Yes! It is me, so please don't turn off your CD players or walkmans. You are honestly hearing me, Mickie James. Now, if you are listening, I am here to tell you about my life, as I had mentioned seconds before, and mostly why my life came to an end, and if you are listening, YOU are one of the reasons why.

What? No? Are you serious?

Im not going to tell you which CD your name comes up on, as I do not want you to skip to that CD and be done with. So bear with me people. Don't worry though, your name does come up… I promise. For some of you, it may even come up more than once. Why would I lie? After everything that has happened in my life, why would I lie?

Now, I only ask of all of you this… listen to all the CD's and please don't skip any, as you will most likely miss out the importance of what may have brought you into all of this, and second, once you have finished all the CD's please send them to the person that is after your specific CD and please do not send it to anyone that doesn't have a CD revolved around them. That's not much is it? But I do have to say, if you fail to do so, I have a second copy of CDs. Yes, its true, I made a second copy, and someone has it. Also the last person these CDs get sent to, can GO TO HELL!

Am I last? Why now Mickie? What are you trying to do? Why did you record a bunch of CD's?

I need to stop this before anyone hears. I need to grab my walkman and go somewhere. I quickly hit the stop button before scrambling up all the CD's and placing them into a bag. I need to get out of the house for a while. I grab my walkman from off my bed, as I am about to stop, I find a piece of paper sticking out of the envelope that had contained the CD's I am listening to. I quickly grab it, and shove it in my pocket before departing out the door. I had a feeling that this was going to be important.

"Where are you going Randy?" My mother hollered after me as I walked out the door.

"Justins" I half lie "He wants me there to help with his project"

"What time will you be back?" She asked. Her voice, there is something different about it. Its as if she knows, once again, I am lying, she just doesn't want to show it.

"I don't know" I say "But I will call you ok Mum"

"I love you son" She said, before departing into the kitchen once again.

"I love you too mum" I whispered before making my way out of the door and onto the footpath. I then placed the headphones over my ears and continued to listen to the voice I have become accustomed to miss.

I then hit play.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you all. If you are on my list, you should have gotten a map. On this map will be the co-ordinates of all the places you should visit, that will hopefully bring back memories of why you play a particular part in this CD.

I felt my jean pocket, the piece of paper that was folded up must have been the map she is talking about. I didn't bother too look on the map until it was brought up further on in the tape, that is if it was brought up.

I remember Mickie James so well, as if today at school was the last time I saw her. She had long brunette hair the flowed down to the mid of her back. She had chocolate brown eyes, and if you looked real closely, you could swear she had a sparkle in them. She wasn't the tallest girl around, she stood about 5ft4 but she had an amazing body. I first saw her when I started high school 4 years ago. I was on my last year this year, and she would have been too.. If she didn't….if she didn't… I cant even bring myself to say it.

On the CD's I will mention where all of the paces are on your map. I have marked them with co-ordinates and if you would like a little more insight, I suggest you go there. But that's your choice, if you don't.. well, I'll never know will I?

Or maybe I will, who knows, I could be standing behind you right now.. Right? Well, I don't know, because I don't know how this whole dead thing works.

I feel myself wander over to a tree in the park down the road from my house, I sit down with my back facing the tree, and I lean on it. Running my hands down my face, all I can wonder is Why? Why do I have these tapes? Did I do something to Mickie James that made her want to kill herself? After all, she did mention that everyone on these CD's had caused her to… well… you know. But what? What did I do?

Well, that was a bit wrong in me saying that. I heard her sigh

Well, Mr Ziggler… are you ready?

Ziggler? As in Dolph Ziggler? Her first kiss Dolph Ziggler?

Dolph, baby, you were my first kiss. You were that person that I thought I was going to be with forever. You were like my prince. You and me met through my friend Amy Dumas, or as she liked to be called Lita.

Don't worry people, Lita isn't on one of these CD's, she doesn't deserve to be.

Me and Amy were best friends, and I was studying at her house once, when you came along and knocked on her door. Her parents were out and it was only me and her in there. Amy was busy, so I answered it, do you remember that Dolph? Because I sure do. I noticed your smile straight away.

I felt my stomach clench up. Its not that I didn't like Dolph, its just… well… he has never truly respected woman.

We got to talking, and then Amy came down, wondering what was going on and who was at the door. I remember that day so clearly, because it may have seemed like meeting you would have been the best night in my life? And believe me, at the time, it did feel that way. But that was the day my life would take a turn for the worst.

I will never forget the day I met you Dolph Ziggler. Because at the time, I thought I was blinded by love, when truth was, I was blinded by the thought of love.

I heaved myself up from the sitting position under the tree, and continued walking. I turned left on Justins street and kept walking until I got to his house. I hit the pause button and took the headphones from my ears. I then placed the walkman in my bag and walked up the driveway. Sure enough, there was Justin fixing his car. I knew that not long after fixing his car, he would fix his motorbike.

"Hey man" I said, as I made my way over to his car "Hows your car holding up after your accident?"

Justin was involved in an accident a couple of months ago. Not a big one where he got injured, but a small one where his car got knocked around a bit.

