So, I realize this hasn't been updated since June, which frankly is terrible and I am sorry that it's taken this long to be updated. I lost interest in this, because I never knew where I wanted it to go. So, I decided to just end it, because the ending has been planned since the beginning. And if anyone is still reading this story, thank you, and I'm sorry. Again.
Also, if I ever write a multi-fic again, I won't post it until it's complete. I've spent the last five months working on trying to complete an Allstar Weekend fic, which I actually just finished a couple days ago. So, I'll be posting that on my LJ if anyone is interested. So, don't worry, I won't do this again, because I feel awful about leaving this so long. But it's done now.
A huge thank you to Clarry, who flailed that I was starting to write again and who is always an awesome friend and beta.
Again, anyone reading this still or anything I write, thank you. I need to go and reply to reviews that have piled up. But truly, they mean the world. Not just reviews, but all of it.
Disclaimer: I don't own the boys. I wish I did, though.
The sound of an alarm blaring stirs Logan awake. Groaning, he reaches over and slams his hand around trying to shut the noise off. Finally he manages to find the button and is able to turn it off, before rolling back over into bed and wrapping his arms around the body next to him.
Kendall shifts next to him, moving onto his other side facing Logan, but his eyes are still shut.
Logan moves his hand to brush the hair in Kendall's face out of the way, which makes Kendall smile, before slowly opening his eyes.
"Hey."
"Good morning," Groggily, Kendall mumbles back.
Logan's hand is resting on Kendall's cheek, staring into his eyes, which are still trying to get used to the light that's slowly peaking in through the window. Though, it's not a lot just yet, since the sun has just started to rise.
"What time is it?"
Logan frowns, "Almost time for you to leave. The alarm just went off."
And Kendall's smile soon follows in the wake of Logan's. "Damn. So we don't have a lot of time together, do we?"
"Maybe five to ten minutes. If you shower and get ready quickly."
"You could join me, you know?" Kendall smirks.
"I could, but I'll make coffee for you instead."
"Buzzkill." But Kendall still smiles, before leaning forward and quickly kissing Logan and jumping out of bed, rushing to the bathroom.
Logan lays there for another minute, listening to the water come on, before finally dragging himself out of their bed. He grabs a pair of underwear that he assumes are his, sliding them on and shuffling to the kitchen, starting to a brew a pot of coffee for them.
Once the coffee is done and he's pouring out two cups, Kendall steps out of the bathroom, already dressed and ready. Which makes Logan grin, because when he glances at the time, he figures out they have fifteen minutes before the car comes to pick Kendall up.
"Thank you." Kendall takes the coffee Logan made for him, before leaning down to kiss him slowly, dragging it out, but then he pulls back, eyebrows furrowed, "Gross. Morning breath."
Logan slaps his chest, making Kendall cackle away, clutching the abused spot. "Yeah, well your coffee is gonna taste great after brushing your teeth." And Logan gets to laugh at the realization on Kendall's face.
"You're so mean." Kendall pouts at him, but takes a sip of his drink, making a face of disgust at the taste of toothpaste and coffee together.
"I'm mean? I told you I was making coffee, you're the idiot who decided to brush his teeth first."
"Yeah, whatever." But he continues to drink the coffee, slowly getting used to the taste. Then he looks over to their window, seeing the pinks and orange colors from the morning sky filling up their apartment. So, he grabs Logan's hand pulling him towards the glass. "Watch the sun come up with me?"
It's not as if Logan has a choice, by the way Kendall is dragging him, not that he'd say no anyway. Once they're both standing in front of the large glass window, Kendall grabs both their mugs to set them down on the nightstand, before he moves to stand behind Logan, wrapping his arms around his waist.
"I love you," Kendall whispers, as he places a kiss to the side of his neck.
"I love you, too." But Logan sighs, letting his hands rest on top of Kendall's. "I'm gonna miss you."
"I know, I'm gonna miss you, too. You better come to some of my shows."
"Dude, you really think I'm gonna be able to last two months without seeing you? Of course I'm going to, but it depends on my schedule."
And now it's Kendall's turn to sigh, "I know. This was so much easier when we were in Big Time Rush."
"Seriously. Yet at that time it seemed like the hardest thing."
Logan can feel Kendall shrug, "Eh, that's how it always works...But we can do this, right?"
Breaking his gaze off the sunrise, Logan turns in Kendall's grasp, seeing his face full of fear. "Yes. It's gonna be hard, but we've been through tougher things. Plus, we've got our phones and Skype."
"Ooh, kinky," Kendall smirks.
"Yeah, I'm sure Dustin will appreciate you jacking off with me via webcam."
"Whoa, that was your plan for webcamming? Man, fuck Dustin, we are so doing that. I'll find a way to get away from him to do that."
Chuckling, Logan shakes his head, "You are so ridiculous, you know that?"
"Yes, but it's one of the things you love about me."
"Uh huh, whatever you say."
"Asshole."
