7. For the Love of God!

EPOV

"But, what are you even doing there? And why do you keep going to all these places and never tell us. We don't even know which part of the world you are in. And to give your security a miss is just plain irresponsible. If it weren't for Jasper-"

"Mother, I already told you. I was in L.A. for a meeting. Would you please ask Jasper not to relay every little thing to you? I'm fine!" I said irately.

"But, I don't know that. I don't know whether you are fine, or with the right people or even eating properly at least," she implored.

"I'm telling you, I'm great. Don't worry about me. Just tell me how you are and all the things that you're doing."

"You would know if you bothered to come home once," she said, coldly.

"Please don't start-"

"Edward, I'm your mother. I think I have the right to see you every few months, in the least."

I sighed. "Yes, you do. I'll… I'll come there. Soon."

"When? Give me a date."

"Soon." I tried to quickly divert the topic asking,"What's Jazz doing?"

"He's gone to France with your father. They should be back within the week. He has been really taking care of all the background work here. He's become a great support system for Carlisle. He's trying to do your part as well."

I could sense the reprimand in her tone. "You're not going to guilt-trip me back home. You know that, right? I'm just happy you're all doing well. Seems nothing much has changed."

She sighed. "Just, try to be here for National Day at least. I know your father would appreciate it very much. Okay?"

"Yeah. Alright, then. I'll call you again soon. Goodbye, mother."

I threw the phone aside and leaned my head back against the couch, spreading my arms across it. Talking to mother these days was like running a marathon. You never knew why you signed up for it in the first place, and were exhausted three seconds into it. She would always insist on going back to Darvour and start working with father. It was just the way things were supposed to be. And in our world, the only decisions one got to make were whether one wanted one's toast buttered or not.

I shook my head. God! I just needed to let off some steam. Get high and wash off all traces of Darvour, off of me.

Sitting at the bar counter, I observed the place. It was noisy all around. Smoke permeated the room, loud voices of leather wearing biker dudes were growing and some cheesy 80's music was playing in the background. Standard-wise it was a very poor bar, but I loved it. It provided a cheap and quick way to get lost in the crowd.

Pulling out a cigarette I was searching my pockets for a lighter, when a chick beside me held out hers. I light my cigarette and nodded my head as a thank you.

"I've seen you here before," she said with a heavy Russian accent.

"Have you now? Nice of you to notice."

"You're hard to miss. Quite the player, you are. Always leaving with different women. I'm Aleksandra, by the way. You can call me Alek."

I laughed. "I'm not sure I would want to call a gorgeous woman like you Alek. Sounds manly don't you think? How about Sandra?"

Smiling seductively she replied, "Whatever turns you on."

I raised my eyes at her and tilted my head. She was good-looking, average by European standards, but still very good. Tall, red hair and pale skin. Not bad at all.

"You want to get out for some fresh air, back there?" She asked jerking head towards the side exit.

"You want to seduce me in an alley?"

"Why not? It's not first time for you. My friend told me you had same fun last week. She was bragging about you, in fact."

"And you want to check up on that?"

"You want detailed discussion or you want sex?"

I thought for a moment. Of course, I went for the latter. We both moved to the alley and she pounced on me. We started kissing and I began to unbutton her dress. Sliding my hands around her waist, I pulled her forward. I could sense something missing. She just didn't feel right in my arms. She unbuckled my belt and flicked my jeans open. But, before she could touch me I pulled away from her and she stared at me in confusion. Shaking my head slightly, I resumed kissing. She put her arms around me and pulled at my hair. Hitching her leg at my side, she again tried to put her hand inside my jeans. Again, I felt something amiss. Forcibly I pulled apart and she wobbled, trying to balance herself.

"What's wrong?"

What's wrong? I knew what was wrong. Somehow, it felt empty when she tried to touch me. Her hands didn't feel right in my hair, and body was too large against me. My body was craving something smaller. Something petite. Something… Bella.

As soon as her name popped into my head, I groaned. Not again! Why was I thinking about her right now? Why did I think about her for the entire last week? Every time I tried to get off with a girl, it felt wrong and dull. I was beginning to compare every one of them with Bella.

"Nothing, nothing's wrong. I'm sorry."

