Wow, so this is probably the first time I've updated in a decent amount of time. I also realized that I did't leave an author's note in the last drabble, (these are too short to be considered one-shots), and so here's my disclaimer: I don't own the Titans; if I did, Raven would be with Beast Boy, Robin wouldn't be such a pain in the ass, and Terra...well she probably would have left the same way. Anyway, this drabble revolves around Cyborg, again, simply because I don't think he gets enough spotlight.

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Cyborg was becoming fast friends with Google. Normally, the metal teen wouldn't mind; browsing the web was one of his favorite pastimes. But, thanks to the past few weeks, he was really beginning to hate it.

Late at night, when the others were asleep, or pacing, of simply listening with their ear to the door of their youngest member, Cyborg would search the internet for any help. He looked at pages that talked about depression, of possible solutions, of ways to make it easier. He looked up tips to making your friend smile; he even went as far to download an app that gave out a 'Joke of the Day'.

For all his research he might as well have been trying to capture the moon.

There were only so many times he could try to maintain a happy attitude for the team when the person that should have been doing it was hurt. He was grasping at straws, trying to see the light at the end of the tunnel, trying to stay positive. At night was the only time he fell apart.

On the bad nights, the ones where he's pacing in the same room as Robin, he leaves and goes to see his buddy. Those nights he'll use the override code, walk into the room (clean from hours spent in solitude), and watch his best friend sleep. He's grateful for these moments; it puts his mind to ease, just a little bit. Ever since they had...can they even call it loss...ever since Terra had left, his friend hadn't been sleeping well.

He can only imagine what Terra said to him as she tried to kill him...twice.

Those nights he curses Slade. He screams at Terra for what she did, for leaving and hurting his friend like this. He even puts himself down for not seeing it sooner, for not being more cautious, for not noticing how things were falling into place with a sickening click.

But he doesn't stop. He tries to keep Starfire smiling. He tosses one liners back and forth with Robin when he stares at the files too long. He even, timidly, tries to get Raven to come out once and a while.

He spends every minute trying to get Beast Boy to smile again.

It doesn't do a lot of good. There are bad days; the ones where Robin will rant and rave about how he's failed, whether at not seeing the plot or at being a leader; the times where Starfire will just sit and cry silently; the times where he'll be walking along a familiar corridor and hear things he shouldn't as Raven talks through Beast Boy's door.

Times like these, where Cyborg wants to do nothing but break down, that the superhero really hates reality.

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Ya, I don't think any of them would be okay after the whole Terra and Slade deal. Being double crossed doesn't sit well with anyone, not matter what the reasons. Read and Review guys. I love hearing for you. Also if you have requests I'll do my best :-)