Hey guys! Sorry it took so long to update but I am having a hard time writing this story for some reason,

Writers block sucks butterscotch but I will be posting more often now that its summer so yea

be sure to review and tell me what you think,it helps alot and also let me know if I should continue

I do not own anything! This all goes to the creaters and yea the only thing i own is the story and of course the baby growing inside of regina haha =)

well Ill let you read now

Regina didn't know what to expect anymore,she was happy that she was marrying the man that he loved but then she realized he didn't want to marry her,he didn't even want the baby...he didn't love her. She just starred glassy eyed out the window and tried not to think about the life she was going I have to have,the world she was bringing her baby into. This wasn't a happy life, let alone a healthy one. Regina wanted to be able to give this child the life she never had and she also wanted to give it the life Henry never had,she wanted to give this baby a father and unconditional love. She knew deep down that would never happen but she like to make her self believe it would. It had been two weeks since her mother declared that she was to marry Gold and have his child. Regina hadn't talked to Snow but that didn't mean Snow didn't call every hour of everyday just to be told that Regina wasn't feeling well an to try again later.

Regina actually had not been feeling well at all,sometimes it was hat to get out of bed because of the shooting pain that hit her everytime she moved. It would start in her shoulders and make its way down to her stomach and pelvic area and soon travel down to her legs and feet. It would only happen though when she got herself worked up or became extremely stressed,then the pain took over. She had forced herself to calm down and she was doing pretty good,she felt better a lot better but of course she wouldn't be able to have moments of peace like that,something always had to ruin her happiness.

Gold was moving in today. Cora was making him,all of his things were being shoved into whatever space they found and he had to find his side of the closet,his side of the sink, his side of the bed and of course e had to find a place to work. It was a good thing that Regina Owned a large house or she would be forever doomed, Gold didn't greet Regina, he didn't even look at her as he passed her going up the stairs. She felt her stomach turn and scurried the rest of the way down the steps, her mother had a smile plastered on her face while she told the moving men where to put the furniture. When Cora saw Regina her eyes lit up and she made we way toward her sick daughter.

"Oh Regina honey! I am so glad you decided to come down,now where would you like these kind men to put your husbands desk and books and such?" Cora flutter her hand towards the mahogany desk and book shelf.

"Uhhh...why don't you put those in the office upstairs. Just go up and it's the third room on the right." Regina smiled and winked at the men that made there way up the stairs and gawked at the beauty she knew she had.

"Have you already set a dye for the wedding darling?" Cora intwined her fingers with Regina's and dragged her slowly into the kitchen.

"No mother I havent..." Talking a seat at the counter and sighing heavily.

"Regina you haven't done anything but lay in bed and whine. Now I want you to start figuring your life and plan you wedding while planning for the baby. Are you listening to me?" Cora set both I her hands on the marble counter and leaned over it so she was looking Regina right in the eye.

Regina didn't feel like fighting with her mother and she already knew she would lose if they began,sighing once more she nodded and left the kitchen. She let her feet take her wherever they wanted an didn't think twice about it until she realized she was back in her room and watching as Gold hung up his suits. He turned and looked at her.

"Hello Regina." His voice showed no sign of emotion,there was nothing there but empty words.

"Hi." She cursed silently at herself when her strong suit of armor crashed around her and left her vulnerable and scared.

"Everything alright?" Gold raised an eyebrow and reached another hanger.

"Yea,everything's fine. Are you okay?" She lowers herself down on the bed and gave him a weak smile.

"I'm great." He returned the small smile and turned away from her to look in the closet.

"Hey...can you find me something to wear please?" Regina didn't know if she was pushing to far or was just being awkward but she had to get dressed and she really didn't want to stand and have to walk all the way over there.

He turned and looked at her, obviously confused about what she was asking of him. He opened his mouth and closed it again,looking over her clothes he ran his fingers over a deep apple red red and then over a blue Blouse only to go back to the red dress. Pulling in out he looked it over and then looked back at Regina, smiling he handed it over an she began to undress. For some reason it wasn't weird it actually felt natural and plus it wasn't like he hadn't already seen her butt naked before. Regina's baby bump had already began to form and even though it was little it was there.