I moved closer to her and began sucking her neck while grabbing her breasts. I needed to get Bella out of my system. She moaned and pushed me against the wall. Dropping to her knees, she put my member in her mouth. She began to suck at it. I gave it a moment, but I could tell it was not going to happen. Even with her mouth on my dick, I couldn't feel anything for this chick.

I pushed at her shoulders slightly and moved out of her reach. I buckled my belt and turned towards her.

"I can't do this."

"What the fuck?"

"I'm sorry."

I turned around and began to walk. What the hell just happened? Did I really turn down a blow-job from a hot girl? This was the limit. What the fuck was wrong with me? And why on earth was I going on about Bella? That chapter was over before it even began. Stupid chick was virgin and I didn't need the emotional baggage that came with fucking her. But wait, she was no ordinary virgin. She was a manipulative one. Why else would she want to sleep with me after being so cold all that time? But, did she ever have a hot body. And the way we made out was out of this world. There was some kind of spark whenever I touched her. Something like electricity or something. I could still feel her tongue on my lips, her hard nipples in my mouth, the way her tight pussy felt under my fingers when she came…..and the sensation of being inside of her… God! It was unlike any other feeling I had ever experienced. I fucking wanted to feel it again. And judging from my apparent hard-on right now, my dick needed to also.

It had been a week since I left Bella's apartment. I couldn't even remember how or why we had started making out. All I knew was that, one minute I was struggling to snatch the coins out of her grasp and the next minute we were going at it.

Shit! The coins. I smacked my forehead. Great, I had left them behind again, I thought running my hands through my hair. Due to the whole Bella fiasco, I had completely forgotten about them. Wait a minute, now I had an excuse to go back. I smiled inwardly at my ingenuity.

I stood beneath Bella's apartment window and saw that the lights were off. Maybe she was out. It was a Saturday night after all. She didn't seem like the typical partying type, but she was at Venom. Hmm… I contemplated waiting for her like the other day, but decided it would type cast me as the proverbial stalker. I was just beginning to think of an alternative when I saw her walking towards me.

Dressed in a ratty t-shirt, with a ponytail and carrying what looked like a grocery bag, she was frowning at the ground and seemed to be lost in thought. Automatically, I smiled at her sight and moved forward to meet her.

"Hello again."

She jerked her head up and started. "You!" she seethed, "What do you want?"

"I'm sorry for my previous abhorrent behavior. I was not in the right frame of mind. I am shameful and assure you it won't happen again. May I take the bag?"

She looked at me with a straight face and asked, "Are you out of your mind?"

"No," I said smiling.

She stared at me for a moment and swept right past me. I followed her to the door. She was struggling to find her keys and I asked, "Maybe I should hold the bag?"

"If you don't leave right now, I'm calling the police."

"It's won't be of much use. I have diplomatic immunity."

"So does that mean you can just barge into people's homes without their permission?"

I pretended to think for a moment and replied smiling, "Pretty much."

She exhaled in frustration and tried to close the door behind her. I stopped it with a hand and followed her up the stairs.

"I don't mean to hound on you, but I just need my coins back. I forgot to collect them that day."

"Well, that's too bad because I threw them out," she replied without turning back.

I laughed. "I know you're angry about what happened. It's nothing personal..." she snorted, "... okay maybe it was personal, but I apologize."

We had reached her apartment and she was still not looking at me. She opened her door and said, "I want you out of my building, off my street and if you ever try to contact me again..."

"I just need my coins and I'll be on my way."

"I threw them out. So there, off you go," she said and slammed the door in my face.

What the hell? "You know I can have your house searched when you're not there. I don't need to be begging you right now. And if I find that you are lying-"

The door swung open swiftly and she stood there enraged. "Who in god's name do you think you are? Just because you're privileged doesn't give you the right to harass other people. It's because of rotten people like you that the world is going to dogs nowadays. You think that the whole universe revolves around you. How dare you threaten me like that?" She took a deep breath and exhaled before continuing, "you know what? I don't want to see you or hear from you again, so here…" She walked to a drawer and pulled out a small package and threw it across the room. "Here are your precious coins. Unlike you, I actually value things, especially other people's. Take them and get lost."

I was stunned. Unable to move, I stared at her. She stood there with her arms folded across her stomach, livid. I slowly bent down to pick up the coins and opened my mouth to say something…anything. But, nothing would fucking come out. I didn't know how to react. I knew whatever she said was correct, and I should probably stay away from her. She stood there waiting for me to leave, but I couldn't just fucking disappear and never see her again.

