I opened my eyes to see two brown ones looking at me. All I could see were those brown eyes, everything else was blurry.

I blinked a few times, but I still couldn't see clearly. The brown eyes came closer. I looked into them, and suddenly I wasn't there anymore. I was somewhere else. Somewhere dark.

I was surrounded in black, it was like I was floating in a vicious black sea. I couldn't control where I was going, only the waves could.

A figure flashed in front of me, penetrating the dark. I knew that I knew them, but I just couldn't remember.

I saw a man, he was trying to talk to me, but no words came out. A woman appeared beside him, I was mesmerized by her long blonde hair, I knew her, I just couldn't remember. I was getting frustrated, she was trying to say something too, But I couldn't hear them!

But then the man encircles the woman in his arms, and I'm flooded with memory's.

"No!" I tried to reach them frantically, but the black sea held me back.

I knew who they were now, but now I couldn't reach them. My Parents look upon me sadly, before turning away. And disappearing.

The sea, it was pulling me away, away from where my parents where standing not two seconds ago, but soon the sea's gone too, and I was looking at the brown eyes again. My cheeks were wet, but why.

Then reality caught up to me.

"No!" I gasped out.

"No, No, No!"

I couldn't stop the tears as they wracked my body, I just couldn't stop.

I tried to sit up, but couldn't hold myself up.

"No" I wailed and tried to reach for the brown eyes.

I toppled halfway out of the bed before strong arms caught me, and pulled me upright.

I tried to clutch to him, to keep him with me, to not be left alone. I pulled him down to me, and he slid into the bed beside me, pressing me to his body as he muttered soothing words into my ear, as he lovingly stroked my back.

My parents. They were gone. They were dead. They died trying to save me. It was my entire fault.

I snuggled closer to him, burying my head into his neck as I wept. Not caring that this was a man I used to hate, but a man I just can't seem to hate anymore. At that moment I wanted his arms to never leave me, as I cried myself into sleep.

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When I woke again, I looked up into the face of James Potter, and for the first time in my life was glad to see him.

"Hey" I smiled weakly, blushing as I remembered when I first woke up and how I fell asleep crying on him.

"Hey" he smiled back concerned.

I pulled away from him as I apologized for before.

"Lils, don't apologize, I know you hate me, but I'm always here for you" James said sincerely.

And I knew he was telling the truth, but I also knew I didn't hat him.

"I don't hate you anymore James" I whispered meekly. But he heard, and I watched as his entire face lit up. He pulled me back to him and started to stroke my back soothingly.

I didn't object, and rested my head on his shoulder, glad he was here.

Of course that's the time his hooligan friends burst in, but for once they were quiet, and seemed genuinely concerned about me.

"Hey, how are you Lily flower" Sirius questioned quietly, as Remus came up beside me to grasp my hand.

"Alright" I croaked out. Feeling close to tears again as I realised how much these people really did care for me, even when I had been so mean to them in the past.

Peter stood at the end of my bed, barely tall enough to look over the head bored on the end of my bed, His small eyes watering as he watched me, his short brown hair a mess as he fiddled nervously with it.

I looked to Sirius, who was tall and tanned with elbow length black wavy hair and broad shoulders, who often held such arrogance in his chocolate eyes, but as I looked into his eyes this time, I could only see concern.

I switched my gaze to Remus, who was just as tall as Sirius and James, but with his light brown shoulder length hair and his soft hazel eyes, he always looked so much more sincere and kind than anyone else I had ever met, and was the one marauder I usually got along with.

I then looked up to James, at his jet black unruly hair, pale skin, and beautiful brown eyes, I felt so ridiculous and stupid for not counting them as friends sooner.