Chapter 3.- One Way and No Way

"You know you did." Hikaru pouted and crossed his arms. Kaoru clenched his fists toward him and opened his mouth in anger, but then just sighed and gave up.

"You're hopeless," Kaoru exclaimed, flinging his hands in the air.

"Well, I'm still right," Hikaru mumbled, satisfied. He swung his legs up in the couch and lay on it with a big grin. "Admit that you lied to me about moving."

"Fine, I haven't moved, but I am going to," Kaoru explained and started cracking the eggs, letting it fall onto the pan and mixing in some milk and salt. Hikaru furrowed his eyebrows and sat up again.

"You are?" he asked.

"Yeah, I'm going to study abroad. I only skipped college to m-" he paused in a movement. There was a long moment of silence, only the sizzling of the pan was audible in the small kitchen. Hikaru didn't say anything for a moment, but then he coughed a little.

"To marry me?" he ended his sentence.

"Um… y-yeah," Kaoru murmured and started stirring around in the eggs. Hikaru nodded a little and looked away. Then his eyes trailed back to Kaoru's back. He unintentionally felt an urge to embrace him. He wanted to hold him close. He wanted to smell his hair and skin. To feel his body make small shivers under his touch. To see his eyes fog into a daze of pleasure… no! NO! That was not what a brother should do… right? A brother shouldn't want to do that to another brother…

Hikaru shook his head violently and hurried to stand up. A brother shouldn't think those things. Maybe he should leave… but on the other hand…

He turned back around, watching Kaorus body move while he prepared the eggs.

… On the other hand, it was allowed for brothers to hug each other. Yes, that was harmless. Totally not over the line.

He moved toward Kaoru and carefully touched his sides, letting him know he was there. Then he slid his arms slowly around his waist. To his surprise Kaoru not as much as uttered a gasp, he just tensed slightly and continued to stir the eggs around. Hikaru smiled slightly and rested his head on his twins familiar back. He doesn't remember being so comfortable in his whole life.

Kaoru could feel his head turn into a daze. It was a weird daze. Not the usual loving daze that he had had once, but not a bad daze either. This daze reminded him much like being slightly drunk, or close to fainting. Strange.

"Hikaru, I need the plates," Kaoru said slowly after a while, realizing that the eggs were pretty much done, but Hikaru only tightened his arms like a stubborn child around his waist. Kaoru tried to pry his twin off and move toward the cabinet, but Hikaru's arms just held him determined back. Gosh, he was like a spider – the more the pray moved, the more he would be captured.

"No, don't move," Hikaru whined. "I'm totally comfortable."

"Well, I'm sorry to break your comfort," Kaoru sighed and tried to peal Hikaru's fingers loose one by one, but that only made him exclaim small whimpers. "Oh, grow up!" Kaoru spat, hopelessly trapped.

"Growing up is overrated," Hikaru muffled, his face buried in Kaoru's back, holding onto him like he was his only hope of survival. "No one really grows up, they just learn how to act in public."

"That's a ridiculous theory," Kaoru sighed, pulling himself toward the cabinet with Hikaru dragging after him.

"No, it's not!" Hikaru said stubbornly.

"Hikaru, let go of me," Kaoru begged, but Hikaru shook his head into his back.

"Don't want to. I have missed holding you," he explained, and Kaoru let out a gasp when Hikaru held even tighter. If he didn't stop soon he would squeeze Kaoru's soul out of his body.

"How do I make you let go?" Kaoru asked, sounding defeated. He managed to reach for the plates while Hikaru thought about it. He began walking back to the pan, but it was hard when you had to carry the weight of two.

"You have to…" Hikaru began and suddenly hid his head further into his back. "…say that you love me. Not as a brother, but for real. It's okay if it's just a lie."

"Hikaru, you kno-" Kaoru whispered, but stopped himself mid-sentence. He felt Hikaru's breathings against his back, his hands fisted in his clothes. He missed Hikaru, he really truly did. Hikaru was the person he loved the most in the whole world, but that… that just wasn't enough anymore. It was not right.

After a moment of silence Hikaru slowly let go of Kaoru. "Sorry, I pushed it too far. Sorry." The oldest twin whispered and turned his back to Kaoru. "You shouldn't be forced to something that you're not comfortable with."

Kaoru didn't answer, just straightened up slightly and began to scrape the eggs onto the plate. No one said anything for a while, just listening to the others breathings. Kaoru wished he could break the silence, but somehow he was afraid to hear Hikaru's voice. He was afraid that he would hear sadness coming from his always cheerful lips. Therefore he stayed quiet.

"Kaoru?" Hikaru suddenly asked, making his twin bounce slightly in shock.

"Y-yeah?" Kaoru asked, sprinkling peeper and salt over the slightly burned eggs.

"Would you… like me to leave you alone?" he murmured, almost inaudible, but Kaoru heard the words clearly and swallowed. He put the spices on the table before he answered.

"I don't know," he said.

Hikaru made a small nod in understanding. "Okay. I'll leave."

"Y-you don't want something to eat?"

