September 2013

My b-day was just last night and I never thought a tragedy would strike and my world is completely torn apart I am so glad to have Olivia with me cause I wouldnt be able to get through this if it wasnt for her. "I have no idea what happened he just woke up in the middle of the night and said he was going for a drive cause he couldnt sleep I offered to go with him but he refused said he needed to be alone." Blanda cried explaining what was going on and my parents and I were still upset however after the question Joe asked me if hes really happy with Blanda I knew something was wrong but I had no idea a drunk driver would slam into Joe's car when he went for a drive and now I wish I couldve spoken to him more now hes in a coma and I have no idea when he is getting out of it. I heard footsteps running screaming my name, "Nick what happened is Joe ok I got on the first flight to New York I could fine is he alright." Demi asked with tears running down her face as she threw her arms around me sobbing as I held her tight while leading her to a seat where Dani came and wrapped her arms around Demi as well as we tried to calm her down.

"Shh Dem its ok Im here we all are let it out ok I dont want u to bottle everything up ok." I soothed her as my mom sat on the other side holding her as my best friend broke down in our arms I knew telling her about Joe's accident was going to be hard on her I just didnt imagine how heart wrenching her tears would be if I wasnt sure before I am now Dem is still madly in love with Joe and her sobs are proof of it. After crying her heart out she finally calmed down as Kevin rubbed her back up and down like a big brother trying to calm her and she sighed before her tears calmed down she was still crying but not as bad. After the accident Joe was transferred to a hospital in New York and my entire family came and I called Dem to tell her I just never thought she would get on her private jet and come here but this is Demi we're talking about and Joe and her belong together Blanda is nice and all but Joe isnt truly happy with her. "How did this happen Nick I just spoke to him last night on the phone and this morning u call telling me he was in a car accident and hes in a coma why."

She asked crying and I just held her as Olivia and I took her to get some hot chocalate to calm her down, "Joe woke up in the middle of the night saying he couldnt sleep and was going for a drive to clear his head on the way back to the hotel a drunk driver came out of nowehere and crashed into his side of the car and the car flew and hit a tree they had to cut him out of the car. He was brought to the hospital and they performed surgery on him to stop the internal bleeding and he almost died on the operating table twice but they were able to stabalize him and he was put in a room he was doing ok and the doctor said he was lucky to be alive but just a few hours ago he fell into a coma and they dont know when hes going to wake up it could be months or years." I told her as I cried and Olivia held me tight as Demi cried and hugged herself in pain before Olivia wrapped her arms around her in a hug holding us both as we cried harder and harder before we calmed down and walked back to the waiting room where my mom came up to Demi and wrapped her arms around her in a tight hug. "Im so sorry Mama J this shouldnt have happened to him." Demi cried and my mom held her tighter soothing her tears away with words a mother would tell her children as they both held onto each other like a lifeline. "Can I please see him Mama and Papa J." I heard her ask and smiled she always called them that when she was sad and needed comfort and seeing my dad eyes mist over with the term of endearment as he kissed her head saying of course she can I sighed knowing that was a change sicne my dad was mostly the cause of why Joe and Demi broke up so seeing this was a milestone proving to me Demers was finally healing and our family was getting complete cause Joe and I always knew Demi was the missing piece of the Jonas' and seeing us come together with her cause of tragedy put a small smile on my face. However the jealousy, anger and hatred coming from Blanda's eyes as she watched Demi with my parents made red flags come into my head Joe needed to end it with her before she did something she'd regret all her life.

