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A/N: sorry for the cliff hanger! I couldn't resist. I spent 2 hours looking for a beta today and my eyes hurt from reading so many bios! After all that time i FINALLY found my perfect beta! Her user name is VeryRachelBerry. Her user name alone makes me love her! I cant wait to work with her! Okay on to the story :)

"here take my jacket." I said. She smiled at me. I looked into her eyes as they stared deeply into mine. I slowly leaned in closer to her face. To her perfect lips. About to kiss her.

Edward P.O.V.

"Shouldn't we head back now?" Jessica asked. Bella turned and glared at Jess.

"Yeah, I guess" I said. Jess just had to ruin it. I wish I could still kiss her but the moment had passed. We walked back in complete silence. When we got home Alice looked at Bella and saw the jacket around her. Alice knew that I love Bella. Hell, my whole family knows it. Alice looked at me with a hopeful expression but I mouthed the word 'no' then glared at Jessica. Alice sighed. She knew that Jessica will never stop trying to pry Bella away from me.

"Jessica, want to help me and Esme make lunch?" Alice asked trying to give Bella and me some privacy.

"Umm…sure" She said, eyeing Bella and me before leaving into the kitchen.

"Can I talk to you in private?" I whispered in Bella's ear. She nodded so I grabbed her hand and led her to my room, praying she wouldn't take her hand from mine. She seemed pretty okay with me taking her hand though. When we reached my room I let go too close the door.

"What did you want to talk about, Eddie?" Bella asked. She was so cute that I couldnt even get mad for her using that annoying nickname.

"Bella, when I was in Italy I had a lot of time to think about my life and the people in it. The relationships I have. And our relationship isn't the one I want." She looked confused. I had to do a better job at explaining myself to her. "Well we are like best friends but I don't want to be best friends anymore." I could see tears starting to water in her eyes.

"You don't want to be my friend anymore?" She asked, misunderstanding what I said. I didn't want her to cry but tears were already flowing. I held her hand again. I felt her trembling hand under mine.

"Bella you're misunderstanding me," I said.

"So you do want to be friends?" She asked, even more confused.

"Yes but no." I said each word confusing her deeper. Maybe I shouldn't say it. But I should do it?

"Wait I'm confused do you want -" I cut her off with a kiss. I closed my eyes. She didn't fight back, that's a good sign. I moved my hands up her arms to rest on her neck. After a few minutes I pulled away.

"Still confused?" I asked. She hesitated.

"Yeah?" She said, not sure. I sighed.

"Bella I want you to be my girlfriend!" I said. Her eyes widened as if it was the most shocking news she had ever heard. She didn't say anything else. I'm such a fool to think she would say yes. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have asked you." I said. I looked down, avoiding her gaze. My hands dropped from her face. "You can go now if you don't want to talk to me anymore." I said. She lifted my head to look in my eyes.

"I would love to" she said. Then she kissed me. There is a new reason I love Bella. Her kisses. We both smiled and smelled food. "Do I smell pizza?" she asked laughing as she pulled away.

"I think so! Let's go" I said, offering her my hand and took. We went downstairs hand in hand. Alice looked at our hands and smiled.

"So what were you guys doing up there?" She asked, winking at bella.

"Bella is my new girlfriend!" I said eagerly. Then we heard a glass drop followed by screaming from the kitchen.

"SHIT! OUCH! OUCH!" Jessica yelled. We all walked to the kitchen and saw Jessica with her hand covered in blood and a few pieces of glass. Esme came into the room.

"What happened?" She asked.

"Esme I'm so so sorry I broke your glass!" Jessica exclaimed, trying to pick up the glass off the floor.

"It's fine, it's fine! Just get away from it before you get more in your hand." Esme responded calmly, as she put on gloves to pick up the glass. "Edward can you help her wrap her hand up?" She asked me. I let go of Bella's hand to help Jess. She sat down at the table as I took the glass out of her hand. I rinsed her hand off and wrapped it with bandage.

"Are you okay?" I asked her.

"Yeah, I'm fine." She replied, avoiding my gaze.

"Jessica, I'm not stupid. What's wrong?"

"Bella...Edward, really? Are you trying to hurt me? Did I do something wrong?" She had tears swelling her eyes. I didn't want to hurt Jessica but I didn't love her. I wished I didn't have to hurt her so much.

"No, jessica. You know I'm not...it's just Bella...she..."

"What? She isn't me? She's perfect? Tell me the truth, do you think I'm ugly?"

"NO! Jessica you're a very pretty girl. You know you're pretty! I just dont feel that way about you now."

"Can you just answer me one question?" I already knew what she was going to say.

"Yeah..." I replied hesitantly.

"Does she know?" I closed my eyes trying to forget that night, but I knew Jessica wouldn't let me forget it. Ever.

"No," I said, a ping of guilt coursing through me. "I'd like to keep it that way...if you don't mind."

"I do mind! You can't just hide it Edward. She's my best friend. It will come out sooner or later." She yelled a little too loudly.

"SHH! Okay, I'll tell her. Just let me do it." I said desperately. Maybe she'd hate me less if I told her.

"Fine." Jessica said, standing up and walking away, telling the others she was leaving due to not feeling well. I walked into to living room and sat down beside Bella. I kissed her cheek.

"Is she okay?" She asked.

"Yeah...she'll be fine."

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