Merry Christmas, guys! Well, technically, Christmas isn't until tomorrow but on Christmas eve we all say "Merry Christmas" in my family anyway—and well, you get the point. So here, have a happy, long Kogan-y chapter as a gift that I wasn't planning on giving either but hey. I suppose I'm getting a lot of writing done this Winter Break :)

Much, much thanks to child who is cool, klolo8, and itrymybest. You guys are so awesome for reviewing! Can I internet hug you all? Oh and don't you worry guys, the Kogan happy times aren't leaving yet. Just ready your tissues and hearts for Part 2 (and don't say I didn't warn you!).

As for now I'm finally done with Chapter Five, yes! This one was a challenge because I feel they had a lot to get over, a little obstacle to overcome because committing whole-heartedly to a relationship is a big thing you know? And Logan had to come clean somehow that he had feelings for Kendall too. So happy mushy (and steamy) scenes are ahead! Enjoy! (EDIT: unclear beginning changed!)

The Kogan Trilogy:: Falling is Like This

PART I- Falling is Like This

CHAPTER FIVE:: Falling Is Like This

PART THREE: There was Sky

"So, Logan, has he done this a lot?"

The voice of James filtered through his ears, pulling Logan's attention back to the other two boys whom stood by his side against the brick wall and away from longingly watching Kendall sprint down the sidewalk in which they had just came.

"Kind of…? I mean, I personally wouldn't know since we've only known each other for so long but this did happen during the first week of school when we met." Logan admitted as he offered a shrug. "Left his wallet in the car in the same way, except it was raining. I ended up having to pay for him."

Carlos gave a laugh, "It sounds like him! Kendall tends to become scatter brained when he's nervous or under pressure."

"Well, we did just wrap up on our mid-terms this past week."

"Oh man, how'd that go? Did Kendall look like he was about to wreck a house?"

"What?" Logan was taken aback by Carlos' statement.

James' lips upturned into a smile, quickly explaining, "He means to ask if Kendall looked frustrated in his studying phase. He was never really the type to be calm over tests. He hated them so much that when Carlos and I would pay visits we would see his books thrown about on his bedroom floor. He'd be sitting on his bed on his laptop playing games. Believe it or not, we had to fight him to get the computer outta his hands. It was hard to get him to study."

"Sometimes it was really fun." Carlos added.

James rolled his eyes at this, "Fun for you. You like wrestling people, whereas I would like to stay alive without Kendall's nails scathing off my skin okay."

Logan's eyes were widened in disbelief at this explanation. "Wow, when he said he thought he was going to fail school he really meant it."

"It's true, he had some rough patches." Carlos gave a wry smile in memory at this. "I hope this doesn't sway your opinion on him."

Logan shook his head, "Not at all. It's actually surprising to hear because he just doesn't seem that reckless to do things like that anymore."

James gave a whistle upon hearing this, "Wow, he's finally matured in college. Never thought I'd live the day to see Kendall study on his own without trying to rip my face off."

Logan gave a small laugh, "That bad, huh? Then you'd be surprised at the change, I should record our next study session."

"Do it and then send me two copies, that way I can send one to his mom so we can seriously discuss making "Kendall finally studies on his own" a holiday."

Carlos rolled his eyes at his boyfriend's ridiculous teasing. He would've shoved him, but he figured a bit of roughhousing is unnecessary in this situation where they were supposed to be getting reacquainted with Kendall's current significant other, which so far, seemed to be a pretty nice guy. He's a little on the shy side but he's got honesty going for him and that wasn't at all too much of a bad thing. "So, Logan is it? What exactly are you majoring in?"

"Oh, chemistry. I'm actually thinking about becoming a doctor so this'll only be my first step towards my medical degree—unless, of course I find chemistry more appealing. Then I guess I may stick towards just becoming a chemical engineer."

James and Carlos both looked at each other with wide eyes. Kendall had a smart one on his hands and that, of course, was a goldmine for a stable supporting future. Although, they were sure, that their friend wouldn't be so shallow as to only get with the brunet because of that.

