After waking to the smell of her mother's pancakes ,marium got ready as usual and made her way down but something flashed through her mind. She shuddered, looked down and remembered kasim. The way his eyes were brown too, the way he talked, the way he walked. Jamal resembled him in more ways she could think off. His smile, it was his smile. She swallowed and carried on. A smudge of chocolate was on her tie, she lifted it to her mouth and tried to lick it off quickly but just then Jamal walked past. She blushed, he smiled. A stern look grew on her face, he was confused as to why she didn't smile back but carried on as if he didn't care.
"Sara, he reminds me of kasim so much, it's scary" she says as she walked to lunch.
A leaf flew across; her eyes following it till it fell gently upon the ground again. She raised her eyes to notice he was looking at her but he turned away as soon as she realised. She thought to herself...
Kasim used to do that, he used to look and then move his eyes away, but she knew she couldn't hold on forever. That clearly wasn't possible since he wasn't going to come back, not tomorrow not ever. So many thoughts, so many questions but he left leaving them all un answered. She did nothing wrong other than love him but that was obviously her mistake! Because of him going out of her life she felt cautious of her moves, of her words, of her actions. Every day felt like a nightmare but the only thing keeping her going was her friends. Those kinds that stay by your side no matter happens, yeah those kind of friends. Telling her family was clearly not an option because they would never understand let alone give advice on her situation. Maybe it was a misunderstanding or maybe she did something wrong? She wouldn't even get the chance to know now since he didn't talk to her anymore.
Sixth period came quicker than she expected and it was maths again. She took her seat again, thoughts still hovering in the back of her head. Jamal came, smiling like always and the lesson just went on.
"Look after yourself over the next couple of weeks& have a nice holiday kids" said the teacher.
The sighs of relief came from everyone as the last bell rang.
"Erm I won't see you for a while so you know, pass me your number or something?" Marium raised her eyebrow and smiled as he carried on to say "nothing like that just in case I need help with some maths" he looked down embarrassed and handed him a paper with it written on in her little, slanted writing.
She told all the girls about what happened, they all told her she's lucky but to be honest she didn't even give a fuck. He was bound to be like kasim wasn't he? They laughed when she told them he wouldn't even text her any ways. She looked away and realised she felt wanted again..