But Logan just leans up to kiss Kendall. It was intended to just be a soft quick peck, but with the fact that they won't get to do this for awhile, the kiss instantly picks up speed and heat. Logan starts to walk them back to the bed, before pushing Kendall down so he's sitting on the edge, while Logan moves to straddle him, their lips never moving away from each other's. Kendall's hands run up and down Logan's back, before settling on his ass, pulling him forward, making Logan break away from the kiss and moan.
Kendall's lips trail down to Logan's neck, biting softly, but enough to leave a small mark, wanting to give Logan a reminder of him. Besides the bruises on his hips that he left last night.
But a sound slowly starts to echo through the room, finally making them pull away, before realizing it's Kendall's phone ringing.
"Fuck," Logan mutters, moving off Kendall to let him grab his phone from his pants that are still on the floor from last night.
Kendall reluctantly answers the call, barely listening to what's being said, just letting them know he'll be down in a second. He hangs up the phone with a sigh. "I gotta go."
"I know." Logan watches as Kendall moves around the room, grabbing his backpack, guitar, and suitcase. Logan doesn't even want to move from his spot on the bed, because he's not ready to say goodbye.
Once Kendall has everything, he makes his way to the door, before turning around, "Logan, come here."
Sadly, Logan walks to where Kendall is waiting, before being pulled into a hug. He wraps his arms around Kendall, gripping tightly. They both hear Kendall's phone vibrating in his pocket and Logan knows he needs to let go. But first, he grabs Kendall by the neck and pulls him into a kiss. It takes all his willpower to back away and not just go back into Kendall's embrace or to just attack him here and there and force him to never leave their apartment.
"Love you," Kendall smiles sadly.
"Love you, too."
"Visit when you can. I need someone to hold an 'I heart Kendall' sign."
Logan chuckles, "I will. And make sure to find some time alone, so we can Skype."
"Fuck yeah I will."
They both laugh, before Logan pushes Kendall lightly, "Now go, don't make them come up here and drag you away."
Kendall sighs, "I'd rather have that. But fine, I will." He finally turns around, opening the door, but gives one last look at Logan, smiling softly. "Bye."
"See you."
And with that, the door is shut and Logan's whole body slumps at being alone.
It was inevitable for this to happen. Especially once B.T.R ended, because he knew they'd be on different schedules. Kendall and Dustin finally were able to focus on Heffron Drive and since they already had such a big fanbase, it was given that a tour would happen. And Logan went to focus on acting, already booking a film. Which luckily would be the same time Kendall would be touring, because he knew the distraction would be good. Though, it was definitely going to make seeing each other practically impossible. But they will find a way to make it work.
Plus Logan still had James by him. So at least he could go and hang out with him when they'd get a chance. But mostly, he hopes he'll be able to make Kendall's NYC show, because he knows that Carlos is planning on going to that one, since he's already in the city. Maybe he'd convince James to join him, that way a little reunion could happen. Which doesn't happen often now, since they're all doing different things, but when it did, they all felt at home. Everything felt familiar again.
Logan sighs as he turns back to their room, already hating the silence. Alone time was basically impossible for years and he thought he'd welcome it when Big Time Rush ended. But being away from his best friends and especially from Kendall, won't be easy.
He'd take the craziness and stupid fights over this. But he'll see Kendall soon and he'll probably phone up James today, maybe for lunch.
As he sits down on the bed, he stares out the window, seeing the sun is practically risen. He's gonna miss waking up to that with Kendall. But just as that thought starts to sink into his mind, his phone beeps, alerting him to a text message.
He grins when he sees it's from Kendall.
"I'll be thinking about you worldwide."
It just makes Logan laugh and shake his head at his ridiculousness and use of their song lyric. "You do realize your tour is only in the U.S., right?"
"Missing the point, Logie."
"You're ridiculous."
"And I love you, too."
Logan grins as he sets his phone down, but instantly it drops, when he sees the two mugs sitting side by side. Almost, he wants to leave them there, maybe to trick himself into thinking Kendall is still here. Though, obviously his plan is flawed, since he'll realize it's a lie the minute he doesn't get to lay down next to him or listen to him sing in the shower.
So instead, he downs his cup, before taking both of them to the kitchen and leaving them in the sink. He walks back to the bed, sitting down, while staring back out to the view of the city in the morning.
Constantly he thinks about everything between Kendall and himself. How much he fought Kendall in the beginning, well when he realized he would be working next to him for years. But he always wanted him. And he wouldn't trade what he put them through, because it led them to here. To being able to wake up next to Kendall. Something he always wanted from the first time they were together, after that party they met at and went back to Kendall's house. It was forever ago, but that memory will always feel so new to him. The feel of Kendall's body next to him, with the sun pouring on them, and that curiosity about what might happen next.
Logan never thought any of this would happen after that one night. He figured, maybe they'd see each other at least once, but then things would happen, and then never see each other again. Never did he think they'd actuallyend up in a relationship, in love, and living together, wanting to spend the rest of their lives with each other. And Logan didn't think he would have been ready for such a serious commitment at such a young age, but he wouldn't want his life any other way.
And even though it won't happen for almost two months, he'll always want to be able to watch the sun come up with Kendall next to him.