It was still impressive though.

"Those are both equally tough professions." James admitted as Carlos followed with a silent nod of his own.

Logan suddenly felt embarrassed, quickly catching on that the guys he was talking to probably didn't have such high aspirations as himself. He felt the high school shadows coming back, the name callings of "nerd" and "geek" were fast at resurfacing from old memories. He was suddenly afraid of James and Carlos rejecting him and he didn't know why. He thought he stopped giving a damn about fellow high school student's opinions after graduation, but they were different. Could it be because they were Kendall's closest friends?

Carlos, good at reading emotions as he was ever, noticed the shift in atmosphere and held a hand up, as if to tell him to halt his train of thought, as he said, "Dude, that's nothing to be ashamed of. There's nothing wrong with having the drive to chase after your dreams, even if yours are a bit heavier on the studying side than ours."

"That just means Carlos and I look up to ya for it. We could never hit the books like you can." James added.

The tension in his shoulders dissipated and he couldn't help a silent breath of relief as a small smile graced his features. How ridiculous of him, yet he was unable to dismiss the happiness that surged through his chest when James said that.

Kendall obviously had the coolest friends.

Or maybe hockey jocks were never as bad as he'd thought.

"Anyway," he pushed the thoughts out of his mind as he returned to their conversation at hand, "What exactly are you two majoring in then if it's not heavy on books?"

"We're majoring in theatre at an Arts school in California." James admitted simply.

"Our dream is to be on Broadway." Carlos said this excitingly, although James cleared his throat right after. "Okay, my dream is to be on Broadway. James is in it to be an actor. He wants to star in a couple films."

"Though I wouldn't mind joining you on Broadway after, I do enjoy my singing." James flashed a smile at the shorter boy besides him. Carlos' eyes lit up at this and Logan could've swore he'd seen something in that split second the Latino looked up at him but, honestly, it'd happened so fast he wasn't sure if he'd imagined it.

Instead he gave a shake of the head as he admitted, "You guys are crazy if you think I'm the hardest working one here. I mean, your professions may not circle around books and numbers but you really have to have a drive to aspire to acting and Broadway. I should be looking up to you guys."

"Oh, wow" was all that James could say in response to this statement and Logan noticed the crinkling at the corner of his eyes just then.

He was alarmed, "I didn't say anything wrong did I? Because if I did I'm sor-"

"No, no, you didn't." The taller brunet shook his head as he smiled. "It's just that… no one's ever said stuff like that to me before when I told them about pursing an acting career. They always looked down at me in pity for thinking that I'd ever—ah, why am I bringing it up, it's all in the past. Just, thanks. A lot."

Logan gave a curt nod in his direction, giving a simple "no problem" in response before leaning back against the brick wall, smiling shyly to himself as he looked out to the crowd of people passing by. There was always a fulfilling feeling that overcame him whenever he found out that his words, just the simple use of his voice, was enough to touch someone's life, shed light on it, give them strength. He was glad he was able to do that for one of Kendall's friends.

The brunet had been so absorbed in his thoughts that he hadn't noticed James and Carlos exchanging a couple of words briefly before coming to a silent agreement. It was then that Carlos spoke, his blunt words bringing Logan's attention back over, "We want to let you know that we're happy for you."

Logan was puzzled, "What?"

"You and Kendall." He clarified.

Logan willed the heat rushing to his cheeks to go away, inwardly scolding himself for not mentally preparing for this. Why didn't he think Kendall's best-friends wouldn't know about them? Of course Kendall would tell! It felt strange to know that other people knew about them though, the thought causing him to nervously bite down on his bottom lip.

"I'll admit I wasn't so sure about letting Kendall just go off with some guy he just met at PWU—especially after claiming he "loves" you because you just can't say that about anyone—but now that we've talked to you some I think, well, you're great." James gave a nod after he said this. Carlos agreeing by adding that Logan was probably "the best person he's ever gone out with, no offense to his exes".

