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Chapter 5

Santana lay in her bed staring at the ceiling. Her mind was a whirlwind of confusion. That kiss haunted her. Why had she kissed him? Better yet, why did she seem to enjoy it? She punched her pillow, emitting a groan of frustration. It didn't make any sense. He was the enemy. He had even tried to mess up her relationship with Brittney. So why was she laying here, still thinking about the way his lips felt pressed against hers, the feel of his fingers gently stroking her skin? She closed her eyes tightly, as if to wish away the memory of him pressed tightly against her. She glanced at the picture of her and Brittney sitting on her nightstand.

Guilt slashed through her. She had cheated on her. Even though Brittney had gone out with Charles, she knew it was under false pretenses. She knows that Brittney only looked at it as friends going out to have fun. She always had an innocent way of looking at things. It would have never occurred to her that she was being set up. She picked up her cell phone, glancing at the screen. She had five missed calls. All from Brittney she knew. She had thought about calling her when she came back home, but she was too shaken up about Sebastian. A wave of fresh guilt rolled through her. Focus Santana she thought silently.

Her relationship with Brittney was too precious. She didn't want to lose her. She couldn't allow one kiss to set them back. They had been through so much together. As she thought about it, determination and a new resolve flowed through her. She would forget all about the kiss. She was going to become more focused on her relationship with Brittney, lavishing her with the love and attention she deserved. Happy with this new plan, she turned over and drifted off into a peaceful sleep.

Over the next couple of weeks Santana put all her effort into being the loving, doting girlfriend. She spent more time with Brittney, even going so far as taking Lord Tubbington to the veterinarian so he could get his annual shots. She even held Brittney's hand as she cried while the cat received them. After school she would go over to her house to watch her favorite shows on the Disney channel. If Brittney suspected anything, she never let on. In her mind, all was well. She was finally starting to relax, even if late at night her mind would drift back to the kiss. She was sitting with Brittney at the Lima Bean enjoying her favorite latte when the peaceful illusion she had managed to build up was shattered.

She was talking and laughing with her about an incident that happened earlier with Coach Sylvester and one of the other squad members. She had taken one look at the girl thighs and made the remark that if she wanted to look at cottage cheese she would go to the grocery store. She looked at Brittney and noticed that she was looking over her shoulder. Now this wasn't an unusual occurrence, but the bright smile and the absolute way she glowed caused her to stop talking. Brittney didn't seem to notice as she was still looking over her shoulder, her eyes brightening. She looked absolutely luminescent. Santana felt an uneasy feeling in the pit of stomach.

She had never seen her look like that. Not even with her. She wondered who or what would make her girlfriend have such a reaction. She looked over shoulder and her whole world seems to stop. A group of the Warblers had come into the shop. She could see that Charles and Sebastian were among them. Charles was looking their way with a big smile lighting up his face. He glanced at her and his smile seemed to dim a fraction. She turned to look back at Brittney, who was now looking down, a faint blush on her cheeks. Santana suddenly felt a sense of foreboding.

What the hell is going on? She thought suspiciously. She turned to give Charles one of her death glares when her gaze connected with Sebastian. Her mouth went dry and she felt that fluttering feeling. His expression was unreadable, but she thought she saw something flash in his eyes. She quickly turned around, trying to calm her racing nerves. "Hey Britt, let's go check out that new music store" she said, glad that her voice came out calm and steady. Brittney hesitated briefly before agreeing. Usually she would call her out on that, but she just wanted to get out of there. Quickly. She stood up and linked her pinky with Brittney's. That's when she realized that she would have to walk past their booth in order to leave.

She straightened her shoulders and lifted her head, putting on her haughtiest expression. She drew closer to Brittney. She stared straight ahead as they walked towards the exit, not even acknowledging them as she walked by their booth. Out of her peripheral vision she could see Charles look at Brittney. The look in his eyes made her blood freeze in her veins. His eyes were full of tenderness. She felt Brittney briefly hesitate beside her but she pulled on her pinky.

Brittney got the message and looked away. As soon as they got outside, she unlinked their pinkies and glared at Brittney. "What was that?" she asked coldly. "What?" Brittney asked. "Look Brittney, I seen the way you and Charles looked at each other. Is there something going on?" she snapped. "No. I told you that were just friends", she said, a tinge of desperation in her voice. "Really? Because it sure didn't look like it. Has anything happened between you two?" she asked her tone hard and suspicious. "No", she cried out, but Santana knew she was lying. She was never a good liar. She just seems too desperate, as if to convince herself of something.

That's when it hit her. Brittney was staring at her, her face red, and her eyes pleading and shining with unshed tears. "Do you have feelings for him Britt?" she asked slowly, shock and unbelief in her tone. Brittney was about to respond, but the door to the shop opened and the Warblers came out. They were all laughing when they spotted them. Charles looked their way and concern and worry came over his face as he stared at Brittney. She looked at Brittney, who was now staring intensely at the sidewalk. That's when she knew. She felt as if someone had punched her in the stomach. She looked back to see Sebastian staring at her. His gaze was intense, as if he could see right through her. All of a sudden it seems like too much. She rushed past Brittney, ignoring her cries and blinking back the tears that had suddenly erupted in her eyes.