Author note: I'm probably the worst author at updating, I'm very sorry that this took so long but I kept getting distracted. And I finally managed to write this chapter and there's a chance that I could get worse because school starts again on the 7th and then I'm going to see Ed Sheeran on the 9th. So anyway here's chapter 3.
Remus didn't sleep after James had left the hospital wing, he lay staring out the window, wondering how Sirius was hurt. If he was hurt badly. He regretted being so short tempered with James when he brought up the subject of Sirius. Remus lay awake contemplating everything that had happened in such a short period of time, everything had just happened so quickly, in 24 hours his whole life had been turned upside down. Snape had learned his secret. And worse still, Snape had learned his secret from Sirius. And if possible it got even worse, he had nearly killed Snape, and all because Sirius thought it would be fucking funny But then another, more rational part of his mind interfered with his train of thought. But maybe it was more than that, you didn't even hear Sirius' side of the story. Remus chose to ignore this thought, instead he focused on his anger. There's no way Sirius can explain this, he nearly killed two people just because he was so damn selfish. That's it, I'm not going to let Sirius charm his way out of this one, I can't even fucking look at him let alone be his friend. He's broken that trust. And with that thought, he fell into a nightmare plagued sleep.
When he woke up Remus gathered his stuff because he knew that he was leaving the hospital wing today. But he was distracted because he knew he would have to see Sirius. Sirius Orion Black. The boy who had fucked up his life. He didn't know if he should just ignore Sirius or if he should shout abuse at Sirius until his voice was hoarse or maybe just beat Sirius to a pulp? On the way back to the dormitory he decided that he would ignore Sirius, blank him out, he's not worth it. He's not worth it. He's not worth it. He's not worth it. He repeated this in his head the whole way to the Gryffindor common room, he had to get it into his head before he saw Sirius. He mumbled the password and the Fat Lady swung open and he quietly climbed into the common room. It was 6am so he knew that James and Peter would both be in a very deep sleep. But he knew that Sirius was a light sleeper and usually got up early just to sit staring out the window because he couldn't sleep. Remus quietly crept up the stairs, wincing if a stair creaked. When he finally got to the top he cautiously pushed the door open. And there sure enough was Sirius staring out the window with his back turned to him. Remus didn't know if Sirius had heard him come in or not, so, ignoring his other strategy of blanking Sirius out.
"Sirius'' He whispered, attempting to get his attention but Sirius remained with his back facing him. So he moved a bit closer and raised his voice to barely over a whisper.
"Sirius, look at me.'' Sirius' blatant attempt at ignoring Remus was causing his blood to boil. How dare he ignore him.
So with that thought he reached out and grabbed Sirius' shoulder and spun him around to face him. But as the light from the rising sun shone onto Sirius' face he quickly pulled his hand away as if it was contaminated. He couldn't comprehend what had happened. He knew Sirius was hurt but he didn't think it would be this bad. Sirius, to put it simply looked like death. He was surprised that Sirius was still conscious.
"What-what happened?'' He asked quietly.
Sirius' eyes finally met Remus' and at that exact moment Remus saw exactly how Sirius was feeling. Sirius had let his wall down, usually Sirius put up a wall, he hid his emotions and put on a happy front. Never letting anyone see how he was truly feeling. But he would eventually break every once in a while and then he would let them in. But it hadn't happened in a while and for that while they could feel Sirius changing, he hadn't spoken to anyone about his summer, not even James. It didn't matter how hard they tried, he wouldn't let them in. He'd built his walls so high that it was impossible to climb them. Finally Sirius spoke,
"I'm sorry.''
"I know.''