But what really killed him in their comments was when James said he knew he'd do nothing to hurt him. That really felt like a knife to the gut and Logan almost winced out loud.

How could he even possibly think of backing out from his and Kendall's relationship now? His closest childhood friends had just basically given him blessing, they had faith in him.

'Had it ever crossed your mind that Kendall might've brought them over just for that? He wants to bring you further into his life.'

Gulping at the realization, Logan forced a smile with hurting lips as he replied with a strained "thanks". James and Carlos offered nods graced with joy for their best-friend which only made Logan cringe and want to bury himself in a pit. He didn't deserve this, didn't deserve this when he was convincing himself just a while ago to end everything.

"Hey!" The three of them heard a voice call out, turning to see Kendall rushing back right in the nick of time, jogging towards them as he shoved his car keys back in his pockets, a wide-spread grin gracing his features as his eyes caught Logan's like they always seemed to.

Unlike other times, Logan only felt worse in seeing how elated the blonde was about today. The words of Carlos and James kept repeating over and over again in his mind about "making him happy" and, supposedly, "never going to hurt him" as he watched the taller all but emerge from the bustling crowd of people toward them, alive, driven. Why would he want to hurt such a happy creature? Why would he want to wipe that gorgeous smile off of Kendall's face with just a couple of words?

'All because of this dumb paranoia you have that things will go wrong? That's such a selfish request.'

Or was it just paranoia?

Because Logan knew that all love and relationships, especially at a young age, were usually not forever-lasting. It was common in the television programs he'd watched. He'd both heard and seen it first hand with his relatives. He'd calculated statistics. They all lost.

He didn't want to lose Kendall. Yet, looking back to those stats, wasn't he bound to?

'What do I do?'

His thinking seemed to take up hours, despite the fact that it took only a little over a minute, Kendall appearing at his side in that time, giving him a small shake of the shoulder as he came to a stop and looked up at his friends. "So, what did I miss?"

"Nothing much, just a simple conversation," James responded casually.

"Really, care to fill me in?" The blonde prompted, excited to hear all that had been talked about.

Carlos and James shared a knowing, playful glance before turning back to face the blonde, Carlos speaking simply, "Nah, we'll leave you to guess and figure out for yourself."

"All you need to know is that we're cool with your buddy, Logan." James put an arm around the shorter boy, flashing him a smile briefly before continuing, "He's pretty awesome for a kid who wants to get a medical degree."

"And you said he was Valedictorian of our school, right?" Carlos chirped in. "Weird to think how we weren't friends before and all."

"See, that's what I thought!" Kendall exclaimed.

"Whoa, hold up, you were our Valedictorian?" James was gaping as he stared down at the boy he still held in at arm's length, apparently having missed that explanation from Kendall.

"Ah, it's just Valedictorian, no big deal." Logan gave a casual shrug not wanting to draw attention to it.

"Oh, "just Valedictorian" he says." James emphasized this by making quotation marks with his hands, letting Logan slip away from his hold to stand off to the side. The taller brunet shot him a look before adding, "It is totally a big deal dude, don't even lie about it."

Logan chuckled lightly, still not giving in, "No, no, it really isn't."

Carlos couldn't help shoving James lightly on the shoulder, telling him to "shut up, you're embarrassing him" though the three were each sharing small laughs.

"I'm glad you guys are hitting it off. It's relieving." Kendall spoke brightly, bringing them all back to look at him.

"What do you mean relieving? Did you actually think we weren't gonna get along with him?" James said this with a sense of disbelief.

"No, I had no doubt Carlos would, but you were another question. I thought for sure Logan would get bored of listening to you talk all about yourself." Kendall teased, offering a smirk.

James' expression instantly mirrored his as he shook his head, "You really think you're being funny don't you."

"I'm not being funny, just honest."

"Well haha, consider that my laugh. Just wait, one day you'll regret poking fun at me."

"I don't think I will."

Logan was puzzled at this, turning his head to glance over to Carlos who stood chuckling besides him. He called the Latino's attention with his inquiry, "What exactly is going on between them?"

