I'm standing outside the cemetery with Trinity. It's nighttime. I had to sneak out of the house just to get here. We're waiting for Neo and Morpheus. They better show up soon. I'm feeling very unstable and I have a gun. I still may end up doing something stupid, like killing myself. If I do, then at least I may end up with Kid. God, what's my obsession with him all of a sudden? We're not even the same age. I'm 17, he's only 16. It's not like I liked him or anything, but now that he's gone, all I can think about, besides getting out of this hell, is him.

I asked Trinity what it's like. She asked, "What Zion is like?" I replied, "Yes, what is it like to be free?" She said it's amazing. It's beautiful and warm. There's heat, light, food, and water. I wonder if there's strawberries in Zion. I like strawberries. At least I think I do. I wanted to ask her if Kid is there, but I'm scared of what the answer might be, that the answer is no, and he truly is dead.

I asked if you can make your own choices in Zion. Trinity said "Of course you can, Echo." That's the first time she used my name, at least my real name. Neo calls me that all the time. So did Kid. I don't think Kid even knows my Matrix name, Sierra Matthews. He did know I have long dark brown hair and dark blue eyes. I knew his, Michael Karl Popper, but then I didn't even know that until his funeral, but that wasn't even real. I do know that Kid has brown hair and brown eyes. I told Trinity once I'm in Zion, I think I'll start making my own decisions. Trinity said I already had. I asked, "I have?" She said, "You made your own decision when you decided you wanted to be free." That's true, I guess.

I wonder if once you are out of the Matrix, if you have the choice to never jack in again. If I had the choice, I would never want to. I want to join a crew. I'm 17, and according to Neo, I'm old enough but I'd never want to go back to the Matrix again. Trinity once told me that the Nebuchadnezzar only has four crew members, Neo, Trinity, Morpheus, and a man named Link. I asked what happened to the other crew members. Trinity said they died, and that's all she'll tell me.

I'm beginning to get worried. How long does it take to get to a cemetery? If they don't get here soon, I think I may shoot myself. I should give Trinity the gun. I hope my father doesn't know it's gone. If he does, he may kill me. Not that I would complain. Being dead is better than being here.

I'm so tired. I haven't slept in a week, not since Kid died. I need to sit. There's a bench in the cemetery that's actually comfortable. Trinity came with, probably so I won't do something stupid. I can't say I blame her for not trusting me. I don't really trust myself or anybody else, either, except for those who've been unplugged. I think my mother has. How else can I explain why she disappears for a while and then comes back. The longest she was gone was for a month.

Trinity has decided to call Neo. She's worried too. Neo may be One, but he can still get in trouble, not that he can't get out of it, but he can still die. Trinity told me Neo died once after being shot by Agents. She told me that the Oracle, whom everyone eventually sees, told her she'd fall in love and that man would would be the One. She kissed Neo and then he came back to life. Talk about a kiss of life.

Trinity just got off the phone. Neo and Morpheus are on the way. They had to head to Zion, just so they jack in to get me out. It's getting hard to find a safe place to get here. I wonder why. I know about the Sentinels. I wonder if that has anything to do with it.

I asked Trin more about Zion and if I could have my own room. She said I can if I want, or I could be with my mom. I had no idea my mom lived in Zion, who that's where she want when she disappears. If she knew about the Matrix for a long time, when I wonder why she just didn't live permantly. Maybe because she wanted to see me get free first.

It's time for me to go. Neo and Morpheus just got here. Nice car, I must say. I don't know why I care about that since I have bigger fish to fry. Neo opened the door and Trin got in the back seat first and I did after her. I didn't notice until now that we're all wearing black. I'm wearing my black sweater, black jeans and my black boots, and black leather jacket. I wonder if that's a rule or something. I keep staring at the floor of the car, torn somewhere between crying and throwing up. I should be happy but I'm not. I'm scared to death. I'm scared even if I take the red pill, it won't work. I'm afraid my mind will reject being freed, and I'll have to come back here.

I gave the gun to Neo, simply because I don't want it anymore. It's started to rain. Neo said it was raining the night he was freed. I barely heard him because I keep staring out the front window looking at all the things I know aren't real. My school, the library, this Chinese place I ate at all the time.

We're here, some building I guess that everyone goes to when it's time get free. I have to see how things go. Hopefully, when you hear from me next, I'll be in Zion.