I was the first person to wake up. I looked to my right to see Niall had his arms wrapped around me. I looked down and saw we somehow intertwined our legs and had the same sleep bag draped over the top half of us. Niall was still sleeping soundly and looking so cute. I couldn't wake him up by moving! I sighed and grabbed my phone next to me and went on twitter. I took a picture of Niall sleeping and posted it: " ZaraBaabbyy: Mwaahah NiallOfficial dude ya still sleeping ;) WAKE UP!" I then looked over and saw each of the girls asleep on the boys chests. Can't take pictures. Damn. I looked though my mentions and noticed i had a few creepy tweets about the Niall picture. Some people thought we were dating. Which we're not. Yet. Hopefully. I decided to clear some of the things up. " ZaraBaabbyy: Guys chill, Had a sleepover with the girls, Boys crashed it, Niall was next to me:)" I clicked off my twitter and then went onto fruit ninja. I love this app!

30 minutes later Niall started to stir beside me. He opened his eyes and looked up at me smiling. "Morning beautiful" he said in his thick irish accent. I swear i just melted. I started blushing and hid my face in his chest. "Awwwh" he started to coo at me. "Go away" I mumbled into his chest. He started to get up. "Well if you're sure!" I could tell he had a smirk on. "You're so annoying!" I groaned sitting up. I looked at the clock and saw it was 10am. Time to wake these annoying people up. "Niiiaalllerr." I batted my eyelashes at him and he rolled his eyes. "Zaaarrrraaaa" He copied my action. "Let's wake these bitches up" He smirked at me. "Got any water balloons and water guns?" I smirked thinking exactly what he thought. "You know it!" We crept out into the kitchen and i went under the sink to where everything was kept. We filled up loads of balloons and put them in the bucket. Then the water guns.

"3...2..1... go" Niall whispered. We started chucking the balloons at everyone then sprayed them with the guns. Everyone woke up screaming and holding onto each other. When the water ran out me and Niall landed on the floor in fits of giggles. "THAT WAS ON FUNNY ZARA LOUISE PAYNE." I gulped when Liam stood right in front of me looking mad as ever. I gulped and looked at the floor. "HOW COULD YOU BE SO STUPID?! HUH?! AND YOU NIALL YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE 18 FOR GOODNESS SAKE?! WHAT WAS EVEN THE POINT?! HUH?! CLEAN UP THIS MESS RIGHT NOW ZARA OR YOU WON'T BE COMING TO AMERICA WITH US." I looked up at him with tears in my eyes. "What so i won't get to see you again for months on end huh?! Like normal. What's new! I thought it would be funny. But no you have to always act like this. The bigger and better person! I was going to clear the mess up anyway! That's the reason the 2 mops were in the corner. But you know what. Stuff you!" I stood up and tried to wipe some of my tears away. Liam grabbed hold of my arm. He looked calmer than 2 seconds ago and he spoke softly to me "Zara i'm-" I pushed him off me and gave him a cold look. "Don't. Touch. Me" I walked upstairs into my room and collapsed on my bed and sighed. Maybe Megan was right. He doesn't want to be here.

I pulled down my Pj bottoms and stared at my legs in the mirror. I had cuts going all the way down my leg, I had scars too. I continued to stare and started crying again. They looked awful! My door opened and Niall walked in, "Zara come- OH MY GOSH!" His eyes widened at my legs and grabbed my Pj bottoms and put them on. Niall still stood there. I pulled him inside my room and shut the door. "Don't tell anyone Niall. I am serious." He just shook his head at me. "Zara, You need help." I shook my head. "I've stopped." He gave me a weird look. "It looked like it... Seriously Zara. I can't not tell someone! Liam and your Mum need to know!" I started crying again. "Please Niall don't, If i promise never to do it again will you PLEASE not tell them. I don't want them to know, I just can't! They'll be disappointed in me, Liam will leave, And then i'd be stuck with Mum who would hate me forever!" He pulled me onto his lap and rubbed my back soothingly. "Shhh okay. Ugh! I should really tell them but... This may make you worse... And i know they deserve to know, And they will definitely not hate you! They'll worry about you, and what turned you to doing this to yourself! But Look at me Zara-" I looked up into his eyes worried about what he's going to say next, and he carried on, "If i don't tell them, I need to KNOW that you're never going to do it again. You have to promise me you will never do it, And trust me, I will make sure someone is with you at all times if i have to, And i will make sure you have nothing sharp, You will NEVER do that again! You don't need too, You're the most beautiful girl i know, And you shouldn't be doing this to yourself baby. Okay" I cried on to his shoulder and nodded my head. "I promise! I d-don't w-want to either. I just couldn't cope. B-but i'm g-getting better." And i will keep that promise no matter what. "Good" He kissed the top of my head and we just sat there in silence with only the sounds of me sniffing and him gently rubbing circles on my back.

