I don't know what I was thinking. I expected the meadow to be the same as it was last spring beautiful, and full of life despite the fact that it was winter. So I was unprepared for the sight that met my eyes when I stepped out of the tree line into the clearing. Death. Dead grass, dead flowers. The perfect representation of my dead heart, and no lingering love like I was hoping for. And no voice. The realization made my knees buckle and I fell to the ground. Tears flooded my eyes and I couldn't stop the whimper of pain that escaped my lips.
How could the scene of so much love not have an imprint of that love forever etched into each blade of grass? How dare the seasons change and take away the beauty that was meant to be here? The world spins like nothing has changed when for me it has all but fallen apart. The hole in my chest was burning like the fires of hell threatening to consume and destroy every part of me that was left. I heard the noises behind me, but couldn't have cared less. If it was a person hopefully they would see the shattered person on the frozen ground and leave with out offering help they can never give. If it was an animal... so be it.
"I didn't think you would make it this easy for me." By the voice alone I knew it was a vampire, her voice sounded like bells. I turned to look at her and was met with the fire red hair and eyes of Victoria.
"You were looking for me?" It wasn't in till I knew I was going to die that I realized I didn't want to. But just because I didn't want to die didn't mean I'd beg for my life. I would die with the little bit of pride I had left.
"Of course, your Edward killed my James. Now you will die. A mate for a mate." Even in a situation like this where I should be trembling in fear hearing his name felt like a knife to the heart. She took two steps towards me. I stood my legs felt like jello I knew they wouldn't hold me long, but I would not die kneeling in front of Victoria.
"You can kill me, we both know I can't stop you or out run you, but it wont give you the revenge you seek. I am not Ed- Edwards *ouch* mate. He left me four months ago, and hasn't looked back. I'm sure he and the rest of them will feel guilty if they hear of my death, but it won't hurt him the way you want it to." She smiled at me.
"Are you not afraid human? Do you have a death wish?" She took several more steps in my direction.
"Being afraid won't change anything. As far as a death wish... if you asked me ten minutes ago I wouldn't know the answer, but now- no, I don't want to die."
"And tell me human why would I spare you?" She crouched down, I knew this little chat was over as soon as I answered her. I was about to die.
"Because, me and you have something in common." She looked confused. "We both lost the person we wanted to spend eternity with. Arguably a fate worse than death." To my surprise she stood. She seemed to be thinking for several minutes I didn't interrupt.
"You and I human are going on a trip." I was flabbergasted- a trip?
"A- a trip." My face must've shown my confusion, and apparently it was entertaining because she laughed at me. A less terrifying sound than I expected but a little scary non the less.
"Oh yes, if what you say is truth. Your death will do little for me. You alive how ever can get me revenge on all the Cullen's. Plus Aro will most likely want you since your mind reader couldn't read you." *ouch*
Aro I knew that name. The painting in Carlisle's study. One of the three vampire kings. I wasn't sure which one he was, the blond one popped into my mind but for some reason I didn't think his name was Aro. The Volturi Ed-he once told me they were monsters and only people who wanted to die messed with them. I knew what she planed to do. They enforce the law. Well one law that can be broken a hundred different ways. Keep the secret. And the Cullen's left me- a human behind knowing what they were. She was probably right she would get her revenge the Cullen's would most likely burn and there was no way I was walking away. My only hope is that Carlisle's friendship with them can spare their lives.
"So little human are we gonna do this the easy way or the hard way?"
"My name is Bella if I'm being forced to go to Italy with you I don't want to be called 'human' the whole time." It was probably a stupid thing to say to a deadly vampire, but being called 'human' was starting to annoy me.
"Very well Bella then."
In the blink of an eye I was in her arms and she was running, fast! I tried not to think. Not to feel. I was leaving every thing behind I was gone the moment Victoria stepped into the meadow. All my father would find is my truck on the side of the road. My parents just lost their only daughter with out a goodbye just like the Cullen's did to me. So much for me not walking out on family. The difference of course is I was not going willingly.
Me and Victoria didn't speak again. I was being carried bridal style by a human drinking vampire who wants nothing more than to watch people I love die. What could we have to say to each other? Not the ideal circumstances for small talk. The only good I can see coming out of this is they may keep me alive for the trial at least then I'd get to look into E-Edwards *ow* eyes one last time before the end.
The run to the airport didn't take long. Victoria warned me against running, or making a scene. If I did she implied my father would pay the price for my 'foolishness.' So I was quiet the whole time. five hours of silence. Five hours of walking, waiting, and metal detectors. I couldn't help but wonder what she would've done if my I.D didn't expire last month forcing me to carry my passport as identification.
Our seats on the pane were far from first class. almost like padded lawn-chairs. I would be getting little sleep on this half a days long flight. I wish she would've gotten tickets with a layover. It would've added hours to my dwindling life span and I could've stretched my legs. An hour into the flight my eyes started to feel heavy I could feel myself drifting into an uncomfortable sleep.
Blackness, nothing, no light. I feel as if I'm running, searching, but I can not feel the ground. Something precious to me was lost but I couldn't see it, only the blackness. Then a voice, a perfect- beautiful voice. The voice that belongs to that which I seek. But saying something I can't bare to hear.
"I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed." As if he never existed. As if he never existed. As if he never existed.
I sat upright ram rod straight. There was a sheen of sweat covering my body and I was trembling. People were staring at me. I must've been screaming again. It happens every night and still I am never prepared. Victoria had a strange look on her face and judging by my sore and already bruising arm she shook me awake. I didn't dare try to sleep again. Instead I drank one coke after another. Waiting to land while fearing getting to our destination.