Demi's POV

When Nick called to tell me about Joe;s accident my heart felt like it was being ripped to shreads and I cried a good two hours before Marissa held me asking what was wrong and when I told her what she called my dad and mom asking for the jet explaining what happend and they sent me a car and she packed for me as I made my way to New York I needed to know he was alright and my parents said they would come in the next few days after putting everything in order and Marissa came with me as I flew to New York to make sure the love of my life was ok becasue as much as I try to deny it and move on I cant becasue I am still in love with Joe Jonas and I needed to be with him not caring about his so called girlfriend. As I walk into his room my heart aches seeing him like this and I cant help but run to him hugging him as I sobbed in his arms as he laid in the bed looking like he was asleep as the wires were attached to his body letting me know his heart was still beating. I laid in the bed and held his body as I cried, "Joey what were u thinking driving so late at night when all the drunks were around u couldve just taken a walk or something and now here you are lying in a bed fighting for your life. You need to fight Joey I love you and need you more than anything I cant live in a world without you Joey. Please wake up and I promise Ill fight for you this time I wont let Blanda take u away from me I love u and I want you back baby please God dont take him away from me I already lost my biological father I cant lose Joe I just cant please, please save him."

I begged as I held Joe and kissed his lips gently pooring all my love in that kiss praying to God he felt it as I cuddled in his arms and cried myself to sleep. I woke up to the sound of yelling and I stirred not knowing what was going on I looked down at Joe and caressed his cheek before kissing his lips, "Ill be back Joey I need to see what all the comotion is Ill be back I promise." I looked at him and went out the door closing it gently as I walk towards the yells and what I see shocks me Blanda is screaming and Danielle is being held back by Kevin to stop her from attacking Blanda and he looks pissed as well as everyone else. "What the hell is she doing here Joe is my boyfriend not hers and she gets to see him and when I walk in she is in his bed holding him like a lover would she has no right and you Nick had no right to call her it doesnt concern her." She yelled and I could feel my own anger at her cruel words who does she think she is I have known Joe almost all my life and he was mine before ever being hers so I have every right to be here but before I could say anything I heard Nick shout and what I heard made my heart beat fast.

"SHE HAS EVERY RIGHT TO BE HERE JOE AND HER ARE BEST FRIENDS AND SHES BEEN IN HIS LIFE LONGER THAN YOU HE WOULD WANT HER HERE AND FRANKLY SO DO WE SHE IS FAMILY AND ALWAYS WILL BE! BESIDES JOE LOVES HER MORE THAN HE WILL EVER LOVE YOU SO GET OVER YOURSELF JUST BECAUSE HES BEEN WITH YOU FOR 10 DAMN MONTHS DOESNT MEAN HE WANTS TO MARRY YOU!" He shouted and I winced at that as she looked at him socked to her core thats right bitch Joe loves me not you get that through your thick skull. "Why the hell would he want to be with some crazy bitch who was in rehab for cutting herself and who is bipolar she isnt even that pretty shes fat." She yelled and my anger spiked eho the hell does this chick thinks she is saying that about me I was pissed and before I said something my eyes widened as Denise Jonas slapped Blanda striaght across the face shocking everyone around, "who the hell do u think you are talking about Demi that way u have no idea who she is and my son knows her better than all of us put together and he loves her so she deserves to be here not you."

I came out and anger was in my eyes, "have respect we are in a hospital and Joe is in a room fighting for his life he doesent need this tension. And who the hell do u think u are Blanda talking about me that way you dont know me so dont fucking judge me. And for your information Joe and I have been through a lot together and just becasue youve been with him for 10 months doesnt mean a thing he and Camilla were together for a damn year and look what happened not to mention Ashley was with him for 9 months and that ended too." I hissed angrily at her as I stalked up to her and glared. "Plus Joe wants to be with me he told me but he doesnt want to hurt you so he is still with you. Besides Joe has always loved me and always will since when we were together he gave me all of him and I do mean all of him." I hissed with venom in my voice before getting close to her ear and whispering to her with hate and delight, "how is he in bed B cause I got to tell you whenever we make love I see stars. Oh right he hasnt had sex with you well there you have it he belongs to me mind, body, heart and soul so I have every right to be here not you." I whispered harshly and looked at her as tears came to her eyes and I smirked I know it was mean but Joe hasnt had sex with her that I know for a fact casue he told me and Nick confirmed it. "So I have every right to be here so live with it cause I am not going anywhere I love Joe and he needs me so deal with it. Now if you excuse me I have a man to see casue I know he'll wake up he wouldnt leave his family and more importantly he wouldnt leave me." I said and turned around making my way back to Joe's room as I felt someone hug me tahnkful it was Nick, "you told her about Joe losing his virginity to you when you whispered in her ear didnt you."

