All I can say is what the fuck is happening to me? I don't mean my personality is changing. I'm perfectly happy with who I am. What's changing is my relationships with guys I've been the closest to for a long time now.
The changes started happening after Stan's 10th birthday. Now, I've never been able to call Stan, or anyone for that matter, a close friend, but he's always been the most normal out of our group (except for me, of course). But suddenly, he didn't seem so normal anymore. A doctor told him he was becoming a cynical asshole and I could see why.
Playing video games and eating ice cream are things our group has always done together without any hassle. However, Stan no longer enjoyed these things and made us all aware of it. Talk about being a lame downer. He was ruining our activities with his negative attitude.
I've always hated Jews, hippies, gingers and other minority groups. The statements I make are meant to get a rise out of people, especially Kyle, who is a daywalking Jew himself. Stan's case was a little different. Whereas I target people who are responsible for the world's problems, Stan wouldn't shut up about things that are supposed to make you enjoy life, which is why the rest of our group initially didn't invite him to the movies that one day, but he caught us in the act and begged to come along.
Even though we warned him about spreading his cynicism, he just couldn't help it during the previews. That confirmed what we already suspected: he had changed for the worse. We walked out of the theater and let him know that we were through hanging out with him. Constantly spreading bad vibes is a one-way ticket to getting booted from a group and that's what Stan did.
As strange as it was to see Stan transform like that, what followed was even stranger. Despite all the fights and arguments we've ever had, Kyle and I became closer in just hanging out together and I began to genuinely like him. LIKE him. For the first time in my life, I was able to see through every ounce of Jew-ness that engulfed his body.
We had agreed, along with Kenny, that ditching Stan made life a lot better for us. Though we never officially said it to one another, we swore never to bring each other down despite everything that was wrong with the world. Playing hassle-free rounds of Xbox made things a lot smoother and that's how we were able to grow closer. I may have finally found a true friend in this world and his name is Kyle Broflovski.
Another reason I find all this strange is that Stan and Kyle were always inseparable. When Kyle joined Kenny and myself in turning our backs on him though, I knew the change in Stan's personality was very real and drastic. To be honest, I don't know if this newfound bond with Kyle will last as we seem to be an unlikely match. I guess time will tell.
It sucks for Stan that we left him right before his parents split, but hey, that's his problem. We still see him at school, but we ignore him and he ignores us. We just want to enjoy being kids. I don't think that's too much to ask.
With all of these changes taking place, where does everyone go from here? Will Stan stay a cynical asshole and continue to spiral downward? Will I become a best friend to Kyle instead of just a good friend? Will hippies ever go back to the dark hole they crawled out of? There's so much to look forward to and I can't wait to see all the cool things that are up ahead.