"Oh, um, I'm not hungry, but thank you," Hikaru said, finally turning around and looking at Kaoru with a gentle smile, but his expression didn't reach his eyes. Kaoru felt his chest clench when he saw his blank eyes. Believe it or not, in all the time Kaoru had known Hikaru, he had never seen him cry or tear up. Not once.

"Hika-"

"But it was nice to see you again," he interrupted, still forcing his smile to stay on his face. "I really missed did you." He made a small laugh, but it came out fake and forced.

Kaoru didn't know what to say, so he just nodded. Hikaru took the nod as a ticket to leave and turned toward the door. "Hopefully I'll see you again then." Hikaru murmured and opened the door. Kaoru stood dumbstruck in the kitchen and just stared after him. What had just happened? One second him and Hikaru had hugged and joked… and the next…

"W-wait," Kaoru whispered, but the door had already closed behind his twin. "Wait," he said a little louder and with shaking steps he walked toward the door. "Wait. Wait." He yanked the door open. "Hikaru-!"

Hikaru stood just outside the door, facing him when he came out. A small smile spread on his lips and he pulled Kaoru into a hug.

"Thank you," he whispered in his ear. Kaoru said nothing for a while, but then he exclaimed a whimper and grabbed tightly around the back of Hikaru's shirt.

"Idiot.."

They stood like that for a while, feeling each others familiar bodies, smelling the well-known scents. It was Hikaru who finally pulled away in the end, capturing his twins face between two palms.

"What am I going to do with you?" he laughed, moving forward and pressing a light kiss toward his forehead. "Kaoru, you're killing me."

The youngest twin sniffled with a sad expression on. He hurried to wipe his eyes with his sleeve. He couldn't believe he was releasing the waterworks now. He had always been the sensitive one, but still! Hikaru smiled facetious at his fighting expression. He had missed Kaoru so much. He loved everything about him.

"W-will you go home now?" Kaoru suddenly whispered, surprising Hikaru greatly.

"Wha-"

"I, um, want to think about some things... alone," he said timidly and looked at Hikaru with careful eyes. "Can you maybe... come by again tomorrow?"

Hikaru's eyes softened and he leaned forward to press his lips against Kaoru's forehead again, before he pulled away.

"Sure."

"What do you mean, you like Kaoru?" Tamaki spat shocked, almost falling over his own legs. Kyouya shrugged quietly and continued walking down the crowded street. Tamaki was his best friend, but telling him about his crush had definitely been a mistake.

"If you tell anyone I'll have my fathers police-force hunt you down and kill you," he said casually, but the malicious threat was there. Tamaki let out a nervous laugh by this, running to keep up with Kyouya's long steps.

"Don't worry, I promise I won't tell anyone... but still, when did that happen?" Tamaki questioned, stunned.

"I don't know," said Kyouya, shrugging again.

"Do you mean, you like Kaoru, or you like him?" Tamaki questioned, running in front of Kyouya to see his expression, but as usually the shadow king kept his cool face on.

"I like him."

"Like, or like?"

"I like like him, okay?"

"You love him?"

"I -" Kyouya exclaimed stunned, he suddenly felt weird when the word was said out loud. He had always thought that sentence in his head, but it was different from when it was uttered.

"Uh, that's not good," Tamaki said, biting his thumbs nail. "Kaoru have Hikaru after all."

"I know."

"So, what are you going to do?" Tamaki asked, putting his hands in the pockets.

"I don't know," Kyouya said truthfully. Tamaki frowned.

"You should probably forget him, no offense, but these "unrequited love"-things, never end well," Tamaki sighed.

"I know," Kyouya mumbled, keeping a straight face. Tamaki sighed again, he really pitied his friend. Kyouya had never really had a relationship before, not because he couldn't - numerous girls had confessed to him, and even a few guys - but he had always turned everyone down. Poor guy.

"Well, I need to get to work," Tamaki said, pointing toward the bar. Kyouya nodded absentminded. Tamaki gave him a last worried glance before he turned to walk the other way.

Kyouya looked after him from the corner of his eye before he reached down to retrieve his phone. He quickly scrolled through his contact until he found the one he was looking for.

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"Hallo?" Kaoru's voice sounded in the other end of his phone. Kyouya closed his eyes by the sound of it, it really hurt him not to be able to be close to the only person he had ever loved, but this was better than nothing.

"Hallo, it's Kyouya," he finally said.

"Ah, Kyouya? What's up?"

"Well, we have gotten the new game you have been babbling about. So if you want... you can come and get it," he said, leaning against a nearby wall while speaking. He noticed that Kaoru sounded much more cheerful than he had in a long time, that made him happy.

"Really? it's here already? That's great, what about later tomorrow?" he asked.

"You can't now?"

"I thought you were closed, it's almost ten o'clock," Kaoru asked wondering.

"I have a key."

"Are you serious? That would make my day! Where are you?"

"Just outside your apartment actually."

Sorry , it have been like FOREVER, haven't it? SRY! I had writters-block, but I'm back in business because

KyubiKanji reminded me to continue this story on one of my new ones. xDDDD

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