I looked at him and smiled weakly, "yea I was just s angry at her that I wanted to hurt her and I knew she hasnt had sex with him so I told her casue I wanted to hurt her." I told him and he sighed before hugging me, "I understand I was about to tell her myself I know him better than anyone and he loves you Dem I know that for a fact." Nick told me and I smiled as we walked up to Joe's bed and I sat on the bed with him holding his hand as Nick held mine, "I wonder what Joe is dreaming about must be something good as he has a smile on his face." I said and Nick smiled shrugging not knowing what was going through Joe's mind as he laid in a coma fighting for his life.

May 2010

I couldnt believe Dem was all mine and we made love for the first time and I have to say it was better than before I missed her so damn much and in this crazy time travel thing I am going to make the most of it we are on the way to New York to promote Camp Rock 2 and it was supposed to be the week we broke up but I am not breaking up with her so I am going to make the most of it since its our 6 month anniversary and Im making the most of it. "Wow Joey New York is so beautiful and I cannot wait to spend the week with you while we promote Camp Rock 2 come on Joey lets go to the hotel." She said and I smiled as we made our way to the hotel where a time ir would be the worse of my life to a time that will be thw best of my life. We went all over promoting the movie holding hands anytime we could I even took her on a boat ride as we sailed the lake and saw the statue of liberty. We went clubbing and danced the night away at some salsa club and the memory of my Just In love video came back full force and I smiled that song was about Demi and the video showed the more intimate aspect of our life.

We got home and I kissed her as I led her to the bedroom tonight was our celebration for our 6th month anniversary. Our clothes were thrown around before I lay her in the bed and hovered over her, "youre so damn beautiful Dem I love you so much." I whispered and I kissed her as the remaining clothes was taken off and I thrusted inside her moaning in pure ecstasy. I went in and out of her as she wrapped her legs tight around my waist and moaned my name, "ughhhh Dem youre so damn tight mmmmmm." I groaned as I went in and nout of her faster and harder and before I knew it her walls wrapped tightly around my cock squeezing the life out of it, "ahhh ahhhh OHHHHHH GOD JOEYYYYYYYY." She screamed out as she climaxed and after her explosive release I had my own climax as I came hard shooting my load inside her warm womb, "uhhhh ahhhh AHHHHHH FUCK DEMMMMMMMMM." I collapsed against her delectable body as she kissed me lovingly on the lips and I nuzzled my face into her neck as I came down from my high I stayed inside her for a while as she ran her fingers up and down my spine as I shivered at her touch god I loved this woman. I pulled out of her slowly groaning at the loss before laying next to her pulling her onto my chest as her leg intertwined with mine and she kissed my chest before nuzzling her face in my neck and cuddling with me as we held each other tight god I missed her and when I wake up from this amazing dream I wont have her unless I change it.

"I love u Dem with all my heart." I whispered in her ear and she gave me a sleepy smile before kissing me, "I love u too Joey always." She whispered and I smiled kissing her before falling asleep with her in my arms. I woke up at around 2 am and I didnt feel Demi and a feeling of dread came over me before I pulled on some boxer briefs and followed the light illuminating the bathroom and when I opened it I was horrified at what I saw Dem was in a corner blood falling down her arms, "OMG Demi what the hell did you do." I yelled out as I ran in and wrapped both of them with a towel as I looked in her eyes and tears were falling down her beautiful face as she threw herself in my arms and I held her pressing down on both towels stopping the bleeding, "baby why did u do this why my love." I pleaded as I held her and tears fell down my own face as she hugged me tighter. "Im so sorry Joey I dont know what came over me I just feel so alone my daddy doesnt love me and youll leave me soon for someone prettier and skinnier Im ugly and fat." She cried before jumping out of my arms and going into the bedroom I grabbed her and she punched me but I let her before she got tired and started crying hugging me tight as we both fell on the floor.