Gold starred at her small stomach and felt his chest begin to hurt,the small being the was causing that small bump belonged to him. He was the creator of the small creature,that was HIS bay and no one else's. "I'm sorry Regina." He spoke before he could stop himself.

"Sorry for what?" Regina stopped unzipping the dress and turned to look at him.

"I'm sorry for telling you,you couldn't have the baby." He walked towards her and sat on the bed.

"It's alright. I shouldn't have jus forces it onto you like that. I know you don't love me and I know you never will but...I want this baby to have you in it's life because you are the most amazing man I have ever met..and I know that is baby is going to love you more then anyone ever could." Regina felt the tears coming,the weakness ready to control her.

"No one will ever love me more then you do..." Gold reached out and grabbed her small cold hand and intwined his fingers with hers.

"I don't want anyone but you to love me." She whispers towards him.

"I know...but I cant." He shook his head and watched once again as he broke her heart.

Regina felt a warm tear fall freely down her face,she pulled her hand back and slipped on the red dress. "Regina,what are you doing?" Gold sighed deeply.

"I have a wedding I have to plan and a baby I have to prepare for.." Without looking at him she slipped on her regular black heels.

"Well do you want any help,I am willing to help." He followed her into the bathroom, Regina didn't answer she just rubbed her apple red lipstick into her lips and left.

Regina hurried out the door knowing if she stayed any longer she would have a melt down. They had a moment,they were having one if the most amazing moments and then he began thinking of Belle. The only women he will ever love is belle. Regina walked into Granny's diner looking for one particular person, when she saw Mary Margaret she smiled to herself and made her way to the table,not caring that charming and Emma were both sitting next to her.

"Regina!" Mary Margaret perked up when she saw her and the calmed backdown when she got a few weird glances from her family and others. "Regina...what are you doing here?"

"I came to talk to you...in private.." Regina looked at Emma and Charming who were giving her weird looks,

"Oh well umm..,,why don't we goooo.." Mary Margaret stood up.

"Order some coffee?" Regina smiled and Mary Margaret nodded, following her over to Ruby.

"Morning! What can I get you?"

"Two coffee's please." Regina smiled and then turned toward Snow. " I have to marry him.."

"What?!" Mary Margaret leaned towards Regina. "Gold..you have to marry Gold?" She whispered and Regina nodded.

"Yes,thanks to my mother.." Regina looked away from the young women.

"I'm so sorry..." Mary Margaret slowly reached out and took te coffee Ruby had set down for them.

"I'm not.." She replied quietly.

"What do you mean?" Snow began to stir the sugar she had just slipped into her coffee.

"I mean..I wanna marry him. I am in love with him but he doesn't love me back he said so this morning." Regina gave her a soft smile an looked back down at the counter.

"You can't make someone love you Regina,it doesn't work that way and I'm sorry if this is harsh but making him marry you isn't going to help your relationship." Mary Margaret tried her hardest to keep we voice soft so even the harsh words didn't sound to bad.

Regina nodded knowing that Snow was right,she always was. She couldn't make Gold love she didn't want it that way.

"If he wants you to be in his life he would put you there, you shouldn't have to fight for a spot." Snow spoke softly but Regina didn't want to look at her,everything she was saying was true but she didn't want to hear it. She was beginning to get angry at the fact that she had been so weak and broken down for so long. She was done being the fragile little girl she had been.

"Your right..I gotta go. Thanks for the chat. I'll see you around?" Regina plastered on a large fake smile and turned towards snow beginning to rise as snow nodded and began to get up also.

"Yeah,glad I could help..see you around. Regina are you sure you are okay?" The younger women asked before she turned around and walked back to her husband and daughter.

"Oh yeah,I'm fine." Walking out Regina felt the power come back to her. The pain was gone and the only thing she felt was a slight powerful energy rush.

Gold knew he had to go after Regina after she just left like that. So that's where he was now,out and looking for the lost queen who didn't seem to want to come out of hiding. Then he saw Belle and all thoughts of finding Regina were gone.

