When I fall
Chapter 7
By Iana
Author's notes:
Anyone still following this? =)
I really hope so!
Sorry about the delay everyone, I had a busy, busy month.
This chapter is filled with angst and has a nice little cliffhanger that I hope doesn't get you mad at me. =)
Thanks once again for all the amazing reviews!
#BONES#
"How could I just let you walk away, just let you leave without a trace?
When I stand here taking every breath with you…
You're the only one who really knew me at all…
How can you just walk away from me, when all I can do is watch you leave?
'Cause we shared the laughter and the pain and even shared the tears.
You're the only one, who really knew me at all. "
#BONES#
1 month before – April 10th, 2011
The nurse placed the little bundle on Bones' arms, a sympathetic expression on her face. Later, Brennan wouldn't be able to tell if the woman was black or white, old or young, tall or short or if it was a woman after all.
Her whole universe had just collapsed on itself and her world was back upside down. It centered on the immobile infant nestled inside the pink blanket she had chosen so carefully just the week before. It centered on the terrible immobility and the way she longed to nurse the tiny life that would never do so.
Tears fell from her face and dropped slowly on the pink blanket.
She had her tiny eyes closed and Brennan ran a finger over her features, tracing the face she'd never see again. She'd never know if she'd have her striking blue eyes or Booth's baby browns. She'd never know what color her hair would become or if she'd resemble her father or her mother.
Brennan counted tiny fingers and toes and tried to come to grasp as to why everyone in her life seemed to leave her.
The scene was so intense; the nurse left almost in tears herself.
For the whole night, Brennan held her baby girl and memorized her tiny face. She took a picture, because her baby would never be forgotten.
And when the nurse came to take the infant away, Brennan had to be sedated. She screamed and yelled and held the tiny body close to her aching breasts. When the prick of the needle finally made her release the precious bundle, she called for Booth.
He never came.
#BONES#
Present day
Booth was a mess. After Brennan had been sedated, he talked to Dr. Hawthorne who actually said they were making some progress. Oh, well, what kind of progress was that? His face stung and after taking a good look in the rearview mirror, he found out why; as three gashes marred his left cheek. She had actually drawn blood. But he wasn't going to complain about it because the physical pain he felt was nothing compared to the emotional pain she was in.
Between Angela and him, they had managed to contact Sweets, Clark, Cam and even Zack to explain the situation. Cowardly, he had left before any of them arrived, saying he'd be back in a couple of hours. For the first time is his life since he was a little boy Boot felt he didn't know what to do, which path to take.
His love for Temperance was very much present now and it was something he couldn't ignore anymore. Damnit! He should've never agreed to Hannah's request. He should have realized Bones would come to her senses. She was always slow to deal with her emotions.
His temples throbbed from a tension headache and he drove home as fast as he could, not wanting to leave Bones alone at the hospital for too long. Dreading his meeting with Hannah, he entered the apartment and sure enough she was sitting on the couch, an angry expression on her face.
"Seeley, do you KNOW what time it is? I've called your cell phone a thousand times! I called your office, your boss and…"
"Shut up."
Hannah blinked.
"What?"
"I said shut up. Please stop talking for just a second." Booth said and dropped on the couch, head on his hands. He couldn't deny that he and Hannah would never work out; specially now with the sudden turn of events. And suddenly he felt bone tired over the terrible waste of time that was all this pretending, this trying to get over Brennan; this hurting several people in the process. But of all of them, she was the one who got the worst of the pain. Because of his stupidity and his inability to see that she just needed a little more time to see how amazing they could be together.
The thought that Brennan and him could be together now, waiting anxiously for the birth of their baby kept running through his mind almost making him crazy with guilt and despair. With a growl, he fisted both hands on his hair and pulled, out of frustration.
"Seeley, what the hell is going on?"
He raised his aching eyes to see a very pissed off Hannah in front of him, hands on her hips. Looking at her, he wondered how the hell he could've possibly thought this woman would make him happy from 30, 40 years.
"Hannah, we need to talk."
After that it got pretty nasty.
To his credit, he tried to be nice about it, despite the invisible nails being hammered on his skull through his eyeballs. He explained to her that he had tried but he was still in love with Brennan, he explained about the baby and about Brennan's attempted suicide.
She had became quite insane after that, something about not letting him just dismiss her and the time she had invested in their relationship. He turned towards the bathroom, muttering something about taking a shower and going back to the hospital when she stopped him dead on his tracks with a single sentence.
#BONES#