A few minutes after i calmed down Liam walked in. Niall shifted me so i was on the bed and gave my cheek a peck before walking out. "Zar, I didn't mean to shout at you like that. Of course i want you to come with me on the tour around America and Canada! I always miss you when you're gone sweetie! You're my little sister for goodness sake! Don't you ever think otherwise, I just got mad okay? I'm a really bad morning person, As Well as you know." I sighed and scooted closer to Liam and hugged him. "I'm sorry" i mumbled into his chest. "Yes Liam, I'm sorry for being a bad sister, For failing you, For cutting. For everything!" I thought to myself. He sighed. "Don't be, Now come on, Go get ready, we're going shopping remember" I smiled at him and shooed him out of the room, "Get going then" I grabbed my pink jeans with the zips and then my new top that says "i'm with the band" on it and went into the bathroom to get ready.

I came out in my clothes and went over my hair with the straightners, I applied my makeup and added some bracelets on before walking out. "LEGGOO BITCHES" I shouted as i got down the stairs. Niall grabbed my hand and pulled me close to him. Wow he wasn't joking when he said he wouldn't let me be on my own he wasn't joking. The girls each had there bags and smiled, "Wooh! Shopping time chicas" Raay screamed and the others started dancing. I laughed at them. They're so weird, But so obviously my friends. "So who's going in what car?" I asked. "Liam, Raay, And Emily are in Harry's car. Me and Amy are going in Louis's car along with Laura. So looks like you're going in Niall's car." Zayn said. My eyes widened. "But Niall has only just passed his test?! And you're alright with this Liam?!" I wasn't actually scared, I just didn't want to be alone with Niall. It's just going to be awkward. "Thanks for the confidence boost babe!" He rolled his eyes and unlocked his range rover. "Yeah i am Zar, He's a good drive! I was in his car on the way here, Now go" Niall walked round to my door and opened it for me and helped me in, I gave him a cheeky grin as he shut my door and walked around to his side.

After a few minutes of silence i finally spoke up. "So which mall are we going too?" He glanced at before fixing his eyes back on the road. "Uh blue water? The girls suggested it because it's like a massive shopping center." Great, a 40 minute drive, Stuck with Niall. You could cut the awkwardness in the air with a knife. "Cool." I leaned forward and turned on the radio. What makes you beautiful started playing and i burst out laughing, "Right because i clearly don't get enough of you boys" Niall laughed. "You know you love my voice hun" I laughed, "Not that i heard you because you don't have any solo's in this one" I grinned cheekily at him. "You're so mean, That hurt" He pouted still keeping his eyes on the road. "Looks like it had the desired effect then" He laughed and the car went quite, Other than the radio in the background. "Zar, Please don't let me knowing, about ya know, uumm yeah, Stop us from being friends, maybe something more. I want to help you," I sighed, "I know, i was hoping the same thing, i thought you were upset with me for it, so i didn't say anything" I sat there fidgeting with my hands again, "wooh wooh wooh, Why would i be upset with you for doing it, You had your reasons, I was upset for you, Not with you! Gosh baby never think that, please?!" He intertwined our fingers keeping his one hand on the steering wheel. I smiled at him calling me baby, "Okay, And now we've got that out the way, YOU DON'T KNOW YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL" I screamed along to the last part of the song. Niall screamed Harry's part "THAT'S WHAT MAKES YOU BEAUTIFUL" He done it in a really girly voice so i giggled hysterically. "I'm so telling Harry that you made fun of his voice" He faked gasped. "No! That's so mean! Harry will beat me up now" He pouted again and i just laughed. "Awwh poor baby Niall... Diddums!" Black Heart by Stooshe started playing and i sang along. The Chorus came on and i started dancing like a retard (Sat down. Obviously) And started screaming again. Niall did it in a stupid voice again changing the words "LIAM I'M FALLING FOR NIALLER, AND YOU'RE SCARING HIM TO DEATH! HE'S IRISH AND BAD, I LOVE HIM LIKE MAD! LIAM PLEASE LET ME DAT HIM! LIAM I'M FALLING FOR NIALLER, OH HE HAS AN IRISH HEART" I burst out laughing at him. "Oh please, That was rubbish!" I flicked his arm and he rolled his eyes. "I thought it was good?" I scoffed at him. "You would" I hummed along to the tune while Niall tried to act hurt but he was laughing too hard to fool me.

This is going to be one of the best days yet. Just hanging around with my friends, And brother. I've always gone out with just the boys or just the girls, This will be very interesting. The paps are going to have a field day. But ya know what. This will not stop my fun. I'm going to enjoy today, and everyday from now on like it's my last day. No more depressed Zara, This is going to be the new and improved Zara. For my sake, and everyone elses.