"Dem baby no you are the most beautiful woman in all the world and I love you boo only you I would never leave you my heart wouldnt be able to take it I love you too much. Please babygirl dont think that I Joe Jonas am madly in love with you Demetria Lovato and I dont want anyone else. Youre gorgeous and when we have our children theyll look beautiful just like their mother ok." I told her and she looked at me with tears but a small smile and cuddled into my arms, "I love you too Joey with all my heart." She said and I kissed her before showing her exactly how much I love her as we made love nice and slow while I worshipped every inch of her body as I proved my love. I kissed her all over and thrusted in and out of her nice and slow devouring her entire body and expressing my love to the max. After making love all night I kissed her and she smiled at me, "I wrote a song for you ok thats going on my solo album and that shows how much I love you and even though we may have our fights I still love you its called Just In Love." I said before grabbing my guitar as she nestled between my legs and looked up at me as I sang her the song that explians exactly how much I love her. ( watch?v=y98JpV8W8Yk)

I started singing and her eyes were sparkling in love as the lyrics came out of my mouth from my heart. She turned in my arms and straddled me as I sang my heart out to her and she smiled as tears of happiness fell down her face and I kissed them away as I continued singing as memories of our fights ending in making love filled my head as I sang to her in our hotel room in New York. "Girl Im just in love with you, just in love with you." I sang as she smiled and I finished the and kissed her before we made love again. "Dem baby Im here for you ok promise me you wont cut yourself again ok I cant see you like that you scared me babydoll a lot promise me ok and if you need help please let me know and we'll get you help ok love." I told her and she looked at me before promising it even though I knew she wouldnt keep it unless I got her help so hopefully showing how much I love her and not leaving her will help somehow cause I love her and do not want her to die on me a world without Demi isnt a world.

We made our way back to LA and I couldnt wait I loved my house and our tour was coming up we had good morning america and I couldnt wait since this time Demi and I never broke up. "Hey dad Im home New York was awesome and I cannot wait for Good Morning America." I said and my dad smiled before he asked the question, "did you break up with Demi." I rolled my eyes and got mad, "no dad I didnt I told you I wasnt going to do that and I didnt so dont ask me again I love her dad and I plan on marrying her one day so get used to it shes it for me dad and thats just it." I told him angrily before saying hi to my mom and walking out before hearing my mom yell at my dad. I was upset so I called Nick and he met me for coffee as well as Kevin, "wow dad really is pushing it Demi is like a sister and you love her Joe he shouldnt make you break up with her." Kevin said dissapointed and I smiled happy I had my brothers with me, "thanx guys for being here I love you both and Demi does too dad just has to understand I am not breaking up with her I love her and she loves me thats all that matters shes so excited about my solo project and cannot wait to see the songs I already sang one to her which is about her called Just In Love she loved it." I said smiling big and my brothers chuckled as we ate our lunch.

I went to my apartment when I walked in my room and saw quite a sight Demi was asleep and cuddled in my blankets and I just smiled before cuddling next to her as I held her and we took a nap. "Hey gorgeous I made your favorite Chicken Alfredo come on lets eat and than we'll see your favorite movie Mean Girls come on." She smiled and jumped up kissing me before we ate and than cuddled in my bed watching mean girls my girl's favorite movie before falling asleep in each others arms. We were at the walmart sounscheck and Demi and I sang our hearts out to Wouldnt Change a Thing back than it was heart wrenching since we had barely broken up but here now together and not broken up is so much better and I love it. ( watch?v=18h2hBxOlPo) This time as we sang I looked at her and she looked at me with a huge smile on her face and I was so happy I came back to change things by never breaking up with her when we had to perform that it was hard for the both of us back than and Im thankful for waking up in 2010 where I can rectify my mistakes and stay with the woman I truly love Demi Lovato.