*Sorry Guys that it has taken me a bit of time to get this chapter up. I have just started school and it was taking a bit of my time up. I promise to try to get these out much sooner.*

It felt as though she was in a dream; this couldn't be happening. She wasn't standing there with her phone pressed to her hear listening to the man she loves tell her he still loves her. She actually pinched her self in the hopes of waking herself up from this cruel dream. She reached up to wipe away a fallen tear with the back of her hand.

"I don't know why I said those things before, I didn't mean it at all," Zac continued trying to get in enough before she hung up, even though she promised not to beforehand, "I let Gina get into my head and control me, but I won't let that happen ever again."

Vanessa didn't know what to say or even think at that moment, her brain was running a million miles a minute.

Zac took a deep breath and wiped away a falling tear, that was the first time he was really worried Vanessa was not going to forgive him. He knew that he had royally screwed himself by doing what he did. He waited to hear her response but his nerves grew worse when she didn't say anything. However, he then heard, "I….I," she stuttered, "I don't know what to say Zac. A part of me is still mad at you but then there is a part of me that craves you, it hurts to not have you," she said, her voice now tear filled and Zac definitely noticed and ended up crying harder then he ever had before.

"Baby I'm so sorry," Zac balled, he loved that he could be in complete tears and Vanessa still loved him, and would never make fun of him for it.

Vanessa took a deep shaky breath before she said, "I woke up this morning with the determination to forget about you. I wanted to be able to be so happy today and to be smiling like normal but I just couldn't. Everything reminded me of you. Every other second you face popped into my head. I laid in my trailer and all I thought about was our first time making love, about how much I loved you in that moment, and I couldn't help but smile when I remembered that night, it was the first time I really realized that I wanted to feel that love for the rest of my life and you were the only one who could make me feel so loved. But then at the same time I felt my heartbreak, I never cried so much before in my life," she paused a second to pull herself together, "And with all that I still don't know what to do."

Zac as well had never cried so much before in his life, his sleeves were soaked by the end of Vanessa's monologue. His brother would definitely point and laugh if he ever heard Zac was crying like a girl.

"This is breaking my heart Ness, I never ever wanted you to feel like this," he took a breath, "I hate that I ever said or did any of those things, I feel like such an ass," he said while smacking himself in the forehead.

Vanessa heard the sadness and tears in his voice but she didn't know if she wanted to let him back into her heart. She didn't know if she would be able to handle another heartbreak, if it ever came. But she didn't know if she could go against everything she told herself by letting him love her again.

She rested her head in her hands trying to make a decision. Never before had she thought that this would be a decision she would have to make, or that it would be such a hard one to make. She looked over at her bedside table and felt her nerves well up even more as she spotted the ring that she shared with the man on the opposite end of the phone. That piece of metal, which had no special meaning to others made her heart ache when she thought back to when Zac had given it to her. It was during one of those infamous Hawaii trips that this ring was presented to her, and a little while later she decided to reciprocate the gesture with a matching ring; which she guess Zac was looking at, at the same time she was.

"I…I," she stuttered again, "I don't know Zac. I need some time to uh think all of this through."

Zac ran his fingers through his hair in frustration and then took a deep breath, "Um uh okay, time. I can give you time. Goodnight Vanessa. I love you," he said then heard the other end of the phone go dead.

Time, time; what did that even mean? Neither Zac nor Vanessa knew what that sentence entailed. Vanessa knew that if she continued to talk to him her guard would fall and her brain would cease to work and then her heart would then begin to do its job. However she didn't want to fall for him again, she wanted to make sure this was a logical thing to do; would falling in love with him again be what is best for both of them. Zac was hoping that time didn't stand for some cryptic subliminal female message of never ever, in a million years. He didn't know if he was going to be able to handle whatever this term time meant.

Zac kept a firm grasp on his phone as he thought about what his next move was going to be. Tears were still slowly passing from his eyes and he felt like he was going to be sick; this feeling was new and never before did he think he would ever experience this sickness. He had this sudden urge to talk to someone who he knew would be able to talk him into happiness.

Starla was sitting at home with her husband and her youngest son; they were sitting on the couch watching a movie marathon on TV. Yes it was late but they thought why not spend a few more hours of family time together watching one of their favorite movie series. Starla was standing in the kitchen waiting for the microwave to signal the finishing of the popcorn when she heard their house phone begin to ring. She grabbed the phone from the counter and gave a glance to the caller ID wondering who would be calling so late. It was her elder son.

"Hey Sweetheart, I thought you would be in bed. Don't you have to wake up early tomorrow," Zac's mother said answering the telephone.

"Hi, Hi mom," he responded his voice shaky and sad.

Starla's expression immediately turned from her normal cheery happy disposition to a very concerned and scared one, "Zac what's wrong?"

He took a couple deep breaths, "It's Vanessa, I did something stupid."