"Its holding up" He laughed, but his laugh sounded distant, almost as if he knew about the CD's. But he couldn't, could he? I mean he done nothing to Mickie, not that I know of. "How are you Randz?"

It was the first time I really noticed how thick his south African accent was. "Im good" I lied, well, I think it was a lie, because I was good, up until I found the tapes.

"What were you listening to man?" Justin asked, as he wiped his hands with a towel, before leaning against the hood of his car.

"Oh…" I sighed "Nothing.. Just music" another lie.

"Right" he nodded.

Did Justin get these CDs before me?

"Anyway, I better go man. I have to go and study" yet again, I told one more lie.

"Ok then. Have a fun time" he said sarcastically. "See you in a bit"

Justin went back to work on his car, and I continued down the streets.

As soon as I was a fair distance away from the house, I pulled out the walkman, placed the headphones over my ears, and pressed the play button.

I remember I would always have the same dream about you Dolph. Where I would climb ontop of that high platform at the park, and I would then slide down the slide into your arms, and then we would kiss.

I know, stupid dream right. But its true, I did used to dream that, and my dream did come true, you remember that night Dolph? The night you asked me to the park?

The park everyone, C3 on your maps.

I pulled out my map, even though I had a fair idea about which park she was talking about. I noticed all the little red dots on the map, indicating where she wanted us to go I guess. I turned left, the direction of the park. I crossed the road and then stayed on the footpath, keeping my eyes low.

I remember I was so excited, wait, no, Estatic was more like it. I arrived there early, and decided to climb the platform, seeing as, part of me wanted my dream to come true, and part of me wanted to see the view. I must have been up there for 15 minutes before you arrived. You apologized for being late, and asked how long I was waiting there for, but I lied and said only a couple of minutes. It was then you said it, you said what I had always dreamed you'd say. You said "Come down the slide, and I will catch you" it was like my dream come true.

I heard her laugh a bit.

So I did, I went down the slide, and felt the wind in my hair. And sure enough, there you were, you were at the bottom, ready to catch me.

As soon as I got down that slide, you extended your arm, and pulled me to my feet. You then placed a hand on my cheek and gently stroked my face. It was then I realized you were going to kiss me, and I was ready.

I felt my stomach clench once again.

It was my first kiss. You were a good kisser to Dolph, but don't let that get to your head. You were always big headed. From that moment onward, to that night, things went perfectly. So perfectly in fact you even walked me right up to the porch of my house, even though you knew my father and mother would most probably yell at you.

I went to sleep one happy girl. But, well… when I went to school the next day… that's when everything just went down.

I finally reached the park, I looked up and saw the platform that Mickie was describing in the tape, and I slightly smiled to myself. I love it up there, the view is so amazing. But I decided on going up there, as I was nto sure if I was ready to face, what she once loved. If that makes sense.

Well, everyone… I went to school the next day, and I couldn't help but notice something was different. Some of the girls, mainly the popular ones, giving my that look, you know, the look as if you are a tramp. That made me feel more than uncomfortable. Then I noticed some of the guys looking at me differently, I found there eyes drifting from my face, they always seemed to look behind me, at my butt, not only did that make me feel uncomfortable. But it made me angry aswell. I didn't know why this was going on.

I tried to remember that. I tried to think back to that day, when everyone looked at her differently. But I couldn't put my finger on it. I couldn't remember it.

I then found out it was this stupid list that was going around. I found out in my first period English class.

THE LIST! I remember that now! I remember that list, and Mickie, she was number one.

You see, the list came up to me in English, and when I opened it, I saw the title. THE SCHOOLS BEST ASS!

It was then I knew what was going on. At first I looked at the bottom of the list, knowing full well that I wanst on there, not with the looks I was receiving from my so called peers. My eyes then drifted up to the top of the page, and there it was. NUMBER 1! My ass was the best. At first, it didn't faze me, but then I looked to see what was written on the back of the piece of paper. I knew who made the list, and don't worry, he is getting the next CD!

Zack Ryder! He wrote it! I know he did! He didn't mind bloating about it afterwards.

On the back of that paper, in various colors, it had… I tapped that ass last night, and then in brackets it had Dolph Ziggler. Soon enough, I heard the whispers around the classroom. I then looked around the classroom for you Dolph, and I saw you, sitting there with a smug smirk on your face. That was the day my reputation started, a reputation that I didn't deserve. So Dolph, I want to say thank you. If you cant tell, I am being sarcastic!

Thankyou! Ok, so she is being sarcastic, but thank you for what?

Thankyou Dolph, because I know you were the one who told Zack Ryder that I kissed you, and then you elaborated it into more. Thankyou! Thankyou for officially making my life a living hell from that day on! If you wanna know more, which im sure you do.. Just play the next CD.

But Dolph, baby, stick around, because you wouldn't believe where your name comes up next.

I had to fight the urge to punch a wall. I honestly cant believe Dolph would start something like that. I honestly cant! But then again, he does seem like the kind of guy to.

Well, that is the third chapter, second first CD and I hope you liked it. Remember that all of Mickie's talking and whatnot is in italics. I got the idea of doing this from the book 'Thirteen reasons why' written by Jay Asher. You should check it out.

Review please.

xoxo