"Rumple! Wait up!" Belle skipped towards him,her dark blue dress swaying around her knees.

"Awe Belle...what a pleasant surprise." Gold smile brightly and turned towards his once girlfriend.

"How's Regina?" Belle asked sounding a little nervous and slightly awkward.

"She's uhhh...she's..good." He finally managed to say and he limped beside the beautiful princess.

"Well that's good!" Belle sounded to happy and finally Gold stopped and looked at the young girl. She looked like she had been crying,she was a slight pale color and didn't seem to want to look him in the eye.

"Oh Belle..come here." He wrapped her in his arms and felt her snuggle into him. It had been so long since he had hugged her and it felt so amazing to do it again.

Then he felt it. Her power,her radiating prescience was standing behind him. He heard a slight throat clear and turned around to see his fiancé who didn't look too happy.

"Regina."

"Gold." She smile and turned towards The small girl in his arms. "And Belle.." Regina nodded and dropped her smile.

"Hello Miss Mills." Belle unwrapped herself from his arms and backed away from the queen.

"I've been looking for you." Gold gave her a small smile.

"We'll here I am." She replied throwing her arms out slightly.

"There you are..." Gold walked to her and grabbed her arm softly tugging her a little towards him and wrapping her in a tight hard hug. Regina didn't seem to care,she just hugged him back.

"Well I better be going." Belle smiled an nodded towards the awkward couple in front of her.

"Ohh well bye then." Gold nodded and looked away,Regina jut turned and started walking in the other direction.

"Where are you going,the dresses are that way?" He pointed back towards Belle and Regina snorted.

"No the dresses are this way,Belle is that way. You can go walk with her if you would like." Regina raised an eyebrow at him.

"No no it's quite alright,i'll go shopping with you." He smiled and continued to walk beside her.

"You can't dress shop with me.." Regina stated an gold nodded.

"But I can baby shop with you." Without lookin at her he turned into a store and began looking around.

Shaking her head she entered the store. No one could tell but she was shaking and her hands were beginning to turn clammy. He was already looking over the large cribs and checking price tags and how slick the wood was. Watching him do this made her knees go weak,he had stopped at a pretty cherry wood colored one and smiled when he began looking it over.

"Regina dear do come look." He called towards her and she felt her feet begin to move underneath her with any warning she was pressed up against te side of him and was looking over the crib.

"It's pretty but..," Regina tilted her head to the side.

"But..?" Gold smile brightly an tilted his head so he was looking into her eyes.

"What if it's not a girl?" Regina whispered.

"What if it's not? The cherry color is gender neutral,it won't matter." Gold chuckled Regina smiled. This isn't the man from this morning.. Regina thought to herself.

They had gotten back to the house and Cora was gone and no body felt like looking for her. Regina ha found her way upstairs and gold followed. So here they were both lying on te bed and starring at the ceiling. They had decided on the crib but didn't feel like getting anything else until they found out the sex of the baby. They also had to announce to the town they were getting married AND having a child together. There were 4 more months until spring and by then Regina believed she would look like a baby whale.

Regina turned and looked at her fiancé who's eyes were closed but she could tell he was still awake. "What happened today?"

"What do you mean?" He popped open one eye and looked at her.

"You were acting like you loved me...when you dont." Regina swallowed hard and felt tears begin to come.

"Well...the town believe we're in love so...I'm in love." He shrugged.

"No your not,you even admitted it to me! You don't love me and you know you don't,so why pretend?" Regina felt a sickness coming on but she wasn't going to leave this conversation.

"This baby deserves to be brought into a loving family. Two people that love each other...even of its fake.." Hold sat up with her and she looked away as hot years streaked her face.

"I swear sometimes it's like you actually enjoy breaking my heart.." With that Regina stood and left the room. Anger was takin owe and she knew she was going to explode,she hated this and she knew it was time to stop letting him hurt her so bad.

Okay so yea,thats it!

sorry its so short,i was having a hard time lol

Tell me if I should continue or not,cause if you want me too I will haha

I know this is like really early but what should I name the baby,Boy and girl names because I havent even figured out the sex yet haha

Okay good bye!

Thank you! xoxo