Starla closed her eyes and rested her head in her hand as she sat down on one of the bar stools closest to her, "It's okay Zac what ever happened, everything will be okay," she couldn't decided if she should be worried that Zac had said something to the press, or if he had gotten Vanessa pregnant, or if he had physically hurt her in some way; her mind was running a mile a minute.

"Just calm down Sweetheart and tell me what happened," she said bracing herself for what to come.

"Yesterday I told Vanessa all of the crazy things that Gina was telling me and I told her that I kind of believed her. I don't even know why I did; she got into my head! And then we broke up. Then today I realized my mistake and I just called her to apologize and tell her I love her but she told me she needs time. What does that even mean," Zac explained.

His mother took a relaxing breath, thanking God that it wasn't anything extremely serious.

"I love her mom, what do I do?"

Starla felt as though her son was five years old again sitting on her lap asking her why his hamster had died; it was so sad. If this was any other girl then Vanessa than Starla would just say her loss, or wait and see if she takes you back but you'll be fine if she doesn't. With Vanessa it was a whole new ball game. This was a girl that her son had loved for five years, those were five years that he will never be able to forget about, and neither could Starla. She had seen these two children interact and she will admit that at first she thought it was puppy love and it would soon die out like the other girlfriends previous but as their love grew into months and years Starla saw that her son had found someone special. They didn't just say, "No I love you more," over and over again, they actually had a mature relationship; Starla hated to say this but they were grown ups. They really looked like a married couple; after dinner Zac would load the dish washer and Vanessa would clear the table and when Zac would go into the bathroom right before bed or in the morning he would put toothpaste on not only his toothbrush but hers as well and would place it on the counter and of course they had those lovey dovey times but they were nasty and grotesque they were sweet and heartwarming. They definitely surpassed their actual years.

"Show her that you love her, don't just tell her," was the first thing that she advise her son, "Don't automatically start your conversations with you're sorry because then her mind will go back to what happened. Talk to her like old times, tell her about the set and ask her how everything is going with Stella, make her heart do the talking not her brain."

Zac could never figure out where his mother got all of her wisdom but she was able to help in any situation. If he needed to talk about Vanessa he would talk to his mom, if he was having trouble with something that Vanessa couldn't help with, he would call his mom. She was like a magic eight ball but better.

"You promise that'll work," Zac responded.

"Yes."

Zac thanked his mother for her advice and he knew that what she said was the right thing to do but he was still afraid that whatever he did it wouldn't work and he'd never have Vanessa back.

Vanessa laid back down onto her bed and felt her body begin to ache as tears continued to fall from her beautiful chocolate eyes. She tried to figure out what her definition of time meant and why she had even said it. Her heart screamed for her to pick that phone up and dial the all too familiar and say she loved him back and was crazy for ever wondering if she didn't. But what if this happened again, what if this relationship was just puppy love and he would find a serious girlfriend next week and marry her the week after that. What if this was what was supposed to happen, that it was all a part of God's plan. What if she was just being crazy thinking about all of the absurd things that Zac could do without her? In her heart she knew she loved him and even in her head she knew that she loved him but her insecurities were clouding that love.

All night she stayed up staring at her Kuuipo ring as well as watch the minutes pass on her alarm clock. Eventually the tears stopped from leaking from her eyes but that didn't mean she wasn't sad. She slept for about five minutes before her alarm sounded to tell her to go to work.

She showed up to work that morning unlike she normally did, she was silent and meek while the camera's stopped rolling. The minute she got out of her car there was Josh waiting to welcome her and make sure that she was feeling better than she did yesterday. He was ready to make her smile.

"Hey Vanessa," he cheered the minute she stepped a foot out of the van. She nodded her head in response before she started off for her trailer; usually she would meet Josh at his trailer after putting her stuff down and then they would walk to make up together and while there tell stories and just laugh but that morning she just wanted that day to be over with; she wanted her Christmas vacation to start already.

Josh was a super cute kid and he was fun to hang around with but she just didn't feel for him the same way that she had ever felt about Zac, Josh would always just be her friend no matter how hard he tried to be something more.

Eventually that day did end and Vanessa was on a plane home that night, she couldn't wait to sleep in her own bed and see her parents and her little sister but as she sat there on the plane with her head phones in she remembered that the minute she got home it would remind her of Zac, everything would.

Zac sat in his car around the corner of Vanessa's house waiting for her to come home. He knew that she would wait to stop by her parents until the next day so he waited. Once he gave her ample time to get into the house and put belongings down he opened the gate and pulled into the garage in his designated spot and walked right into the house that they had both deemed theirs a while ago. Vanessa's heart stopped when she saw Zac walk into her house, every single emotion was running through her head at the same time. She wanted to cry, scream at him, kiss him and slap him all at once.

"Zac," was all she could muster.

"Vanessa, I love you. Make love with me."

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HANNAH