If Love was There …
I do not own Gakuen Alice
But,
I do own this story…
Summary:People are always telling me to smile, like smiling is going to just take away all the hurt and pain. Well I've tried that I've tried hiding my sorrows and covering the sadness in smiles and what I've learned is that when it hurts this much inside your heart always has a way of showing it no matter how many masks you wear.
Chapter 2: Thinking back
She hurriedly went to her room and closed the door. Her face is so pale that one can say that she looks like a zombie. Her eyes are full of sadness and becoming redder and redder every moment. Tears rush trough her face like a river in the stream. One can really say that she is totally hurt.
MIKAN'S POV
"I can't believe it he did it again, hurting me with those pesky words of his. I even imagine that somehow we're friends. Ever since he called my name in that last dance I started to feel something for him that I can't even explained and know." Mikan said between her tears.
FLASHBACK…
(AFTER GETTING THE EXAM OF JINNO-SENSEI AND HOTARU'S CAMP TO HER LABORATORY.)
MIKAN'S POV
"Ne… Hotaru what do you think I am feeling right now? Mikan said while gazing in the stars.
"…."
"What is this feeling that keeps on bothering me all the time whenever his around? I don't understand at all." She continue talking… "There's something that I can't explained whenever his near it looks like my heart is pumping so fast that blood flow thoroughly in my veins. His eyes that show no emotions make me feel so awkward but at the same time, it is the very same reason why I want him to smile to ease his pain inside. Whenever I look directly into his eyes even though it shows no emotions there's a certain feeling that want me to stay by his side. I don't know what it is but for some reason I just want to stay beside him. And that makes me smile."
"Hotaru what do you-" She then looked at the sleeping raven-haired girl beside her. "Honestly, sleeping while talking to your best friend. Geez… so much for being my BEST FRIEND." She quietly tuck her with a blanket she brought when she asked her so called- best friend to come with her gazed in the stars in the roof of their dormitory.
"Sleep tight Hotaru… and remember I'm always here for you, I love you my friend." She said before looking to the stars once again hoping that she'll find the answers to her so called feeling of confusion for a certain person in their last dance that year.
Unknown to her presence…
SOMEONE'S POV
She looked at her friend face while the wind enveloping her hair as she continues gazing in the stars. "As your so called best friend I really do care for you and also love you like you do. Soon enough you will realize that what you are feeling right now is what he also feels for you. Continue smiling, for it is the only way you can make him continue to believe that life is still wonderful to live in. I know that even some people are trying to separate the two of you I know you can make a way to be together." She said before closing her eyes to sleep.
END OF FLASHBACK…
I am a dreamer…
Hidden power...
" Oh I hate you, I hate you for making me feel this way…
My world
Is made of dreams, love and worries.
But, there are still things lying hidden inside
That I can't even imagine.
"I don't know what to do anymore…
Facing the sky, like all the different trees,
I'm gazing right at you.
"It feels like my heart is been torn to pieces…
I want to find my dream... I want to make it come true...
There is nothing that I can't overcome
If I only believe.
Just like singing, just like miracles,
"Feelings" can change everything!
Without a doubt... Without a doubt...
It's almost surprising
"This sadness that running in my soul…keep on hunting me…
I'm a dreamer
Hidden power
"But, I know when this end…
A world yet unseen...
No matter what awaits me there,
Even if it's not the ideal,
I won't be afraid
"I can be strong…
The birds travel on the wind
On a journey from today to tomorrow.
"I'll stand up again…
I want to tell you... I want to shout it...
I am but one entity in this world.
But like a prayer, like a star,
Even with a small light, someday,
I want to be
Stronger and stronger…
"I know I'll get by…
There are limitless possibilities,
Right here in my grasp.
(It's gonna be your world.)
"And when I do, I know…
I want to find my dream... I want to make it come true...
There is nothing that I can't overcome,
If I only believe.
Just like singing, just like miracles,
"Feelings" can change everything!
Without a doubt... Without a doubt...
It's almost surprising!
"I can smile once more…"
She then closed her eyes and feels a little sleepy after crying out so much. (Who wouldn't, after crying for an hour, such a cliché)? After that she fell asleep with a trace of tears in her eyes.
"Uhmn…" She murmured in her sleep. "I love you."
OUTSIDE MIKAN'S ROOM
There's a shadow lurking, looking at the sleeping girl who cried her heart out. Sadness envelops the person's heart just looking what she had been doing all day long. Disappointed of what happened, never thought that something can crushed the heart of a cold person so easily with just one tear. Staring at the brunette make the person soul light as a feather but seeing the trace of her tears broke the person's heart.
PERSON'S POV
"Someday when everything seems to fall into their right places, you would never shed a tear and when it happens you will not think back any sadness you've been through. Acting so strong while you're hurting inside, it is just a tough façade you've been playing for a long time now. Your endless love and care for those people you've treated more than yourself are your strength to make it trough in this harsh world. How I loved to see your smile once more, making this world worthy to live for. And as time passed by, soon you'll be out of this misery. If that moment comes I hope for you to be strong and to trust your heart, be a girl with a big smile for everyone. Shine in the darkness if you must and let yourself be the light with love in your heart." Suddenly a cold breeze passed by and the person vanished together with the wind.
IN A CERTAIN PLACE OUTSIDE THE ACADEMY
"It is better to let that happen." A good-looking man said with a hint of seriousness in his tone and sat back in his swivel chair. "But-." Somebody tried to interfere when suddenly cut off by someone who is sitting in the couch near the young man. "Stop arguing with him, you who knew him well know that he won't listen to anyone if he gives his final decision." The young boy said with a pale expression. "Enough of this matter all we need to do now is to accept his proposal and forget that it ever happen." The young man said with a firm tone that can't be defied by anyone. "You sure about accepting the proposal?" The woman who is cut off said, still not favorable to the man's decision but take her composure back while walking towards the man in swivel chair. "If this is how things will work, then it is alright to stop thinking back what would happen next." The man replied with a hint of sadness in his voice and closes his eyes. The woman eyes started to form a tear and cried silently. "Why does things go this far." The boy looked to the woman who is crying in front of the man whose eyes are close. "It is settle then, we accept his proposal and the plan should go on even if things will change."
In order for you to be
Truly happy with other people,
You have to learn
First how to be contented
And happy being alone…
It's only when you became
In touch with yourself
That you realize how important it is
To be a whole person before
SHARING YOUR LIFE WITH SOMEONE ELSE…