12/21/2011

" Good mourning seniors!" my creative writing teacher spoke as I walked in the class late. After my little hall episode with Beck I went to the bathroom to clean up my makeup. I couldn't help but cry after I walked away from him. It took all my will not to take him back right then and there. I miss and needed him so much, but then the memory of Friday night floats back into my mind and I cant help but hate him for what he did to me. I quickly took my seat next to a boy in a leather Jacket who had his head down on the black table. The one thing I loved about the senior creative writing class was that we get to use old black science lab tables instead of mean old desk that the other creative writing classes got. I really don't know why they had it this way but hey the black satisfied me.

"Jade right?" the teacher asked in front of the whole class.

"yeah." I replied back bitterly.

"Your late." I rolled my eyes at her comment and the boy sitting next to me picked up his head as the teacher went into an introduction about the aspects of exploring our minds imagination to come up with a great piece of fiction. I didn't pay attention to who was sitting next to me as I pulled out my Iphone and looked at pictures of Mason. The first ne that appeared was one of him and Beck not too long after he was born.

"Babe look at him. I don't think that babies are supposed to be this still." I told Beck. I was standing over Mason's Crib in the RV just adoring my 1 month old sleeping silently. This was the first time that he had been this peaceful in his sleep. Beck got of the bed and came to wrap his arms around my waist. He then rested his chin on my right shoulder. He sighed as his grip around me tightened.

"I thought that you would enjoy this moment. It's the one quite moment that we have to ourselves. I mean there are a lot of things that we can do in this moment." He started planting kisses on my jaw line all the way up to my ear. I then craned my neck in the opposite direction of his mouth.

"Isn't this what got us this little one in the first place." I replied. I turned in his arms so that I was face to face with him.

"Well-" kiss. "why-" kiss. "don't we-" kiss. "make Mason-" kiss. "a little bother or sister to ply with." kiss.

"Not for a very, very long time." This time I kissed him and it reminded me of the kiss we shared in the hospital. That kiss back there was the best kiss of my lie and this kiss came pretty damn close. Just then as if on que Mason started to stir out of sleep. Every moment of ours was disrupted by mason now, but I was sort of okay with that. Before Mason, if any one interrupted us during a moment like this they would deeply regret it for a long time. We broke apart and before I could lean down to pick him Beck had already started rocking him back to sleep.

"Are you sure you got him?" I couldn't help but ask.

"Yeah, I'm fine." Beck is always good at getting Mason to calm down.

I sat down on the couch where Beck had been and grabbed my phone the way that Beck looked now humming to our son. I had to just capture this moment. So I pushed the camera button and 'snap' the moment was captured. My new wallpaper is now Beck rocking Mason back and forth with his hair in his face humming twinkle- twinkle little star.

"Is that your little brother or something?" the guy sitting next to me whispered. I looked up at him and realized that I've never seen him before. So that explained the whole 'is that your little brother thing'. Everyone else on in the school knew about Mason. I mean its sort of hard to hide that your pregnant when your huge and still go to school. The guy sat their looking for my answer.

"Um no that's my son." I whispered swiping the phone to change the photo and to my luck another shot of the same moment appeared, just this time Beck smiled up at the camera showing off his signature cheesy grin.

"Wow he's looks just like the both of you put together. Is that your boyfriend?" he asked.

"No actually he's not."

"Wait so is he the father?" damn what is with these questions.

"Yeah." I said focusing my attention back on the lecture. He looked liked he wanted to ask me something else but didn't. I wasn't really paying attention to any of what the teacher was saying. Before I knew it the bell had rang.

"I never got your name." the boy sitting next to me said before I could make it out of the door.

"Jade." I said trying my best to make it out of the door and to my locker. I look around the hall to make sure that Beck is not around. I can not deal with another hall way scene with him again.

"Well my name is Bailey." I stopped dead in my tracks to turn around to get a good look at Bailey and now that im looking at him, he isn't that bad looking. He had dark brown hair that covered his eye brows and his eyes were the same shade as mine and Mason's. he smiled which reveled his super white teeth.

"Well ill see you later then Jade." He then turned away and headed in the other direction. I then decided not to go to my locker because there was a good chance that Beck would be at his locker putting up his books. I took my class list out of my bag and started towards my next class.

