Sometimes she wished she had chosen differently. That she could go back in time and change her decision.
That he would never have left.
Would she have ever have fallen for Tara if he had never left? She wasn't so sure. She knew her feelings for Tara had been real, but she was also sure they had been just as real for him. If he hadn't left it might have saved her a lot of heartbreak, both then and in the future.
But would Warren have shot him instead? Would he have been killed in Tara's place? She didn't think so. But she never would have wished that fate on him. If he hadn't left, Tara might still be alive and might her friend instead. Tara would have been happy.
She would have been but would she have stayed with him? If he had stayed, would she have left him for Tara?
Again, she wasn't sure.
It hurt her head just to think about it, so instead, she decided to just pretend.
Pretend Tara was alive, and he never left.
She called it, 'Willows Perfect Fantasy World.'
Because it would never ever happen.
Could never happen.
So she could only pretend.