It was the start of another day, another miserable, hell-filled nightmare. Allen still hadn't moved on after the accident. He hadn't been injured, well not physically at least, but he couldn't get his mind off that one person; that one person whose existence had given his life a meaning. He had become extremely depressed, and it showed. Nobody knew what had happened to the cheerful, smiling Allen they knew and loved though, because their relationship had been kept a secret. However as time went on, he healed; well that's how it appeared. He knew though, that no matter how much he smiled, he would never be able to dismiss his feelings for that person. He tried; he really did, to get over it. He started dating Lenalee, his best friend, and moved in with her. However try as he might, as he really did love Lenalee, it would never be the same.

I love you, baKanda.

I love you too, Moyashi.

Oh how he longed for the gentle touch, and the silky hair of his old boyfriend. He shook his head. What was he thinking? For all he knew, Kanda could be dead. That was the worst mistake of his life. He had left before Kanda had awoken in the hospital, after staying with him day and night for weeks upon end. Without looking back, he had kept walking, following the words Mana had given him. Now he regretted that more than ever. Every day passed slower than the last, and every day his relationship with Lenalee seemed more and more doomed. Yet he kept walking. It had become natural to him by now; after all it had been… three years since the accident. As he got out of bed, careful not to disturb Lenalee, his mind was still occupied with Kanda. He got dressed in his usual attire (dress pants, a white shirt, a vest, and a tie), then proceeded to the kitchen for breakfast. He had just turned on the stove to make scrambled eggs, when Lenalee walked in.

"Morning Allen! You're up early today." She said with a smile. Allen shrugged, his mind not completely awake,

"I thought I'd make you breakfast this morning since you always make it for me. Besides I have work today."

"Okay, thanks! I love your cooking anyways." She winked. And with that, Allen went back to making breakfast. This was how it always was with the two of them. No matter how hard they tried to be caring and loving for each other, they both knew that they weren't meant to be more than friends. This showed during the awkward period in which they sat down and ate, with nothing to talk about. When they finally finished eating the delicious breakfast Allen had prepared, he said goodbye to Lenalee and left after giving her a quick peck on the cheek.

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As Allen walked out of their apartment and down the stairs, the slight breeze was refreshing with a fresh, springtime scent in the air, and cherry blossoms danced in the air. Despite the rare beauty, it only depressed him. All he could think of was Kanda, the gracefulness, the scent, the beauty, they were all represented there. As he reminisced about the wonderful past he almost didn't notice all the commotion ahead of him. Allen looked up to see a bunch girls squealing. As he started to walk away, something caught his eye. Was that a raven colored ponytail he just saw? He kept walking. There was no way that could have been him, but even so he could feel his heart beating loudly in his chest. He kept walking. He refused to turn around and give himself false hope. He did not want to be disappointed again. He needed to assume Kanda was dead, and move on. He was still not completely calmed down by the time he entered the small restaurant he worked at. Why did that accident happen, why couldn't things go back to how they used to be? Every morning he awoke with this wish, and every morning he was let down.

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Kanda sighed as he walked down the path suddenly, flash, he saw a steak of white hair. He turned his head to see the disappearing figure of a young teenage boy walking away hurriedly. His hair was a shimmering white shade.

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Okay, that's it for this chapter… I think it's a bit longer :D I hope you liked it!

Reviews are appreciated!

-pathless