02:47

"Beck wake up?" I heard some one say. I slowly opened my eyes and found myself on the bathroom floor of Tori's house with Cat hovering over me.

"Beck?" she asked again as I rose to my feet. For some odd reason my belt was half undone. That's probably why I was in the bathroom because I needed to go pee. I could tell that I was some what drunk because I had a booming in my head. I still heard music blasting from downstairs , which meant that the party was still going strong.

"Hey Cat." I said looping my belt back through my jeans. Now I just wanted to find Jade and get back to Mason. I really missed the little guy.

"What happened to Jade?" she sounded concerned.

"What do you mean?" I asked back.

"She came down the stairs crying and made me take her back to your place, she seemed really upset about something. Then when I came back here I asked Andre if he new and he said that the last time he saw her she was looking for you. so do you know whats wrong with her. I mean she just cried all the way back to your place. I just hope she is okay." she ranted on and on.

"She probably just missed Mason Cat. The last time I saw her-" I cut my self off as memories rushed into my mind.

"I gotta go Cat." I rushed past her and down the stairs. I heard her follow behind me.

"Beck wait, what's going on?" she asked before I made my way out of the front door.

"I fucked up Cat, I fucked up really bad. And I don't know if I can fix it." With this I stormed out and drove to my place in panic. Why would I do that to Jade? Why would I ruin our relationship like that? I just hope she is still at my place so I could explain. I mean I usually do crappy things when I'm drunk, but I never cheated on Jade before. As I pulled up into the drive way I noticed that Jade's Car wasn't in its spot. But my parents sometimes use it to run to the store in the mornings , but its around five now. I went straight to the Rv hoping to find Jade there with Mason in his crib. As I opened the door and turned on the light the place was empty. Just about all of Jades and Mason's stiff was missing. I wanted to throw up when my mother walked in.

"Beck what the hell happened tonight?" she asked as she shut the door behind her. I couldn't speak, I was to busy looking at all the stuff Jade had left. I saw a couple of her clothes laying around and a few of Mason 's. I also saw that she had left the we took of her, Mason and my self. I didn't know what to do in this situation. Where could she have gone to?

"Well if your not going to talk I will. Jade came to the house at wee hours during the night and got Mason. A few minutes later I saw her walk to her Car with a few bags and Mason, why did this happen Beck?"

i didn't respond, I just walked out of the door and got back into my car. I didn't know where she went with my son. I miss them already. I could tell that tears were forming in my eyes when the thought of never seeing them again popped back into my head. Why Beck? Why would you do that to her? all I could remember from the party now was the hurt in Jade's eyes when she caught me and god knows who in the bathroom. I didn't know where to turn to. She wouldn't be at Cats or any of our other friends house because they were all still at the party. So I find my self in Jade's old neighborhood. I know it's a long shout but I just had to check and see. As I drove past her old home, I saw that her car was in the driveway. I hurt her pretty bad to make her run here. Everything was moving so fast today. How could my life be in ruins in just a few short hours. I sat in the car for a while contemplating weather or not I should go in. I didn't know how to explain my actions to her and I'm pretty sure that she wouldn't take and apology from me right now. all the light where out in the house so I just decided to drive away, not going back to my house. I didn't want to explain this to my parents. Before I pulled away I had to do something to get to Jade. I ended up doing it all night.

I saw him pull up as I stood in front on my window in my old bedroom. It still shocked me that my dad had let me in. He went right back to bed as soon as I unloaded everything from the car. He didn't ask any questions, but still looked understanding. I couldn't formulate everything that happened tonight. I had been crying for hours. To my advantage Mason went right to sleep on my bed. Beck sat in his car for awhile then drove off. As he drove off my phone went off.

FROM:THE LOVE OF MY LIFE

I'm sorry.. I love you Jade and Mason . pls forgive me. I regret every moment of tonight, except being with you.

I got message after message of the same thing. This made more tears form in my eyes.

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