"Oh, you don't have to worry about it, they aren't serious." Carlos replied. "James and Kendall just have this love/hate thing with their friendship and part of it involves crude humor. I don't really get it either, but it's fun to watch."

Logan raised an eyebrow, "Have they been this way ever since they meet each other?"

"Pretty much."

The brunet blinked once only in minute surprise. He turned back to see that the two were still caught up in their bickering, hearing James call Kendall something along the lines of "big eye-browed mop-headed giraffe" before he commented, "Wow, unique friendship."

Carlos chuckled, "You'll get used to it."

"Kendall that is way too much!"

The blonde laughed at the panic-stricken expression on his boyfriend's face as he watched him swirl a whole glob of frozen dairy over the top brim of his cup. It wasn't even hovering over the edge, no, it was piled! Like a mountain rising from the depths of a small plastic island.

"Relax Logie, you can never have too much frozen yogurt."

"Yes you can, and you've gone past "too much" that," the brunet emphasized by pointing to the giant glob the blonde cradled near his chest, "that is excessive!"

The blonde only offered a shrug, "Well, it can't do much harm. I mean, they say yogurt is supposed to be a healthy, right? I'm just getting extra health points."

"Too much of anything is bad, Kendall, no matter how healthy it is. And besides, if you haven't realized, we are crossing over into winter soon. I, for one, do not want you to freeze." Logan stated straightforwardly as he snatched the blonde's cup out of his grasp before reaching over the counter for a spoon. The brunet then set to work on splitting up the dairy glob, pouring the excessive extra amount into his empty bowl. "Geez, now you've got me seriously worried about your eating habits."

"Well, that's why I have a smart and caring guy like you to watch out for me." Kendall said this softly as he placed his hands on the shorter boy's shoulders, discreetly planting a kiss to the back of Logan's head.

The brunet tensed up at this, glancing over at the taller out of the corner of his eyes as he hissed, "Kendall, we are in public."

The jock let out a sigh, not wanting to back away from being in such a nice proximity so he threw out the only excuse he could think of, "But no one's looking."

Logan could only give a small laugh at this, "Yeah, I'm sure the lady and her kids next to us are just ghosts or figments of our imaginations."

With a groan Kendall reluctantly, parted, his hands missing the comforting touch of Logan's shoulders instantly, though he sought to replace it by shoving them in his pockets. It wasn't exactly quite the same and he found that he was starting to despise his idea of taking the brunet out. Okay, sure, he had to admit walking around the plaza with him and his friends was fun, but right now he'd prefer being alone in a room with Logan and being able to hold him all he wanted. It was better than this.

"Alright, there we go, an even split." Logan seemed satisfied with his work as he grabbed an extra spoon for himself, turning back to Kendall to hand him his now decent sized desert. They exchanged small smiles, Kendall coming to grab the cup from Logan's extended hand, fingers lingering just a little bit longer than normal. He couldn't help himself. It was for his sanity.

Logan didn't seem to mind though, or at least that's what the blonde assumed when he didn't comment or give any extreme reaction in response.

"James!" The two heard a significantly louder high-pitched whine come from behind and the familiarity of the voice drew both their attentions.

Their eyes were met with the scene of James and Carlos standing next to each other at the separate "toppings" booth in the back. The reason for Carlos' whining was next-to-obvious, the taller boy holding his cup of yogurt over his head—no, make that theirs, Logan corrected himself in his mind. They'd decided to share a bowl, a bowl that, currently, James was keeping out of Carlos' reach.

"Dude, why do you have to go and do this now?" Carlos looked absolutely exasperated. "It's not fair especially when you know there's a new flavor I wanted to try and-"

James then leaned down and said something so quiet it was inaudible for Kendall and Logan to hear from their distance that made Carlos instantly turn quiet. Logan could only wonder what it was for about five seconds before he was witnessing the two boys before him share a quick, full-on-lips kiss. The same guys he'd only met moments ago that he'd been told were "friends"!

