm. They laughed at me, but helped me all through lunch anyway.
After school, I was so excited that I ran to the 1-A class, telling Tamaki and Kyoya to go on ahead without me to the club room. Hikaru, Kaoru, Haruhi, and Amaya were all still in there and I let out a small squeal when I realized that. I ran to Kaoru and hugged him as I handed Amaya the two pieces of paper that were in my hands.
"Well this is a surprise," Kaoru said into my ear. Amaya let out a louder squeal of excitement than I had when I read those papers.
"You passed both!" She said as she pulled me from Kaoru's arms to hug me herself.
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"See what a little studying can do?" Amaya asked as she let her friend go smiling as they walked up to the host club.
"But, but, but! It's soooo hard!" Kiyomi complained.
Hikaru and Kaoru chuckled lightly as Amaya rolled eyes entering, the host club.
"So what was that all about Kiyomi?" Tamaki asked.
"I PASSED!" Kiyomi shouted happily.
"Now all you need to do is pass German… And if you don't Kiyomi, I will personally hurt you" Amaya added rolling her eyes as Kiyomi smirked at her.
"No… I think you'll secretly thank me for the chance to be Kyoya's maid" Kiyomi smirked wiggling her eyebrows teasingly, making Amaya roll her eyes.
However, Amaya was blushing slightly as she turned away from Kiyomi, pretending to be angry.
"I know you better than that Amaya…" Kiyomi scolded as she walked around her friend to catch the girl's blush. "AH HA! Just remember no sex" Kiyomi sing-songed.
"Key-oh-me!" Amaya whined, shoving her friend and ducking her head. "I won't do it if you keep those comments up" She added narrowing her eyes.
"Okay okay I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" Kiyomi said waving her hands in front of her face.
"Good." Amaya said firmly, laughing slightly as Kyoya walked over.
"Ladies, the club is about to start" He warned teasingly.
"So Kyoya, really why do you want me to be your maid? I know as much about cleaning as a dog does" The girl added.
"She does, have you seen her closet?" Kiyomi asked smirking.
Amaya shoved Kiyomi before Kyoya smirked at the girls "Who said anything about cleaning?" He asked, making Kiyomi's mouth twitch and Amaya roll her eyes.
"Jerk" Amaya muttered under her breath, laughing softly as the guests walked in and the girls and the club all did their things.
Hi there! I did so enjoy writing this chapter! I did cry as the girls apologized though. anyway I have a favor to ask of you all. Do you think Amaya was to whiney and all about her? Hm? 'Cause I kinda did Iand I wrote it so ^^. OH! And one more thing, if you cried can you let us know...Because I want to know if i'm just a wimp.
Adiosu~Meghan