11/26/2011

Ten minutes. Ten minutes was all I need to talk to her. To tell her that I'm sorry and I want my family back, our family back. I don't think I've I have ever had a weekend like this before. For one thing I have never cried myself to sleep before nor have I texted somebody 100 times a day. I missed her along with our son Mason and regretted everything that had happened on Friday at Tori's party. but today was Monday, the first day of mine and Jade's senior year. Today would be the day that I talked to her and made everything better. She had completely ignored all of my texts messages and I even emailed her, but I should have known that it wouldn't work like that. Before leaving my RV I went over what I was going to say to her one more time in my head. The first sentence being I'm sorry and the last being I love you and our son. As I walked out of my home and towards my truck I was stopped by mother. All weekend she had nagged me about Jade. I simply told her that I had done something unforgivable and that I didn't want to talk about it. Then she asked if I had cheated on her and when I didn't answer back I got lectured on not being a good boyfriend nor father. Like I didn't lecture myself enough already.

"So are you going to speak to her today Beck?" she asked me as I put my backpack in the back seat. Before I responded the yellow 'BABY ON BORED' sign caught my eye.

"Come on Jade we need it."

"I don't want everyone to know that we have a baby in the back seat."

"Give it a try"

"No"

"Please. For our little one in there." I said as I touched her then pregnant stomach. After about a good five minutes of begging I got my way.

Oh how I missed her and our little one. My mom had to snap her fingers together to get my attention.

"Yeah mom that's the plan." I replied as I got into my car.

"Just try your best Beck okay. I miss my grandson and find out where he is staying now that ya'll two are no longer together." She walked back into the house then. I forgot that Jade and I had decided to have my mom watch Mason while we were in school. What if Jade didn't show up today and I couldn't get her back. What if she just took Mason and ran. No she wouldn't do that, she loved LA to much. but its not like I could just show up to her dads house demanding to see her and my son. He wasn't my biggest fan since I did knock up his only daughter in her junior year of high school. But he must have forgiven her due to the fact that she was still there. I sat out her house all day Saturday just hoping to get a glimpse of them both through her old bedroom window. All of these things were racing through my mind as I pulled into the student parking lot at Hollywood Arts. To my luck Jade's Car was parked in the spot a few rows up. I could even see the car seat in the back seat. I smiled to myself. Remember Beck just take it easy and this will work.

Once inside the building I couldn't find her anywhere.

"Hey Beck!" Tori exclaimed as I looked around the main hallway heading to my locker to put my things away. As I bent down I tapped a picture of Jade myself and Mason that I printed off of my IPhone. So now every time I see my clear transparent locker I see my family.

"So um where's Jade."

"I was hoping you could tell me that." I sighed.

"Wait yall didn't come to school together?" I guess she didn't know. I was praying that most people didn't know.

"no." I said quietly running my hands through my head.

"Oh well there she is over there." Tori said pointing to Jade who was now at her locker. I didn't even bother to respond to a now confused Tori. I walked quickly over to Jade who had just slammed her locker shut. I saw her face. I could tell that like me she had been crying her eyes out, but unlike me she still looked powerful and brave. Same old Jade. I can tell that she notices me now walking towards her because her body tenses up. At the corner of her eye she sees me and starts to walk away at an amazing pace. I run just to catch up to her.

"JADE!" I yell after her as we enter a now empty hall way. I run in front of her to stop her from walking on. I looked down at my watch I had exactly 10 minutes now to get her back.

"Jade will you at least listen to me." she just glared at me with her arms crossed against her chest. "Look Jade I am so sorry for what I did on Friday. I have regretted it ever since. I miss you babe. I know that what I did was unforgivable and reckless and that I can never take it back, but I wish I could Jade I really wish I could. I fucked up, I ruined our family with my stupid mistake and I get that. but if you could just forgive me Jade I swear to god that I will never ever allow that to anything close to it to happen again to ruin our family. All weekend I have been a mess these past three days. I cried babe for the first time in my life I cried my self to sleep because I miss you mason sleeping in the same place as me in are home. I love you and Mason Jade, and I want you back in my life." I didn't say anything I planned to, I forgot it all. Wow, the great actor forgot his lines. I just couldn't figure out what to say when I was she was actually standing in front of me. I put my hand to cup her face. But she swatted it away.

"Don't touch me." she said coldly as she began to walk away.

"Jade please." I said catching up to her again.

"No Beck, you don't get to do this. You just don't get to waltz up in here and poof back everything to normal. You're the one who fucked up Beck. And I'm sorry but I just cant okay I cant do this right now." she stopped her self from exploding on me and I can tell. Why didn't she just say what was all on her mind. when we got into fights before that would always help resolve them, her getting all her emotions that she bottled up and laying them out so the whole world can see.

"Jade then at least tell me where Mason is." I said yelled before she was out of earshot. She paused in her tracks like she was contemplating weather or not to tell me.

"Jade come on you got to at least let me know where my son is."

"He at the daycare up the street." Did she just say daycare?

"Daycare Jade? You said that you would never do that, put him in daycare." She turned around then.

"And you said that you would never cheat on me, but I guess things change. And by the way I went to Lane this mourning to get a schedule change so instead of having 8 classes together like we planned, we only have one." At that moment the bell rang and my ten minutes where up. my planned had failed. It was official Jade&Beck&Mason, were now Jade&Mason and hopefully Mason&Beck.

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