Or rather, during introduction they'd been introduced as "Kendall's friends". He never did ask what relationship they had with each other, though he wouldn't have ever guessed it to be this. Then that meant…

Kendall, on the other hand, was a little stirred up by this daring action from his friends himself. Really, he hadn't expected them to just kiss in front of Logan, in front of everyone in the public like this. The last time he was with them he remembered that they were so guarded about PDA. Then again, college did tend to change people. Maybe they saw what he figured already, that other people's opinions didn't matter, therefore, why should they care?

The blonde had to congratulate them for that in his mind. It was good for their well-being and, at the moment, it saved him from having to deal with trying to come up with a way to break to Logan that his two best-friends were dating each other. It had already put him one step further in his plan.

"Hey, James, Carlos," Kendall called over to his companions whom were now openly flirting with each other, goofy smiles and all, the frozen treat forgotten on the counter besides them.

"Yeah," they had both echoed back in unison, looking too lost in their glee to really pay attention to others, even if they were making eye contact with him.

"Logan and I are going outside to eat, care to join?"

"Sure, we'll go." James gave a nod.

"Just give us a minute." Carlos signaled with a raised finger before catching eyes with his boyfriend, the two engaging back in their personal conversation.

"Come on then Logie, let's head out." Kendall urged the boy to follow with a tug to his sleeves.

The brunet was instantly confused—he was following Kendall somewhere he didn't know—but he decided not to question it. He must've said something while he was caught up in his thoughts which, by the way, needed a really good cleaning right about now.

They sat on a bench outside of the yogurt shop, in one of the many opened courtyards of this opened shopping center in the middle of town. Kendall and Logan both shared a seat on one side while James and Carlos shared one across, the cement based fountain placed in the middle only obscuring them from each other's sight a tad bit. Not that they didn't mind, James and Carlos had their own couple-y things to talk about, while Kendall and Logan had different matters to discuss at hand. They had issues to clear up and situations to explain, though they really weren't getting anywhere in the silence of each other's comfort.

Both knew that they had to talk sooner or later but Kendall didn't want to turn serious first and neither did Logan. Someone had to speak eventually, however. They really couldn't stay here all day and Logan, being the rational one, realized this and decided to be the one to take the jump.

"So…" he started out almost cautiously, stirring what was left of the yogurt in his cup languidly as he looked down at the melted liquid in his lap. "Were you planning to even… tell me at all about… your friends?"

"Yeah."

His question was answered so quickly that Logan's head could only snap up to meet Kendall's eyes. They were honest, of course they were, why did he ever think that Kendall would keep secrets from him?

"I was thinking of a good way to break it to you before they did anything but, well, you see how that worked out." Kendall briefly motioned out to the couple across. "I mean, I didn't wanna say it flat out at first because I didn't want you to judge them."

"Kendall, I'm not narrow-minded." Logan responded straightforwardly. "I wouldn't judge your friends just because they are in love with each other. Gender doesn't matter and… doesn't the fact that I was okay with your feelings for me prove anything?"

Kendall gave a smile at this, agreeing softly, "Yeah, yeah it does."

Logan returned the gesture, getting lost in those kind green eyes of the other boy as he stared at him lovingly before forcing his head away. He wasn't supposed to be doing those sorts of things, not now.

The brunet distracted himself by looking over to James and Carlos who talked across. At the moment he watched as the two took turns in spoon-feeding each other, neither one being the slightest bit embarrassed, their eyes really only seeing them and no one else. Logan noted their level of happiness, the glow seemed to radiate all the way over here.

They were totally in love.

"I would have never guessed they were even a thing…" Logan admitted out loud. "I mean, I thought I saw something but I thought maybe it was in my head."

Kendall laughed at this, "A lot of people don't see it at first either. James and Carlos appear so distinct from each other, even more so when you get to know them, yet somehow they're compatible."

"Hm," Logan frowned in thought, giving their conversation a brief pause before asking, "how long have they been in a relationship?"

