After a somewhat lengthy delay, I have discovered two more chapters to this story on my computer. And, being currently overwrought with Potter emotions, I thought it would be a good time to share them. Here's dear old Draco's letter! Enjoy!
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Dear Draco,
Honestly, looking back, I don't know where it all went wrong. I mean, I think about you, just entering Hogwarts, and I don't see how you came to become me. You are always a bit of a prat, I will admit, but what I am now…can you be slightly evil without being a bad person?
I don't know what happened. Where everyone around you is going to become more confident, you'll become less and less confident until you end up in the position where you have to choose what is right and wrong. That is not an easy call, let me tell you. I thought I had it all planned, all figured out in my head, but it turns out that there are some things you just can not plan for. There are some emotions that you try to lock away but they end up coming out and attacking you. I know you hate to show emotion right now. All you want is to be right, to have the last word, to be superior. It is not that simple.
Let me ask you: what would you do if you had the opportunity to kill Albus Dumbledore today?
That would be wrong, wouldn't it? You probably wouldn't dream of it, even though you've been bred to hate him.
What about if you had to kill him in order to stay alive?
What if you had to kill him in order to keep your mother alive?
What if one day you wake up and realize that everything you've been doing for the past six years is useless? When you realize that the world is bigger than you, and there are some things that you just can not escape? There are some things you can not control? What do you do when the world is pressuring you to make a choice, a choice that once seemed simple but now seems beyond you?
I am going insane. But what do you know? You're just an eleven year old boy who thinks the only thing that matters is winning the attention of the potions master and watching Harry Potter and his friends fail.
Would you still feel as strongly as you do if you were suddenly in debt to Harry Potter? If, after all of the years of hating each other, he came through as the bigger man and saved your life, and you ran off as a coward?
It is different when you're here. Where you are now, you'd probably still hate Potter. You'd curse him for his weakness and his ability to make you feel inadequate. You'd show him no mercy even though he showed you something greater than mercy.
You'll realize that it is not black and white. One day. I am sure of it. You'll realize it one day.
Best of luck,
- Draco Malfoy in six years
As always, reviews are much appreciated! Thanks for reading!
~Penn