Lunch is here and I can finally leave. Thank you Helen for letting seniors go off campus for Lunch. I get to have an hour with my son all by my self at the daycare center. In all my classes so far all I do is look at pictures of Beck and Mason. I also got asked constant questions on the status of my relationship with Beck. Apparently news of this weekend traveled fast. My red head of a best friend doesn't know how to keep things to her self. All day it was 'Hey Jade, Cat told me that you left Tori's party in Friday early in tears because of something that Beck did.' I didn't respond to anyone today. I even avoided my usual group of friends so far. I had Andre in second period and made sure to sit in very back and was the first to leave and in third I had Robbie and Tori and sat in did the same thing I did in second period. When I think about it the only person I talked to all day was Bailey. Before I reached the Daycare's parking lot Becks words about daycare flooded my mind. he was right I hated Day and never wanted to put any child of mind through it. But I had no choice due to this whole avoiding Beck thing. I wasn't going to show up at Becks house and demand that his mom watch him for me. Thankfully my father and I came to terms over the weekend and he promised to pay for childcare as long as I did well in school and didn't get in any trouble. He didn't ask any questions about why I was suddenly back at home and I thanked him for that. I'm guessing by the way I cried every night this weekend locked away in my room that he sort of got the idea.

The daycare was alright I guess. The lady at the front desk this mourning said that they would take good care of him and that everyday when I'm at school and a lot of teen mothers have their babies enrolled in the facility. That's is why they have it to where you can pick up your child during lunch hour and bring them back when you have to get back to work or in my case school. I pull into the parking lot and get out of my car. I looked back at the car as I locked it and saw the 'baby on board' sign that Beck made both of us put in are cars. That's when I felt the tears start to form again. there was no way that I was going to come in the daycare crying in front of the daycare lady. So I wiped the now forming tears and headed inside.

While I was walking up to the door, Beck was coming out of it. My heart stopped dead in my chest. Why was he hear? Did he come for Mason?

"Jade." He sighed as I stood only feet away from the door. I gulped, not knowing what to say to him.

"Please Jade." His eyes where pleading and I new what he wanted.

"Just give me a second okay." I walked past him and straight to the lady at the front desk.

"Hi Jade are you ready to have Mason." The nearly 35year old said to me.

"Yep."

"Okay give me five seconds to get him and his things." She faded into the back door to where the babies where kept. When she came back a squirming Mason was in her arms. I grabbed him quickly and swaddled him in my arms. For a three month old he was still tiny.

"Jade before you leave I just wanted to let you know that a young man came in here asking to see Mason. He claimed that he was his father. I just wanted to know if you wanted him to be added to the pick-up lis-" I cut her off.

"Can you please get his diaper bag too along with his other things." I asked irritated now.

"aren't you bring him back in an 45min because if school, why do yo need all his things you dropped off this mourning?"

"Because I have a feeling that I'm not going back to school. Now can you please just get me the rest of my things." She did as I asked and I walked out side with Mason his travel and diaper bag all in hand. Beck was waiting at the one of the many tables along the side walk. They were there so the mothers could enjoy there lunch with their child without wasting gas. He stood up and grabbed the bags from my shoulders and set from down on the table. He then grabbed Mason out of my arms too as we both sat down at the table. I stared at my feet not wanting to start off the conversation. When I looked up I say that Beck was holding Mason in his arms like he did the day that I snapped that picture. He looked back at me and didn't smile this time. This made me feel so bad and miserable. I finally decided that I should start the conversation.

so i know that i didnt come through on my promise for you guys last time so i decided to make it up for you by uploading the longest chapter of this story so far(i think). i combined to chapters into one:) And since im on christmas break i should be uploading alot until the third of january because thats when i go back to school. so that means more chapters of this story and footloose! please review if i could get up to 58 (which is just 10 reviews) i will give a shout out to everyone who reviewed for this chapter:) and I'm already working on the next chapter for this story! i hope to have it up by saturday:) i have some awesome ideas:) and remember those surprises i talked about coming in this story well im thinking about adding them in the next chapter. anything you would like to see? and before i forget criticism is always welcomed:p

love,

Kendra...

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