"I'm sorry," I said.

She rolled her eyes and started to say something when I interrupted. "I'll leave, but just hear me out once. I was just fucking kidding around earlier. I wouldn't have your house searched, obviously. And I'm truly sorry for what happened last week. I… I thought you were trying to manipulate me into having sex with you," she looked furious and opened her mouth, probably to blast at me again, so I continued hurriedly, "of course, now I know it was me who was being a jerk. It's just that this has happened to me many times before, and… knowing that people want you for something else… it's… it's not very comforting. But, whatever the case, you're right. I was an ass."

She stared at me for a moment replied, "Yes, you were."

I nodded, "Completely out of the line."

"Completely," she agreed nodding her head too.

We stared at each other again and I exhaled. "For what it's worth, I really did want to sleep with you that day. In fact, even today." She looked at me in surprise and I realized my brain filter wasn't working. I actually said that aloud. "Shit! I'm sorry. I'm not coming onto you. I didn't mean it that way…I mean I do want to do it with you, but I…" She narrowed her eyes at me. "shit… I did it again didn't I? I don't mean it like that, really. I don't intend to harass you or anything… I just wanted to have sex… god! What am I saying?" I slammed my head and pulled at my hair in confusion. Fucking moron!

She started laughing and I was still flustered. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, calming myself. "What I meant was, I did want to sleep with you that day, and if it weren't for my stupid ego we would have done it. So, I guess, I'm sorry?"

"Yes, you are, aren't you?" she replied, still laughing.

Her nose was a little wrinkled up when she was laughing and a few strands of her hair had come loose from the ponytail. I longed to touch them and put them behind her ear. "God, you're beautiful."

She stopped laughing and looked at me, astonished. "What?"

"You're fucking beautiful." I couldn't hold myself any longer, and I moved to touch her hair. I put the strands behind her ear and caressed her cheek. She was soft… so soft. I traced her lips and she shivered visibly.

Suddenly she seemed to snap out of it and moved a little to the side. "I can't go through this again. Will you just leave?"

"I can't."

She turned to look at me and asked, "What do you mean you can't? I want you to go."

"I can't. I need to feel your lips again. I need to make you shiver with pleasure." I moved in front of her and locked her between myself and the wall. Tracing my nose around the base of her neck I continued, "I need to feel your nipples harden under the attack of my mouth, I need to taste your pussy with my tongue…"

"Edward," she whispered throatily.

"But most importantly, I need to fucking know what it feels like to be inside you again." I bit her neck softly and she cried out in pleasure.

Yanking me by my hair, she pulled my lips to hers. I put my hands behind her back and pulled her towards me. She tasted better than I remembered and I couldn't stop. After a few moments, we both broke apart panting and looked into each others eyes.

"I've been going crazy over the past few days. All I can think about is you… your body against mine." I exhaled. "I'm really sorry for how I treated you last time. You have a complete right to hate me, but I really want to be with you right now."

"You do?" She asked me doubtfully.

"Yes." I decided to show, rather then tell her, how much my body craved hers. Kissing her softly, I lead her to the bedroom.

Once inside, I pulled my t-shirt off and did the same for her. Slowly moving her onto the bed, I climbed in with her. I resumed kissing her and opened her bra. Pulling it off completely, I stared at her breasts. They were the perfect size, with perfect pink nipples. I took one of her nipples in my mouth, while kneading the other one. She twisted her hands in my hair and pulled it. I groaned with pleasure and pulled down her pajamas.

Touching her pussy, I hissed, "God, Bella! You're so wet already."

I couldn't resist any longer. I removed my jeans and boxers and positioned myself at her entrance.

"I know I hurt you last time. I didn't know you were a virgin… and frankly, I've never been with one. But, I promise I'll be gentle. If I hurt you, feel free to throw me off the bed. Okay?"

She smiled softly and nodded.

I pushed inside her and… and, it was heaven. God! She was so fucking tight. I had to use every ounce of my restraint to not keep going and looked to see if she was fine. Bella exhaled loudly before looking into my eyes and nodding. I pressed my forehead to hers and began thrust in an out of her steadily.

I was trying very hard not to be rough with her when, she clutched at my butt and whispered, "More."

