Hey everyone! Here is chapter number four. Sorry I didn't post this yesterday… the site wasn't letting me sign in! Anyone else have any problems yesterday?

Anyways, this is for the Sam fans out there- this chapter's for you.

Thanks for reading,

Jules

Disclaimer: I do not own Rookie Blue unfortunately!

Chapter 4: Signals Crossed

"I don't want anything to happen to you."

Those were the last words he had spoken to McNally today, and they were laced with the truth. There was more truth behind those words than she could ever guess.

It was true. He didn't want anything to happen to her. He didn't know what he would do if something did happen.

In the short time that he had known her and become her training officer, he had come to care about her. A lot. More than he was supposed to, and more than he was willing to admit.

Today had been a terrible day.

In all honesty, he had woken up excited for this shift. Excited to see her doing the undercover prostitute sting.

But he was also worried about her. He knew she had a tendency to over think things, and put too much pressure on herself.

He didn't know if she was ready for this, and that scared him.

So he had approached her before setting out, to make sure she was ready. She had answered him with as much confidence as she could muster. She didn't convince him in the slightest, but he couldn't turn his back on her now. The only thing left for him to do was back her up. As good partners always do.

Sitting in the cover apartment, watching her on the street, he was worried. Really worried. He could see how uncomfortable she was down there. Totally out of her element.

And then when that creep approached her, he saw how flustered she got. She didn't know what to do.

It physically pained him to see her so uncomfortable.

And when they called her in, he could tell how upset she was. Upset at herself, for not being perfect.

She was way too hard on herself.

But he could also see how scared she was. That guy had really gotten to her. More than she would admit.

And then he had to send her back to the station. Boyko's orders, after all.

He had mixed feelings about doing that. He was sad to send her away, because he could see how upset and frustrated she was. But he was also happy. Happy she was going back to the station. Back to safety. Out of harms way.

If only he knew what she would get up to without him.

When he had gotten back to the station, he had gone to check on her. See if she was alright. But he couldn't find her anywhere.

Then, when he got the call about her and Epstein… Well, he didn't know how he felt.

He was angry. Really angry. At her. But not for the reasons she thought.

He did care about civilian lives, and what she had done with Sadie was unbelievable careless. Careless and stupid.

But the real reason he was angry went a whole lot deeper.

He could have lost her tonight.

She could have been killed. She almost was, until Epstein got there just in time.

She had put her own life in danger tonight, to try and make up for her performance earlier. He should have known.

She wasn't very hard to read. He knew how hard she was on herself, and how she always needed to fix her mistakes.

She had put herself in danger, and almost gotten killed. And he hadn't been there to protect her.

So he got angry at her. But he wasn't, really. That was just his coping mechanism.

He wasn't very good at showing emotions. Never had been. He didn't know how to deal with them.

He always locked them away.

But after he had gotten mad at her, he had seen how upset she was. How truly sorry. She regretted what she had done with Sadie, even though it had led to a big bust. She was a good cop, through and through.

The look in her eyes, after he had yelled at her, was still plaguing him. So he had gone to find her once they were back at the station. To apologize.

That's when the words slipped out.

"I don't want anything to happen to you."

On the surface, they seemed innocent. Something a training officer would say to his rookie.

But they weren't that innocent.

And their relationship wasn't just training officer and rookie either.

There was something more going on between them, but they were both too scared to admit it. He knew he sure was.

He hadn't felt this way about someone in as long as he could remember.

And that scared the shit out of him.

Another chapter done!

Thank you all so much for reading this. Please leave me a quick review before you go!

Once again, if you have any suggestions for later chapters, please send me a message!

Jules