Hai! Once more I am SO sorry for this being late D:

School takes up most of my time along with facebook, sad really.

Sorry this is so short, I am ridiculous, I know.

Well Enjoy the story

Peace, Love and Owl City.

John is sleeping with one arm is tucked under his head, he looks so peaceful. The look of complete ignorant bliss is what I wish for the most right now. I'm sitting in a chair across from him, just staring trying to sketch him into my mind. Sure I've known this man for such a long time, but now, I know him on a much deeper level. My mind is a whirl of emotions right now. I don't want to leave John behind but if I do, I'll leave a part of myself with him. He's become my entire life. John stirs from the bed causing me jump slightly. His eyes are still closed and I let out a sigh, right now I think I need to be alone. I stand up from the chair and pick up my scattered clothes. Trying so hard not rush and wake up John. I slip my shorts and tee on and walk out of the large bedroom. I walk past mine and Jason's room; I pause in front of the closed door. I press my hand against the cool wooden surface. I don't regret anything. I yank my hand away and quietly walk out the front door, closing it tightly.

I let my feet do the walking, I don't care where I am going right now. The colors of the night blend around me in a blur and finally I find myself at the beach. The sky is a dark blue with stars scattered randomly around. I love Florida. I take a seat on the ground and start to run my hands along the smooth sand. My fingers dig into the cool earth, it's so relaxing. My mind wanders back to Liz, she is my second mom, but not for long. I won't miss her friendship, I'll have John. Jason though, I've known him for so long I don't know how he'll take this. Maybe I should leave tomorrow, could I leave tomorrow? I look at the ocean and deep down I know I can't do that.

Jason and Liz are my family but John, John is so much more then I could ever want. "Fuck!" I hiss out, this is so frustrating.

I stay there longer then I should, I feel the night growing colder or is it just my blood? Finally when I have had my fill of the beach I walk away. I wish I could leave my frustrations behind. Quietly I walk along the streets. The stars are fading away and I feel a dull ache eat at my chest.

I stay out as long as I can try so hard to figure out what I am going to do. I have weighed the options in my mind and as much as I love John I can't fuck up his family. They have been everything in my life, Jason and Liz, John and I will learn to deal. I make my way to the front door. I quickly close the front door and head to mine and Jason's room. John has to be up in an hour, getting into bed could disturb him. I go into the room and lay down, eyes boring into the white ceiling. John can live without my, I repeat in my mind. I can live without him, but as much as my mind says this, my heart screams differently.

I guess I must have fallen asleep cause next thing I know John is shaking me awake. "Why did you sleep in here?" he asks I shrug my shoulders, looking away from his beautiful eyes. "Randy, is there something wrong?" I want to tell him everything is wrong but I keep my mouth shut. I just ignore him as he walks out of the room. Doing that breaks my heart but I gotta start pushing him away.

The morning passes by slowly. Jason and Liz will be gone for another day. I want so badly to walk out of the room and find John. Tell him I am sorry and I love him with everything I am. I shake my head I can't do this.

I muse over the idea of packing everything up and leaving without telling anyone. I didn't bring a lot of clothes, it's Florida, you need shorts and shirts I have plenty. John is somewhere; I heard the front door open and close. He must be out at his store; this could give me plenty of time to run. I quickly get up but memories quickly bombard me. His lips on my neck his hand caressing my skin, I love everything that man does to my body. I sit back down defeated, I do need John. I want him always and forever and, my thoughts are interrupted by the door opening and closing. My heart lunges outta my chest and I run into the living room. Our eyes meet and before he can even question me I am kissing him, hard. My mouth pushes through his lips, our tongues duel. His taste is intoxicating, the smell of smoke and gum. His strong arms warp around my waste, my hands lock between his face as I try to push him deeper into me.

I feel John try to pull away but I don't want him to. I fight hard to keep kissing him but he's much stronger than I. "What is this Randy?" I try not to cry as I begin to talk. "Oh John, I don't like the idea of never having you around me again. I need you you're the one that makes me feel complete inside. You are the one that is my mind before I fall asleep and when I wake up. When I hear your voice my heart skips a beat. John, I love you." I stop and take a deep breathe, John brushes at the few tears that have escaped. "Oh Randy, you know I love you too," He smiles and warps his arms around me again "we'll find a way," I nod my head pressing my body closer to his. "If we can't then we as a couple will tell Jason and Liz."

The thought makes me want to cry, "But John what if they hate us?" He nods his head "that may just happen but its okay." I close my eyes and let the sound of John's heart beat lull me. His chin rests on my shoulder, before I feel his lips press to my neck. I smile and tilt my head giving him more to room. His teeth nip at my skin sending a wave of pleasure down my spine and to my cock. His tongue teases the spot where he bit me, he bits down a bit harder and I jump. "Oh fuck," I breath out, John pulls away and smashes his lips onto mine. His lips are smooth and warm, I love them.

His hand reaches under my shirt and yanks it off. His hands run down my taut stomach, his fingers pinch at my nipple before he brings a hard nub into his mouth. His tongue whirls around before he sucks. His other hand plays with my left nipple. The pleasure is so much and I can feel my dick press up against John's abs.

His left hand continues down and slips between the waistband of my shorts. His warm hand wraps around the head of my dick and starts to stroke it. My mouth opens slightly breathing out small puffs of hair. I feel my hand start to tilt back, he stops and my head automatically is back up. "Wha-?" John smiles "lets go to the bed room shall we?" I don't ague with him and we quickly make our way back to the room. He pushes me down on the bed and takes my dick into his mouth. I feel it reach the back of his throat before he pushes it back out and sucks the tip of the head. His tongue dips into the slit casing my cock to jerk. John knows how to suck a dick; he continues to give me head. Lapping at the pre-cum that is oozing out. My breathing is erratic now; heaving up and down. John knows how to drive me insane. I feel my balls tighten then "harder baby," I moan out "God, harder make me cum." John obeys and starts to use his hand; he jerks me off while his tongue plays with my slit. My cock twitches and I shoot my load down his throat.

John pulls himself up toward my body, kissing me on the lips. I feel myself harden again. "Oh what's this?" I look at him and laugh, "why don't you straddle my hips; we'll find out." John smiles and I straighten my body, he sucks a finger into his mouth, his eyes never leaving mine. Finally he pops his finger out and starts to finger himself. Watching his finger vanish inside his body almost makes me cum. He moans out my name and I know he's ready, I position my cock at the entrance of his hole.

I thrust my hips and "ride me baby," I tell John "ride me hard." John says nothing but starts to move up and down.

He closes his eyes as he continues to ride my cock. My hands grip his hips, hard. He is facing me

So his dick is just inches from my face bouncing up and down. I look up and John, his lip is between his teeth. The sweet sounds coming out of his mouth are driving me closer to the end. "Ohh Randy,"

He moans out "fuck, sweet Randy." He starts to ride me harder, "Cum on me, John," I grunt out, "hurry." He lets out a loud grunt and I feel his semen splash on my chest and face. He slowly comes to a stop before he opens his eyes. "That was amazing, baby," he says I nod my head "oh look at the mess I made," he laughs and leans over to lap at the cum on my chest and chin. John licks me clean and lies down next to me.

"I don't think I could ever let you go," John says after a while "I feel more for you than I do Liz." His hand slips into mine. My heart explodes with love for this man, "oh John," I kiss him. "Randy, just know I love you so much nothing could ever change that." I nod my head starting to feel drowsy.

We fall asleep ignoring the house phone going off.