More? Oh, baby! I'll give you more. I pulled her legs apart a little wider and thrust harder. The feeling of her tight little warmth encasing me was indescribable. As Bella began to meet my thrusts, I pinched her nipples and went in deeper. Our pelvises were grinding against each other and I was lost in sensations. Soon, I could feel the end coming and when Bella came apart, I could hold out no longer. I pushed in hard one last time before groaning and biting her breast in pleasure.

Panting, we both tried to make sense of ourselves and looked at each other. After a few moments, I pulled out and she groaned.

"I'm sorry, are you hurt?" I asked worried.

She nodded, and hid her face behind her hands. I almost had a heart attack. Shit! What had I done?

"What? I'm so sorry. Bella, please look at me." I tried moving her hands aside, but she wouldn't let me. She was shaking and I assumed she was crying.

"Bella, please, for the love of god. Tell me what happened."

She suddenly burst out laughing and I looked at her in shock.

"God! You should have seen your face."

"You think this is funny?" I was so fucking mad. Was I such a big joke to her?

"I'm sorry, I just wanted to see how you'd react. And that's for dumping me in bed last time," she replied smiling.

See this was why you shouldn't fuck virgins. I'd been told by all my friends. Once you are done fucking them, they start mind-fucking you, clinging on to you, and begin their desperate games. I guessed Bella was different, but of course, she was still a virgin.

She began rubbing a spot on her right breast and said, "Actually well, you did hurt me… not from the… the sex, but you did bite me little hard in the end. That's all."

Crap! "I did?" She nodded. "I'm sorry about that. But, you deserve one more for the scare you just gave me."

I bit a spot on the underside of her breast, and she squealed in laughter.

"Maybe, one more to teach you a good, hard lesson?"

I bit her again and she squealed, "Edward!"

I laughed too, before asking her seriously, "You're okay though right?"

"Yes, Edward," she replied rolling her eyes, "I'm fine. Don't worry. You passed your first virgin test, with flying colors I might add."

I narrowed my eyes and smirked.

I rolled on my back and we were both silent for a moment.

"Edward?"

"Hmm?"

"Why did you run away when you found out I was a virgin?"

I took a moment to decide what to reply. Then I thought, with girls like Bella, it was always better to go with the truth.

"I don't fuck virgins. It's just one of my rules. I already have so much to deal with and I don't need the excess baggage." I looked over to her side to see her reaction.

She nodded thoughtfully and said, "I get that."

There was an awkward moment and I regretted not making up a story. Great! She's going to kick me out now…again. I was contemplating how best to make my exit when she spoke.

"Well, you don't have to worry about that with me. You're free to leave right now or tomorrow morning. It's your call." She said brightly. "I, for one, have work tomorrow so I gotta go to sleep. Goodnight."

She gave me a big smile before turning to the other side and pulling up the covers. I stared at her form for a moment before exhaling in relief. Thank god! My observation was spot on. Bella, even though poor virgin that she was, was different. She didn't seem like the clinging type. I searched the floor for my clothes and put on boxers and jeans. While putting on my t-shirt, I turned towards Bella's sleeping form and contemplated.

Where was I going exactly? To a cheap motel room, alone. I could do that tomorrow morning also. And it had been forever since I had actually slept with someone. Just slept. I stood there for a few moments, thinking. Slowly I removed my jeans and joined her in bed. I pulled the covers, put my hand across her waist and drifted off to sleep.

Author's Note: So December 13th almost turned into February 13th. (Gulp!) I am sooo sorry! The title of this chapter is how I assume most of you were reacting to my broken promise for the next update. Believe me, I was feeling the same frustration while writing this one. I'm sorry I wasn't more regular, but real life and my stubbornness to have a 'perfect' chapter caused this massive delay. My expectation with this chapter was building up with each passing day and finally came to an extent where I wasn't happy with anything I wrote. Then, today I realized that there is no perfect chapter. A chapter is perfect only if you write it with your heart and write whatever 'you' wanted to put across. So, that's what I've decided to do from now on and let go of my obsession with 'perfection.'

To answer your questions, no, I won't be so late with my next updates. The last two months were so difficult coz on top of my exams, I was busy with my college applications for master's. Hopefully, I will be going to London in September :-)

But the most important things I want to tell you guys are - I'm sorry, there won't be any more such delays and please continue your love and support for this story. Kindly… if you are not already snoozing by the end of this A/N, read and review Next chap…BPOV :-)