"Well, it's been since September of their sophomore year so…" Kendall scrunched his nose up in thought as he calculated, "I'd say about three years and a couple of weeks since we're in October."

"Wow, that's a pretty stable relationship considering it started from high school." Logan leaned back into the bench, feeling genuinely impressed since he really hadn't seen much couples in school last for more than a couple months. Heck, he even heard about a relationship that only lasted for 48 hours.

"I think they're in it for a long run." Kendall said this as he tossed his empty cup into the garbage bin a couple feet away before situating himself comfortably back against the bench. "They were practically attached at the hip ever since they knew each other. I mean, they clicked right away and they had the chemistry going, only it took them until 16 to see it was more than friendship. Now I guess, I don't know, but their relationship since then has been growing stronger with every passing day."

"Really," Logan couldn't even hide the disbelief in his voice as he asked this.

"Yeah, I can't even see them breaking up anytime soon, or rather at all." Kendall stated honestly as he watched his two friends poke at each other from across the fountain. He couldn't help but smile when he watched James pull in Carlos close to his side as he whispered something in the shorter boy's ear that made him break out into a radiant grin. Kendall couldn't express how happy he was for the two of them that had found each other. They deserved every pleasant moment they were having.

Logan, on the other hand, was once again spiraling into another whirlwind of thoughts. He had to be honest, he couldn't believe that James and Carlos could even have such a strong relationship, even though they'd only been going out for three years, and not one obstacle has succeeded in tearing them apart? Kendall even said they were different, how could two people like that even think a relationship could work? He always thought it wouldn't, thought petty things such as "high school love" could not last, yet here were two guys before him proving it all wrong. They were young, in bliss, complete.

He was suddenly overcome with a longing, a slight pang of jealousy, and before he could stop himself the shy words left his lips. "Why can't we be like that?"

The blonde caught these words and his eyes lit up in alert. This was the response he'd been wanting from Logan all along. His plan was in full motion and he wasn't going to waste this opening.

Kendall moved in closer to the brunet, speaking sharply, "Logan, talk to me."

The brunet closed his eyes, exhaling a loud sigh. "I don't even know Kendall. It all sounds like really stupid worrying now that I think about it."

"No matter how much you may think so, you still gotta talk to me about it. We have to communicate. Otherwise I can't help you fix it." Kendall rested a hand lightly on Logan's outstretched wrist. "I don't want you to face your problems alone Logie, I don't want you to have problems period. So you have to talk to let me help you fix it."

Logan opened his eyes, staring back at the man he came to trust before blurting, "I was thinking about breaking up with you."

The blonde's heart stopped upon hearing these words. This was bad. This was really bad. Did Logan realize that what he felt with Kendall wasn't real? Did he not like him? Did he ever like him at all? All irrational thoughts raced through his head in this moment and he could only choke out a painful sounding, "What?"

Logan opened his eyes to look at the jock and his chest instantly squeezed tight at the sight of all the hurt that was swimming in his eyes. That broken disdain expression, the strained grip that Kendall now had on the edges of the bench, he looked like he was trying to keep himself together and Logan hated how just with those words he had brought the other to such a broken state so quickly. It practically made him want to hurt himself.

"Keyword being "thinking"," Logan said quickly, wanting to say anything, anything to ease the growing pain he felt inside of himself at hurting someone he cared so deeply about. "I—I'd thought there was rationality behind it! I still kind of do b-but ending this would hurt and I—no, this isn't worth talking about. Sorry, I'm gonna go-"

Kendall was quick to snatch the brunet's wrists just as he was about to get up, effectively forcing him back onto the bench. Logan was staring at him with a blank expression but Kendall knew it was all a mask for the emotions underneath. The blonde spoke softly, "You're not going anywhere. Not until I hear what this is about. Talk to me."

Logan huffed combing his hands through his hair messily, already feeling frustrated in explanation, even though he hadn't even talked much. "Kendall, don't you know—don't you know what happens after break ups?"

"Well it's usually messy. Depending on the situation it can get real bad." Kendall replied with eyebrows furrowed as he stared at the smaller genius. "But I still don't see what this has to do with us."

"It has everything to do with us." Logan then gave a sigh, eyes drifting away as he admitted, "I don't want to risk the chance of us hating each other after this blows over, that's why I think we can't get this close. I'd rather have you as a friend than not have you in my life at all."

The blonde didn't even second think his action, immediately throwing his arms around the shorter boy's shoulder and holding him tight. "Why Logan, why would you even think that I'd want to ever willingly end this with you, that I'd ever hate you?"

Logan broke himself out of Kendall's grasp then, the warmth only providing thoughts he wanted to avoid, trying to coax him to give in. He set a straight face as he turned to the jock with cold eyes, "It happens to everyone Kendall. I'm sorry to burst your fantasy bubble, but we all know that in today's history young couples don't even have a chance at lasting. I've seen it from my cousins, my parents, and there's no doubt we'll be any different."

"That's because you've been on the wrong side of the spectrum!" Kendall couldn't help shouting, "You only believe that because you've seen more of the bad happen around you! There are plenty of young couples that have lasting relationships, my grandparents were one of them, so were my aunt and uncle, and what about James and Carlos? Are you going to deny what they have isn't real?"

"Kendall-"

"And what's wrong with love?" The blonde's voice cracked in saying this, the brunet noticing those green eyes shaking. "What's wrong with trying? What if what we have is so much more than we think it is. How will we know without giving it a shot?"

"But… but we'll lose everything we used to be if this turns out bad." Logan winced.

"The chance to love is worth anything Logan." Kendall took the pale boy's small hands in his grasp then, eyes locked. "I know what I'm saying sounds cheesy, but my mom has always told me "love is the most beautiful thing in the world" and, if there's anything I believe in, it's that emotion. I think… I think realizing what I feel for you is probably the best thing to happen in my life. That's why I want to share it with you. I want to explore our possibilities because I feel… I feel this deep connection between us that I've never shared with anyone else."

The brunet was entirely speechless.

"And the best thing about this is that James told me that the reason he thinks he's so intact with Carlos is because he felt a deep connection they shared that he had with no one else before. Call me crazy but, I know I'm feeling that right now, with you, and since I have faith in their relationship then I have so much faith in us."

"Oh…"

The blonde leaned forward and pressed his forehead up against Logan's, eyes closed as he savored the moment of it all, in being so close to this boy he felt so much for. He whispered, "Let's fall in love Logan. I want to lose myself with you. I want it so badly."

The genius could barely handle it. Kendall's warm hands clasped so tightly around his own, his intoxicating scent filling his nostrils, his sweet voice uttering words of endearing promise—it was over-powering his conscious in every possible way. His heart was pounding hard, mind reeling, and he tried to think of a time when he last cared this much about one person in every single way.

There was none.

There was never a time someone desperately tried to chase him, declared deep words and thoughts upon conversations, wanted to hold him whenever he got the chance—and Logan liked it. He liked it all.

He wanted every kiss, every touch, and every moment with hardly any hesitation. He wanted Kendall's face to light up when he saw him. He wanted the blonde to think of him before bed, to call him up when he was lonely, to find out his deepest thoughts, to get to know him.

He wanted Kendall.

And, damn it, could he really deny himself what he wanted to just go back to being friends? Could he really stand seeing Kendall get with someone else? Could he really watch as those green-eyes, full of such devotion, fell upon someone else?

When his stomach twisted uncomfortably at those thoughts, he knew.

The words left his mouth in a volume so low that it could hardly be called a whisper, gentle breath ghosting across Kendall's pink lips only centimeters away. "I think I'm already falling."

They lunged forward at the same time, mouths crashing and hearts pounding as hands came to tightly grasp at the shoulders, back. Tongues intertwined and hairs were pulled, soft moans exchanged with their chests pressed up against the other. They were a whole lot more obscene than Carlos and James across from them, but that was because they were a couple exploding with passion, enveloped in newfound feelings.

They were two young men taking chances, discovering themselves, and falling in love.